Fated Mates: The Rogue

Jocelyn:Chapter Four

Jocelyn

My belly hurts from so much food. I wasn't used to

eating so much anymore, but since I ran off with Danny, I felt ravenous. I felt like I could devour a whole deer. Now after eating a whole fish and a half, my stomach was aching and my eyelids felt heavy. I wished I had a nice big pillow and a blanket to cuddle up with so that I could take a midday nap.

I yawned and looked at Danny picking his teeth with a fishbone. He gathered all of the bones and and began walking away from our quaint little camp. I sat up and watched him walk into the trees and then he came back.

"Can't leave the scent of food around."

I nodded slowly and layed on my side, facing the fire. My eyes were beginning to burn from the smoke, but it was warm. The day was beginning to warm up, but after being in the water earlier I had gotten cold.

"Do you want to go bathe yet? Or wait for more sun?"

"Can we wait?"

"Okay." He sat across from me and stared with a blank expression on his face. His eyes traced over my eyebrows and down my nose and to my lips.

"What are you staring at?"

"Why are you wearing glasses?"

"People wear glasses when they can't see." I raised my eyebrows at him and he rolled his eyes.

"Wolves don't. We have good vision. What's wrong with yours?"

I stared at him for a long time and wondered if he had any side effects from staying away from me for so long. Maybe I was just weak. Maybe that's why it was so bad for me.

"My mate stayed away from me for so long my body began to betray me. My eyesight began getting a little blurry, so I got glasses."

Danny pressed his plump, full lips together and looked down at the embers of our fire. "I'm sorry."

"You should be."

"That's why I apologized. Because I am."

"Like...I understand your hesitation, but I'm just baffled why in the hell you were such a coward then. I mean, I would have been more afraid of seeing me after what you did, than before you did any of it."

"You think I don't know that? You think I haven't thought about it a million times? If I could go back to the night I scented you, I would have gone back to you instead of running away. I was...I was scared. I didn't know the bond would have such a pull. I've never been really taught any of that stuff."

He looked away from me, looking ashamed because he admitted that he was scared. "How long have you been a rogue?"

"Born a rogue. I've never known anything else." He looked away and I wondered if that was a lie.

"You don't smell like one."

"I've kept my humanity intact more than others. I bathe and try to groom as much as I can. I've given in to primal urges, but I've never let them take over completely. I think that's why. They stink because they can't be bothered to take care of themselves."

"I thought that it was an automatic thing. Rogue equals stink. I didn't know it was a hygiene issue."

He smiled and shrugged."It's not just hygiene. It's being packless. It's being without anyone else to keep you from losing yourself. That's a rogue. Not just a smell. "

"But you had Wes."

"Yes. We had eachother to keep eachother in check. I would think twice about doing stupid sh*t because I knew I had to take care of him. "

I bit my bottom lip thinking about Wes and how I didn't even know if he was even alive still. My heart ached and I blinked rapidly to keep the tears at bay. I looked at him and he seemed to be thinking the same thing. He ran his hand over his face looking completely devastated. His eyes clouded with tears and he took a deep shaky breath.

He cleared his throat and I watched his jaw tighten. "He's gone now, so..." He shrugged and shook his head.

"We don't know that. He could have lived."

He shook his head. " You didn't see him. He had blood everywhere. He didn't seem to be breathing when I left him."

"Well must have been because they had taken him into surgery. They just wouldn't tell me anything because I'm not family. But I was more family to that pup than anyone else there." I wiped under my eyes, beginning to feel the grief of the possibility of Wes being gone. I stood up and walked to the small entrance of the cave.

"I think I'm going to take a nap before we go bathe if that's okay."

He looked at my face with an unreadable expression and nodded.

I crawled into the cave and laid down, holding my little lion to my chest. I let a few tears out for Wes and then closed my eyes.

When I woke back up, he was sitting at the entrance of the cave, his eyes trained on me. I could feel the same aura around him that I had felt the same night we had first officially met.

I sat up and watched his eyes track my every move. There was something different about them. Something more. I put my lion back into the back pack and took out a bag of chocolates. I opened it and watched him watch me eating them.

"You really do have staring problems, don't you?"

"Onyx. He's awake. He wanted to see you."

"Well tell him to stop being creepy. It's a complete turn off."

I pulled my hair up high on my head and could feel the grittiness from the dirt and twigs stuck in the nest of my hair. He continued to watch me, unaffected by my comment.

"He says that he's never going to stop staring at you."

"He better or I'm going to sucker punch the both of you."

He chuckled and shook his head. He looked away for a second but looked back. "Do you want to go bathe now?"

"Is this your nice way of saying I stink?"

"No. If you stank I'd just call you rogue like you call me."

I crinkled my nose at him and nudged him with my foot. The contact of the skin from my foot on his knee felt like the tingles you get from sitting on the toilet for so long. It was strange because he had touched me yesterday and while yes, he was attractive as hell, I hadn't felt that spark. Now, my body was acting like it had been being starved. My n*****s hardened and began aching and I could feel my underwear moisten.

His eyes flashed and his nostrils flared. He crawled over to me, which wasn't even a far distance and towered over me. His scent was overwhelming me and the heat of his body flooded my panties entirely. Goddess, I felt so h*rny.

I swallowed hard, my throat suddenly feeling dry. He moved his face down my throat and I bit my lip to keep from moaning as he nuzzled me.

I whimpered as his hands moved up to my face and down my throat. I only came to my senses when his lips grazed my throat and his hand squeezed my chest.

