Melancholy

Chapter 16

Her phone suddenly buzzed, she felt it while leaning on her bag at her back while writing her answered on her paper. She thinks it was Ivory who's done with her exam, she didn't let herself to put her attention on it so she proceed without even giving a glance as she got immersed and irritated while her phone was vibrating at her back. Suddenly, she put her right hands at her back and carefully pick up her phone and turn it off at her back without looking at it. It stops vibrating and put back her attention. She proceed along and think for her next rule, without skipping a beat she wrote down her rule which is "move on with your past".

Don't allow your past to control your present, or future life. Sometimes it's hard to let go, specially when those memory or things or even person means allot for you, you need to let it go. Although it's hard, think about yourself, are you doing fine thinking about your past trying to put it back? Always remember that past can't go back in time. It can't be always right by your side, everything would pass away and fade, just let it go and move on. No matter what happens you must let it go. Don't let yourself suffer from that baggage you where carrying at your back all around. Leave the darkness of your past , so it won't block the light of your bright future. Past won't help you to build your future but lesson does. Your past is gone. What ever happened in there, whether unjust, cruel, harsh, whatever case. Reliving the events will never do you anything good. In fact, it will drown you in every melancholy you burden. If someone did you wrong, the only way you can will is to let it go, and move on. Cuz if you fight back you're guilty. If you live in hate, they win. If you live in victim story, they win. If you want to win, you must focus on building your future, than having sadness from your past. It is how you let them know that you're more better than they see before, and start it right now. Release that weight you where carrying around at your back so you can be free. You can't just lock yourself on that jail of your past. Free yourself. Don't aloow events from the past which are now gone, to ruin this moment, which is perfect. This moment, which are now to enjoy. Which is ready for you to live fully.

The next rule was simply not allowing judgement and other people, control you. The need to fit in and feel wanted can cause you to travel down paths, and you don't want to travel. It was like the path down to hell and of course you wanna travel upwards. Fall forward, never fall backwards just because you're scared to be judge. It's just simply ignore them and create your own world better than what they say. People pleasing is a curse that should be avoided at all cost. They are not your god, you shouldn't have to do what they say. They can't tell you, that you're a fool, they can't tell you that you can't be better. Cuz you must know to your self that you're not just better, and not just the best. Before you do anything, ask yourself: 'am I doing this because I want to do it, or because of my fear of being judged by others if I don't?'. You were born unique for a reason, you were born to stand out, to be appreciated and loved for who you are. Don't dim your own light so you fir into dull background. Don't use others opinion to stand. Carry your own chair, water your own plant. And that's more better than live with others opinion. Live as you are, of others told you to be your self, they are lying. Because as always, although you did be yourself, they will still judge you and don't ever use it to drown you. Once you did be your self because you want it, you'll be free, and so be that. Shine bright as you are. Those who really care for you will see the light and shine with you. Find that person, they will never judge you. They will stab you from your back, not like fake friend who stabs you from back.

Next is... "Believe what you want to believe" don't limit your beliefs, you can be a super hero of your own world if you does. These beliefs may be conscious, but more that likely they're unconscious. They maybe unconscious. Limitations that have been conditioned in you from a young age and throughout your entire life, by listening to those around you who never reached for their own dream. You have your own dream, don't you? So never ever look back and listen to those who will say that your dream is impossible, your dream is bad. It's your own life decision, no one can change that. Your enemy is you. Cuz if you let yourself to be defeated by others, it's your fault, cuz you let it. Notice your own limited believes and tell them to shut up. Tell them you can be what you wanted to be, tell them it's ain't your fault if you didn't succeed for this time, because you must know that you can succeed next time. Trial and error. If you believe, anything is possible, guess what. Anything is possible b when you change your own belief from limited to unlimited, your potential is unlimited. Or let's just say, suppose that you're good at cooking and you're just a high school student. But you got jealous by other student who can do others not like you, you shouldn't have to believe that. Try new skills and say that you can do this. Be what you wanted to be, beat them. Don't step back, always step forward. Imagine what you could achieve if you lived your life as though anything is possible. As though miracle are standard requirement of everyday. As the saying goes; "when there's no enemy within, the enemy outside can do you no harm". When you don't have anything inside holding you back, there's nothing outside can hold you back either. Your intire life will change very instant if you decide to change your mindset.