The Lost Wolf

Chapter 5

AVA’S POV

            “He did what?!” Kristen gasped as I shared the news of my engagement. “Show me your ring.  Oh my goodness! I can’t believe my best friend is getting married.”

            I slowly pull my left hand in front of her.  “He gave me this beautiful golden ring with a stunning princess diamond cut centered in the middle amongst small diamonds surrounding.  It really is gorgeous, but I’m not sure if it is exactly me.” I respond back as I admire my ring. 

            A piece of me have been wondering if this is what I really want, but I don’t share these thoughts because I don’t really know what to say.

            “I know he has never been my favorite, but Ava is this really what you want?  I just want to see my best friend happy.”

            It is almost as if she is reading my thoughts.  She has always been able to read me, but I can’t let her know that I’m not positive if this is right.   I know a piece of me is still screaming in my head that this is wrong, but how can something I have been looking forward to be wrong?

            “Of course I’m happy!” I exclaim. “I am ecstatic to finally be marrying Alex.  He has been my love since we were young.” I over exaggeratedly respond so she doesn’t see my doubts in my reaction.

            “Well then girl, let’s get to planning this wedding.  I will help you along the way to help make this your dream come true.  How long will your engagement be?”

            “I was thinking the wedding would be maybe in a year or two?  Alex and I haven’t really discussed the timeline yet. I just started my career at the clinic, and well I just don’t want to rush anything and take my time to get everything planned the way we wish.”

            To be honest, I feel as if the reason I want to wait is more than just about my job, but because I want to reflect more on my emotions during this time.  I don’t want to look back and have regrets in my decision.

            I can feel her stare at me as if she wants to say more, but holding back her thoughts before returning to her phone to look up suggestions on wedding dresses.

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LIAM’S POV

            How is this happening, I contemplate to myself.  Every wolf looks forward to the bond in which we have with our mate.  But how the f*** is my mate getting married to HIM.  I just don’t understand how this has happened. 

            I felt the bond, but did she?  Do werewolves only feel the bond, or did she feel the connection as well?  If she did, how could she be with him.

            She is MINE! D***it, she will not marry HIM.

            “Cordy, what should I do?” I glumly ask my sister as she walks in through my office doors.  Ever since that night when I saw her in HIS arms, I have not been the same.  It is beginning to take a toll on me and my alpha duties.

            I just want to grab her and press my body against her.  I want to feel her and her feel my need for her.  Not just that, but I want her more than anything I have ever wanted before. 

            That night when I saw her with him, I just wanted to grab her and pull her into my arms while passionately pressing my lips against her.  The need for her was so strong as well as the anger in which was consuming within me.  I wanted to tear him apart for having his body on hers.

            She is and will be mine.

            “This is an unprecedented situation, but we will figure this out.  I think you won’t be back to your normal self though, till she is in your arms and with you.  You need to see her again.  I know it’s painful to see her with him, but she needs to really feel that bond in which you share.  And if you are around her, she will.  James can handle everything around here….go into town.  You need this.  We will take care of everything for you here.”

            “What would I do without you guys.  Thank you sis.  Make sure dad and mom don’t worry about me.  I know they have since I shared with them that my mate was human.”

            I rush out of the room to fine Liam, but he must have heard my thoughts as I see him making his way to me.

            “Alpha, I will take care of everything. You just worry about yourself right now.”

            She will be mine, and I will win over her. 

            I head out the door and through the woods as quick as I can.  I have to be near her, even if I can’t have her at the moment.  I will not lose her to him.

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AVA’S POV

            As I think over my impending marriage, I stare over the waters facing the forest.  If anything, I will figure things out here.  The calmness and peacefulness will help calm me during this time so I can search for the answers within me. 

            I just don’t know what to do, but I have to figure this out before anything goes further.

            Suddenly out of no where, I feel something.  I feel complete.  And there he is, the strikingly white werewolf with the blue eyes.  He is just standing there at the edge of the forest, staring at me.  Why? What is my fascination with this wolf, and why does he make me feel safe?

            I start to wander towards the edge of the forest before I am pulled back.

            “What are you doing?” I hear my mother gasp towards me.  “Get in the house now.  I will have your father deal with the wolf.”

            “But mom, he seems harmless,” I state as I make my way back inside the house.

            “I said now,” she shouts towards me angrily. “You know you are not supposed to go near those woods.  You stupid girl.”

            I sadly mope back upstairs to me bedroom where I stare out my window towards the forest.  The wolf has disappeared back to the woods.

            I feel this connection with the wolf, and a part of me feels that the wolf feels connected to me as well.  Even though that sounds crazy, it feels very much real to me. There is this pull within me that wants to reach to the wolf. 

            Maybe I am really just going a little bit crazy I think to myself.  I probably just need a little rest to refresh my mind and spirit.