Not Like The Movies

I'm your average dreamer I'm a true escapist Always expecting a happy ending Should I keep my heart shut? Should I've been more patient? Should I keep an eye on my addiction? What was I expecting? Did I have a vision of a scene, that only lives in fiction Now I know that you are not Gonna be my co-star And I start to wonder why... If this was a movie, you'd be here right now... *** Xiao Zhan This is the last day of our shooting for the "Untamed" live-action adaptation. I smiled widely at my co-lead actor, Wang Yibo. "It's a wrap, guys! Congratulations!" The crew gave applause to the whole team and I shifted my gaze to them. "We did it, Zhan-Ge" Yibo patted my back. "Yeah, we did!" "Wei Wu Xian, you're so great! I'm so proud of you!" Ji Li rushed towards me and hugged me. "You did well too, Huisang! Hahaha! I laughed at my heart's content. We are used to calling each other's character names. I inclined my head to look at Yibo but he already walked away. What's the matter? I wondered. "Today, we will have our finale celebration at Shanghai Hotel. No one should miss this!'' "Yes sir!" All the cast chorused. "Let's go!" Ji Li pulled me into the dressing room. "Let's get this all done and let's party!" This human's energy never falters at any hour of the day. I just chuckled and sat down. The make-up artist started undressing my hair extension. Suddenly, I remembered that we're room buddies with Yibo, but he's not around. "Ms. Kim, have you seen Yibo?" I asked my stylist. "He's probably changing clothes now. Why? Do you miss your hubby already?" I nearly choked at my saliva and looked at her in the mirror. Am I that obvious? ''Haha. You're kidding, right. Of course, I'm just worried that he'll be late. That's all." "Oh, here I was thinking that you have missed me, Zhan-Ge." My eyes widened and saw Yibo sitting beside me. His stylist also got busy doing her work on him. "Didi, you're here. Hi." Is all that I can say. I don't want him to notice how my heart beats racing so fast. "Did you grab your lunch? If not, I brought you some snacks." He tossed a nutritious chocolate bar. I just smiled and said. "Thank you. You should eat some too." I opened the choco bar and gave the other half to him. The two stylists giggled at each other. Ms. Kim snorted. "You two misters are so obvious. I get it now. You don't have to make me look like I'm a single lone girl." Yibo and I laughed. We were used to people calling us a "couple", maybe because of the characters that we portrayed. "You're funny, Ms. Kim. I am just like you, totally single. Don't ask Yibo, he'll deny that there's someone special in his heart right now." I kid and smirked at Yibo. Yibo also smirked and didn't reply. "So, is there someone who caught your attention, Mr. Wang? Oh, I'm so curious." Ms. Xien giggled. Ms. Kim tapped Ms. Xien and gestured to keep it low. I focused on my reflection. The hair extension was already removed and I looked exactly like myself, Xiao Zhan. The true me. And not Wei Wuxian. I gently sneaked at Yibo's reflection in the mirror. He looks so dazzling especially when his extensions were removed. I can see his long eyelashes fluttering as he busied himself at his cellphone. I gulped a lump in my throat. Am I hurt? Is it true that Yibo has someone special in his heart? Why didn't he deny it? I snapped myself and breathe in. This is is not the best time to feel this way. I need to focus on my work. I am paid for this, so my feelings are also my responsibility. I brushed off that thought in my mind. And Yibo promised me yesterday that he will tell me everything today. He recalled. At Shanghai Hotel. "I would like to thank the Untamed cast for the undying support, efforts, and creativity that you poured out in this project. This drama will not be this successful without your hard work. Congratulations to all of us! Cheers!" We all raised our champagne glasses and clink together. We were having a great time together. Wang Zhoucheng, Fanxing, Xuan Lu, Ji Li, and Yu Bin are at this table too. The other groups occupied the other tables. "Do you remember when Ji Li was left for the next taping because he got stuck in a