I shoved him as roughly as I could from me, gasping for air. His wolf was at the forefront and I could see the heat behind his eyes. He wanted me just as badly as I wanted him, but...I couldn't. I just met him. And I know I didn't have the best track record with men, but these feelings scared the sh*t out of me. They weren't just your average horniness. This was like I might die if his c*ck doesn't enter my p*ssy horniness.

These s*xual feelings had never felt this intense even with Matthew. Yep. Nope. His d*ck was definitely not going to magic its way into my heart. F*ck that.

"Move. I need some air."

His jaw twitched and he growled. I glared into his eyes and perked my right eyebrow.

"Move you horny wolf. I need a bath. You do too, rogue." I sneered at him. Something about it made Danny come to the forefront and the intense look he gave me was gone and in it's place was his familiar, f*ck boy grin

"I told you that he wanted you."

"Yeah, well, he can wait. The verdict is still out on whether I want you or not."

His smiled dampened and he nodded slowly. He backed out of the cave and when I crawled out he was standing in the trees with his back turned to me.

A part of me felt guilty for hurting his feelings, but there was no way I was just going to give myself to him like that. I still didn't even know who he was. I had caught glimpses of the real him with his emotions, but that wasn't enough for me. Plus, he only made a move with his wolf present. His wolf was the one that wanted me. Not him. I just didn't feel comfortable if he wasn't the one to want me.

I knew Peri wanted him. I knew Peri was practically crying when I pushed him away from us, the dirty sl*t, but I was still on the fence. I thought he was attractive, but his wolf and his aura scared the sh*t out of me.

I walked up behind him and took a deep breath. "Are you still taking me to the stream, or am I going to have to rogue it up for a bit?"

"I'll take you." He had full armor on and I could see he was fully in control, not his wolf. I nodded and walked back to get my shoes.

"Leave the damn shoes off. You're just making it worse on your feet." He snapped. I flipped him the bird and grabbed my shoes. There was no way I was going barefoot and hurting my feet. He could walk around caveman style all he wanted. I wasn't about to.

He huffed angrily as I walked dramatically past him wearing my shoes and started walking in the direction I heard the water. I heard him right behind me and I wondered how this was going to work. Were we always going to be like this? I knew at this moment it was my fault, but I just couldn't make myself be nice.

We walked in silence until we hit the edge of the water. Then he stripped his shirt off revealing his rock hard, lithe body and I had to close my eyes to stop myself from drooling. I had seen him naked before but I was in panic mode each time. This time...damn. He had a very nice body. I could imagine myself licking the indentations between each ab and f*ck.

Seemed like he wasn't the only horny wolf. I took a deep breath and pulled my shirt off first and turned away from him. I unclasped my bra and groaned at how nice it was to just take that sucker off. I peeled myself out of my leggings and panties and set them all off to the side.

I looked up into the water and saw him watching me. He was waist deep, his hair sparkling with beads of water. I covered myself as best as I could and waded in. The water was strong and I felt it push at me. Frightened, I fought my way closer to him just in case the water tried to take me and kept my chest covered. I used my free hand to cup the cold water in my hand and wet my face.

"I won't look. Just bathe." He said as he came closer. I stiffened and shrugged.

"I know you won't, it's your wolf I'm worried about."

He shook his head and submerged more of his body and dunked his head in the water. I took the opportunity to do the same. I submerged myself, gasping at how cold the water was and trying to breath. I ran my fingers through my unruly hair and tried to untangle as much as I could. It would be for nothing, I needed conditioner to tame my hair.

I scrubbed everything I could with my hands, knowing that it wasn't going to do much without soap and then looked over at my clothes. I needed to get the fishy smell off of them. I waded back out of the stream and grabbed my clothes. I dunked them into the water near the edge of the stream and sat on a big rock. I could feel his eyes on me, but if I pretended to not notice, I felt better about not covering up.

I wrung out my clothes and got out of the stream and hung them up on some low hanging branches by the stream. I was going to have to be in my birthday suit for a bit, but I was sure he wouldn't mind. He could look, but he just couldn't touch. It's what I was going to have to be okay with. I sat back down on the boulder and felt goosebumps form in my skin from being cold. My n*pples puckered and felt achingly sore from the cold. I tried to concentrate on the sun beating down on us and hoped it was enough to warm me up.

After a bit I heard him slosh out of the water. He sat a few feet away from me at the edge of the water and grabbed his shirt. He glanced at me and offered it up to me. I thought about taking it, but felt like he should wash it too.

"Just wash it. We can put our clothes by the fire when we get back and then get dressed. I should be fine by then."

"Your lips are blue."

"I'm okay. I promise. Wash it."

He sighed and took his clothes back into the water and soaked them. He wrung them out and placed them near mine in the trees. I watched his beautiful backside as he hung everything up and bit my lip.

He had the most sculpted and perfect ass I had ever laid eyes on. Look, just don't touch.

"It's okay for you to look, but I can't?"

"You never told me not to."

He scowled and sat a few feet away. He stared up at the blue sky and squinched his eyes against the sun.

"You're right. And I'm sorry. About this afternoon. He's just happy to see you. I shouldn't have let him take control. You're right. He's a horny motherf*cker."

"I know I am. It's okay. I forgive him for now."

He smiled up at me and I watched his eyes travel down my throat and he swallowed hard and looked away before he got further down.

"Where will we go in the morning?"

"Further out. The more space we put between your pack and us, the better." I nodded slowly and sighed. I liked our little cave. I was also afraid of what else was out there.