The Alpha in Me

Who is his Luna?

*Memory Started*

Collyn and I were in the same Biology Class even though we were a decade in age difference. Collyn decided to pursue his studies in biology after his strange discovery that he had a passion for nature and wanted to become a pharmaceutical scientist, while I was in my first year, fresh out of high school, doing it to please Mother because she refused to allow me to pursue my love for art and music.

Collyn and I became die hard partners as we would somehow always be chosen to pair up for any assignment. We used to call it our destiny to be together. Collyn would invite me to his place to complete our assignments. From thereon, our relationship grew even stronger, until one day he asked me to be his girlfriend and I stupidly said yes. I was only 18 years old back then. I didn't know anything about love. He said that we would have to keep our relationship a secret. Well, at least until the time is right, he would say.

His touch was so gentle. Things quickly escalated between us, and before I knew it. I became his f*ck body, his undercover mate, his best friend, but for some reason, I loved being there for him. He made me fell head over heals in love with him.

*Memory Ended*

"Our Silver Wolf and Luna is no other than Emma Harper!" announced Aurora excitedly. Her words were like a double-sided sword piercing through my chest, tearing my heart to pieces.

Staring at Collyn in disbelief, fire raged in my soul as he showed he was happy that Emma was his Luna. I couldn't help it as my eyes welled with water. A tear suddenly slowly tricked down my flat cheek bone. It was when his green eyes suddenly looked into my sorrowful brown eyes.

He immediately cast his eyes away as though he knew. He knew I was hurting! He knew that he always wanted my sister for his mate. But he knew I was in love with him, and he took advantage of me. Emma, on the other hand, was too selfish to even bother to care. I quickly wiped my tears away.

I hate him so much. I hate that he is so happy that my sister is his Luna. I hate that he has no consideration for my love for him. I hate that I was not the chosen one. I hate that he didn't reject her so that he could be with me.

All his promises and our future didn't really mean anything. Seeing them being blessed felt like my curse. How can the universe be so cruel to me? Taking a few heavy breaths, I could not help but cry inside. Now, I am just considered a helpless Omega!

Everyone seemed so contented, except me. I just couldn't get over the fact that my future was ruined in a few seconds. I should have known that this would have been a possibility after all. Emma was so happy she couldn't stop hugging Collyn as she kiss his face over and over again. They both sat on their thrones like a king and queen.

Collyn's filthy rich father, Mr Felix Gibberthon, was alpha but was forced to retire due to injury. The Gibberthons were considered one of the wealthiest and the strongest bloodlines. Collyn was chosen to carry on the legacy of his two even more handsome brothers and was scheduled to be crowned the first full blue moon after his 30th birthday.

I was just too dumb to know there was a possibility that the Gods would not have chosen me to be his Luna. I have already given him my body, mind, and soul, and now I am probably a nobody to him.

My head pounded like a drum. I desperately needed to let out some of the fury within me. Looking at my miserable face in the bathroom mirror. I cloaked my mouth with my shawl and screamed like I was crazy, the pain was eating away at my inside. I was not ready for this type of rejection and hurt. How do I go forward from this? Collyn is all I know and had. I must do something quick. It's not fair for them to this to me.

"He is mine and forever will be mine!" I whispered to myself as I was not willing to give up my love just like that.

Like the strong woman that I am, I wiped my tears and I rejoined the crowd, trying to hold my head up high. I slovenly made my way to the bar.

"A Margarita please!" I said with a light smile when I spotted the traitor, my so-called twin sister, ordering a Margarita as well. I firmly walked up to her.

"Congratulations! I am so happy for you!" I sarcastically complimented.

"Meghannnn! I know this probably looks bad, but I had no intentions of this happening, it just happened. Now that I am Luna, please keep your pathetic hands away from my man! He is all mine! From now you should address me as Mrs. Gibberthon.

Looking into her sky-blue eyes, I prayed to God that I could control my temper, everything that came out of her mouth was full of arrogance and selfishness. Not trying to be moved by her words and just walked away. It's questionable that the Gods chose such a b*tch to be a Silver Wolf.

The Gibberthons seemed so happy with Emma being Luna. I observed from a distance how they danced with her, giving her so much attention, love and affection. I felt like she stole my position without any consideration. My best friend Celia was nowhere in sight. I sat by the bar alone propping my jaw, sipping my margarita, envying Emma's happiness.

Suddenly, a deep voice behind me said, “Dance with me!”

I immediately spun around like a damsel in distress, it was Collyn looking solely into my empty eyes. My heart skipped a few beats as I tried to gather words to respond, but nothing seemed to be coming out.

Wordless, he took me into his strong muscular arms, hugging me dearly. Kissing my forehead like he wanted to say something but just didn't know how to. He smelled so good. Shutting my eyes tight, I buried my face into his shoulder blade. Wrapping my hands gently over his broad back.

His shirt gripped his body so perfectly, I could have felt his heart beating, we glided slowly side to side to my favorite Billie Eilish, Kalid. None of us were saying anything but breathing. I wanted to feel his naked body on mine so much despite everything, but had to erase that thought because he was not mine anymore. Although I was mad at him. I just couldn't resist him.

All eyes were on us, but his body touching mine felt so good I just couldn't care, it was just what I needed. He gripped me so tight that even if I wanted to break free I couldn't. After a few minutes of quiet swaying, he released me and walked away. I was a little confused. Is it that he still wants me? His eyes said it all, before he walked away. He still has love for me.

Suddenly, a hand grabbed me, pulling me possessively through the crowd. We then stopped a few distance away from the crowd.

"How dear you disrespect your sister like that! You are to stay away from the Alpha! The next time I see you, try something like that again! I will make sure you don't live to see the light of day!" Scolded my mother Mrs. Livia Harper as she stumped back into the crowd.

I honestly expected that from her, as Emma had always been the apple of her eyes. The perfect one. The one that she wishes well for. I am pretty sure that she is the greatest influencer behind Emma rejecting all the other Alphas hands in marriage, so that she would marry a wealthy Alpha from the Gibberthon's Pack.

Before dad died, he always accused mother who I sometimes address as Mrs. Livia, of having favorites, but she would deny it each and every time, crying and putting on a show as if we were antagonizing her. She has always been a drama queen.

I missed my father so much. I knew if he had been here things would have been so much better. I would have had the support I needed. A leader and mentor in my life. When he died, it was like I died with him. I was left to fend for myself. I don't even know why mother hates me this much and I never had the guts to even ask her because of fear she hate me some more.

Maybe if I disappeared for good, everyone would be happier. My thoughts were wild as my heart raced faster than my legs. I frantically made my way through the dark forest as tears just kept flowing like a river down my face.

Where was I going? If I could answer, I would have. I justed wanted to break free.

Stripping myself of my clothes, I felt the heat running through my veins as I awoke my wolf. The darkness cleared like day, my speed accelerated. I could hear the flapping of the glowworms, the beating of my own heart. It felt like I was in a whole new world, it felt magical.

I could feel myself suddenly slowing down, and I had not run for a good minute yet. What was happening? I grasp for breath. Queen Aurora did not give me a warning that I should not use my wolf on it's first day.

Tired and out of breath, Leah suddenly stopped. Suffocating from my own breathing, she just collapsed as a cloud of darkness covered our eyes and my senses disappeared.