bathroom?'' I babbled. Ji Li pouted and glared at me. "You're such a bully, Wei Wuxian." Everyone laughed. "Anyways, after this, what are your plans?" Zhoucheng asked. I thought for a while and said "I think I need to continue my work at CG entertainment and wait for other projects." "Oh, is that so?" Yu Bin asked "Yeah. That's right." "That's good to hear, A-xian." Xuan Lu patter my head. She's such a sweet sister even during off-cam. "I will miss you all guys! This drama has been so special to me." Fanxing said, grabbing the glass with liquor in it. I grabbed his glass away and clicked my tongue. "Lan Shizui, you should not drink. I didn't permit you yet." I faked a serious tone. "But Senior Wei-" "No buts, A-Yuan." Fanxing pouted and drink his lemon juice. Everyone laughed and I joined them. "Brother Zhan is always strict on A-Yuan, on or off cam." Yu Bin commented. I just raised my eyebrows and smirked. "Yeah, and he always bullies others!" Ji Li added. "Hey hey, what I said is true. I did not bully you. I'm a good boy. Right, Shijiè?" Xuan Lu just nodded sideways but she didn't look convinced. The night was long but I still didn't have a glimpse of Yibo. Maybe he's not here? I looked around and saw Ji Yang, Zanjin, Bowen, Haikuan, and Haoxuan. I walked towards them and asked where Yibo is. "Oh, he's not with you? I saw him earlier talking with the staff. His manager went here earlier, maybe there's an upcoming event or project for him." Haikuan answered. "Thank you." I waved at them and started looking for Yibo. Why are you looking for him? My mind asked. Yeah, why will I look for him? Maybe because I wasn't able to see his handsome face for the whole night? "You're crazy." I clicked my tongue. Yes, I need to see him, there are lots of questions in my mind. I want an answer. I want a clarification. I want absolution. Maybe later. I was about to go back to my table when someone grabbed my hand. "Zhan-Ge, I've been looking for you." I stopped in my tracks upon hearing this so familiar voice. "Lan Zhan! You're here! Well, I'm just having fun with them." I pointed at the table where I am about to go. "Can you drink with me?" He asked, smiling. "Sure, where's your place?" "Come." Yibo leads the way. Where is he taking me? In his home? Are we gonna fu- drink there and be drunk? I slapped my face for that crazy idea. He brought me to a VIP room and he took out a wine bottle from I don't know where. He poured a drink on my glass and there was silence. "I was so busy earlier so I arrived late.'' Yibo broke the silence after some time. "Oh, I heard you have an upcoming project?" I gleefully asked. "Yes, but I'm not sure if I'll take it or not." "Why not?" I asked "It's a romance drama and I will be teamed up with a girl." I chuckled. He furrowed his brow. "Why are you laughing?" Oh, he's serious. "Didi, you'll be having another big break and that's great. And what's the problem with having a female lead? That's how it should be, isn't it?" I smiled widely. He swallowed his drink before answering. "How about you? What's your next plan?" That was more like a question and not an answer. I shrugged my shoulder and grin. "I need to take care of some matters in my agency and I think I should focus on that more. Whatever project may come, I'll just leave it to my manager. You know, we need to face reality. The series has ended." I turned around and saw that he is already looking at me. His eyes are so beautiful that I got drunk without even drinking a sip yet. He closed his eyes and looked away. Did he just sigh? I looked at my glass and played with it with my fingers. "So, I think this is goodbye?" He uttered and raised his glass. I choked before I raised my glass too and looked at him. Goodbye? After all that we've been through? After all the things that we've shared? After all the kisses-the gentleness, the night we've shared- "Yeah, I think it is." I faked a smile, trying not to meet his gaze. I bit my lower lip gently, trying to suppress the hurt and the tear that was now forming in my eye. "Cheers," He said while smiling. Without raising my eyes towards him, focusing on two glasses clinking, I said. "Cheers."