forbidden desire

chapter 6 sit, listen, speak when you feel it's needed, and do what makes you happy.

(Khalieesi's POV)

*As I was walking up the stairs to go to my room, all I could think about was everything that I had just said down stairs I feel like I may throw up that's how bad my anxiety is right now. Right when he mentioned that he had a question to ask me I should have just walked away then, but I'm to hardheaded and I want to do what I think will help me get a piece of mind. That's when I really f*ck up and say things that don't need to be said. I really need to learn how to stop walking away if I feel like I am cornered or if I just want to leave a situation that is most likely not going to work out the way that I would plan it to and that scares me I don't understand why I do the things I do but in a way I protect myself even if it's technically hurting me in a different manner that I may not realize it's having a affect on my body and self esteem. So right now I need to figure out how to go and talk to him and just tell him what's on my mind and see what he says.

(James POV)

I don't know how to feel about everything Khalieesi had said and I am curious about what she was saying that things did happen that night. I am so confused because how would I not wake up if things was happening like I don't understand.... I want to know what happened. I'm just going to have to ask her or wait for her to come to me. That's why she said that she didn't go to sleep until late. But what was she doing to herself, or even maybe she did something to me. Is that why the next morning when I had woken up to go to the bathroom then on my way back out, I thought that I seen blood or something but I thought that maybe it was just me because I had just woken up, and maybe I still wasn't completely awake. But little by little things are starting to come back to me and I am starting to put all the pieces together to see how or what might have happened. But it doesn't mean that I don't want her to not say anything to me when I do find out what happened. I want her to tell me so I can see the way her facial expression is that will tell me more than anything that she tries to tell me different all I can do is wait to see what happens.