Jessica's POV Yesterday there was some improvement with Mar. I hope I don't mess this up. There are parts that need to be played just right. Ricardo won't leave me alone to think, I get it that we are mates but, I just can't handle that right now. He doesn't understand why I push him away or back out of his touch. He deserves better than my tainted body. Right now I have no one to talk to since Mar is currently not in her right mind for girlfriend talk. Every night since I woke up in the hospital I have the same nightmare, and it always feels so real. I end up waking up soaked in sweat and the over whelming feeling of the need to get out. Not in the sense of running away, because I actually feel safe here, knowing Ricardo is in the next room. Which he absolutely hates, but that is someth

