forbidden desire

Chapter 5 "May we meet again"

( Khalieesi's POV)

I still don't know how to talk to daddy, about what had happened that night. I still can't face him. It would hurt me inside if he was mad or had any animosity towards me for the things that happened, even though I was trying to make him feel better and show him that I care and love him, very much. So I think what is best for me right now is leaving for a little bit and think about some things because I don't want us to say things we don't mean because we are going to be upset at the moment. So that's why like I said before that happens I want to leave and think things through that I need to do for myself.

(James POV)

"Hey, what are you doing. Did you do anything interesting or did you just sit here all day?"-James

"Nothing much picking up and getting some of my clothes together, because I need to get away for a little bit. I need to figure out myself and understand what I'm feeling before I do or say anything."

"You can't leave, how are you just going to do that to me?"

"I'm leaving I need to find myself and comprehend some things that have been on my mind. I'll be back I am just taking a little break so I can find my better person, than who I am now.

"I don't know what I am going to do while your not here. you make the house come alive, it all depends on how you take care of the things that are in your life now, because no one ever knows if one day everything is just going to be taken.

"Exactly so let me do what I have to do. Then when I do I will give you a call and see if everything is good with you, and see if the house is still in good condition since I did leave and had not visit.

"ummm, what happened when I left here. This is so disgusting and foul. It's to the point right now I can't even stand in here any longer because I am going to throw up. I'm going to the laundry mat to go get some of the things I have wash today. so I can put everything away and look decent and not just a big ball of trash or whatever you want to call it.

"I don't understand why you would leave, we could have talked about whatever was bothering you."-james

"you're right something was on my mind, and still is. I don't think it's a bad thing but it's not a good thing either. it's just complicated to explain my feelings because what I'm talking about many people would disapprove of the feelings that I have. Well at the moment no one knows, but it I wanted to tell anyone about it it would just turn into chaos and would have driven us away from each other and that's why I needed to leave so that didn't happen."-Khalieesi

"khalieesi can answer a question for me? it's been on my mind since the day you had walked out that door. I would really love and appreciate if you could possibly answer. But you don't have to if you don't want to or if you don't feel comfortable with answering or talking about it right now.-james

"okay well since you want to ask me a question. Then would it be okay for me to do the same to you. Like you said you can answer if you would like to, or you don't have to if you don't want to."-Khalieesi

"As long as we are going to be honest with each other. One more thing I would like to say if you want to say something, you should I would never get upset, I would be very understanding and do whatever I can to help."-james

"okay that sounds like a deal. But the same goes for you if you want to say something just be straight up about it, don't beat around the bush because that just confuses the situation even more than it would have to be."-Khalieesi

"Okay so who is going to go first?"-james

"well since you brought the conversation up and wanted to ask me a question before I asked you. I'll give you the honor of going first."-Khalieesi

"ok well the night that you stayed in my room, I know I'm a very heavy sleeper, but I also could do things that I'm not aware of. So what I'm asking is did I do anything that night to you that made you leave. Just the thought of me hurting you, makes me upset and I would never forgive myself if I did something that made you uncomfortable."-james

"well to answer your question no you didn't hurt me in any way.... but there was interactions that had happened but that is what I wanted to talk to you about because I was trying to figure out these feelings that I have towards you, and yes I understand it's wrong, that is never supposed to happen. But I mean yes you may be my father but since I didn't know you and I'm grown well almost I don't understand the problem with having feelings for you. To be completely honest I don't have feelings for you like your a friend, nor as a father. I know that sounds really bad like I don't want you in my life at all, and I promise that is definitely not what I am saying. what I'm trying to say is that I would like to be more then what we are as of now. Okay so I'm just going to stop right there I think I said a little bit to much. I'm even having trouble processing everything that I had just finished saying. I think this was a bad idea." "well I think it's best if I go to my room and try to get some rest or something, well goodnight."-Khalieesi

"okay goodnight, I guess I will talk to you tomorrow."-james

(James POV)

I don't understand why she does the things that she does well mostly what she says. she didn't even let me say what I thought about the whole thing. she just takes everything out of proportion, and that's where the mixed communication is coming from. She's going to have to start listening to what the other person's got to say, not every conversation has to have yelling or throwing things. She needs to realize that I am very understanding and calm in situations that I'm supposed to handle this way. Nothing is going to get worked through if she can't just stay there and listen, and let me say what I have to say and then she can do as she feels but after she listens to what I got to say. she can either take it as an adult or go to her room like she had just done.