Deep tenderness

The hot summer vacation was insane, people started moving back to their guest houses for vacations and all I ever had is and was Aria, she was just my comfort person. A person I wanted to have a more than friendly relationship with. But her boyfriend cut everything off, I guess destiny didn’t work with me regarding this. While I continue contemplating more, Let me tell you more about me. Hi, im ray. Of course, I hate being called “clingy” but nonetheless I am about stuff aria does. All the way for aria. You might be wondering who aria is, hmm she’s my best friend, or maybe someone I really wish my life continued with. She’s a beautiful human, a person who makes my heart warm. Im whipped for her, yeah exactly I am. I hate beach water, but I live in Hawaii. And, going to the beach once a week is my family’s first and only priority. I love to color my hair, but since I still am a minor, Im not allowed to have any hair color or tattoos. Let me give you a little introduction about my friends, all of them find me annoying but I think im the coolest so never mind. My first and only friend is Aria, Oh have I talked about her already? Yep, I love her. I hated having a high-school vacation but this summer was the worst because my best friend got a boyfriend and I still am living alone. A knock on my door made me sigh, knowing that was my brother. My brother is very very suffocating, anyways I am too. It's a mutual sibling rivalry. He knocked on to know what was I doing locking my door. While he was taking my attention, Aria got home. The moment I saw her, I ran towards her without any second thoughts. She was here with a huge bouquet, I wonder why? Who was it for? And that was the moment I realized that it was my mom and dad’s anniversary. Of course, Aria would remember everything. I walked into the hall, noticing how beautifully Aria was dressed. She looked like a princess until her own prince came in, I meant her boyfriend. I hated him so much.  I smiled awkwardly at her boyfriend when he greeted her, While I ran for a hug from aria. She kissed my cheek in a sweet gesture. I smiled widely looking at her, My mom screeched “Let them come in Ray!” I nodded and they walked towards my mom.  “Happy anniversary Mom and Dad!” aria greeted.  She always called my mom and dad her’s. She loved them so much just Like I loved her. “My own daughter doesn’t remember, Thanks aria.” My dad spoke making me feel the guilt. “dad…” I pouted. He smiled and walked towards the bedroom to get some rest. While My mom continued staring at Aria’s boyfriend. “What’s your name, boy?”  She questioned. I held in my laugh and he replied, looking lost, “Im Mac” My mom nodded and hugged aria. I moved a little closer to Aria’s presence. She interlocked her fingers with mine, I gently rubbed her thumb. It felt so nice when I was with her. While Mac continued to Stare at Me and Aria.  I laughed, and Aria smiled back. She looked at me and spoke softly, “Hey bub, Im gonna go now. I have a date with him.” I rolled my eyes, And let them go. I felt so lonely and left alone because of them. But I never let Aria feel bad about me, I Smiled suppressing the pain. I wish Aria could see herself through my eyes. How much I loved her, And how much she meant to me. Life is unfair a lot of times to me, A lot of times I don’t feel like existing. But then, there are times I really wanna learn to live again, Live for myself at least. I wanted someone to trust me, and make me feel warm. But no one else did that other than Aria. Will I even let Aria Know how much I love her? What was this feeling? Why was I so in love with women? Anyways, It was sorta confusing. Since we were on a high school break, I wanted to clean my room. So, I started with my shelf and tore down the book I didn't even look back at. Then I found this book, "Us". God, I remember writing this with Aria, when I was six. We both promised to stay with each other no matter what, My heart suddenly felt lonely. I felt broken, and kind of cheated or something. I didn't know why did that happen, she was just another friend? Another human with feeling too? What made me feel like this? Why was I feeling bad? I really couldn't figure it out while I abruptly started crying. I didn't know why. But the tears didn't stop. I continued to clean my shelf with my broken self. The more that I dig upon my cupboard, the more I realize that Im in love with her. Everything was about her, I was about her. It didn't feel great for the time first time, I felt stressed. The rage of anger was building up, I yelled out loudly, "Aria! Aria! Aria!".  The door suddenly unlocked and Aria got in. While she continued to search for something, she asked, "I guess I got into your room at the right time?" She smiled. My eyes twitched and I fell down on my knees unconsciously. I don't remember a single thing that happened to me that day. When I opened my eyes, I saw my mom, dad, brother, Aria crying so hard. Why were they crying? What happened to me? Aria slowly came closer and spoke softly with her weary voice, "Your hands got paralyzed." My mom sobbed harder. It was a shock to me, I was with too many questions, I didn't know what was happening to me. I tried to raise my hand so hard, But it didn't come up. What is happening?