my worth

Being lonely is the worst feeling you can ever be subjected to. mine started when . I finished high school and was about going out of town to search for greener pastures, living all my friends and supposed family was something that was and is still very hard to do you're already missing us right? Emily said. Emily was my best friend and I was her maid of honor on her wedding day. up till now we've done everything together it'll be very hard to forget, I said. Julia, we'll always be the same, we will call each other and we'll visit too. Emily has been such a loving friend and I'm sure she's hurting inside we'll do lunch and go shopping together. she continued. Julia gazed back over everything, their circle of friends, her memories of the them and then she got up to her feet and knew it was time to goHello, this is Julia who am I speaking with. hello, this is Thomas speaking. "oh my God Thomas, how are you doing." Julia asked. "I'm good and you , how are you doing." Thomas replied at the other end of the phone. "I'm so glad that you called- Thomas is like a father figure to me, he took care of me and took me in when I lost my parents, and his calling me now makes me feel guilty for not calling for over a year now-i've really missed you." " me too Jules and hope you doing well over there". Thomas replied. " yeah I'm good, I have my own apartment and I'm playing safe." "yeah that's good and tell me are you seeing anyone you think I should know about." Thomas asked curiously. ' no Tom and I am happy that way" Julia pouted.. "what do you mean, are the men over there blind or are they pretending not to see you." Thomas answered. "common Thomas that is not important for now, so tell me why did you call." "well Jules, I think I have a bad news. what is it, tell me tom" you know Emily right? he asked. "yeah, who doesn't know Emily -and for the fact that she's also my best friend, I f*****g was her maid of honor- ." "well the thing is that". Thomas broke off I could hear the clanking of ice, which means he is drinking or something. yes go on. "well there's news that she's dead." "what?" I literally stood up from my seat because of the shock tears streaming down my face. "how? when? I couldn't stop the questions that followed." "well we discovered her in her bedroom and it appears that she committed suicide and her burial will be in the coming week". Thomas replied. "I fell short of words not knowing what to say, the shock was too much for me to handle , I spoke to her over the phone and she assured me that she was doing fine and now this, this horrible news". "I'm sorry Julia, you had to find out from me, I'll call you back later okay, be safe." "I will be fine tom don't worry about me," then the phone beeped to show the call was ended. "through out the night I couldn't concentrate on anything but the sad sad news I just received. I couldn't afford to miss her funeral so I have to go down town to pay my respects".