It’s always been you

Chapter #6

His now… I was his now. Those words didn’t seem real. “Elias…” My voice was small, almost a squeak and I wasn’t sure if he heard me.

“Baby girl… s**t… we really need to get to the cabin. We need… gas.” He pressed a kiss to my forehead before he released my neck very slowly. “I know we have so much to talk about. I’ve wanted to tell you how I felt for such a long time. I prayed so very hard that you really did feel the same way and that I wasn’t going to freak you out. I went with my gut instinct. Are you comfortable with this?”

I chuckled this time at what he didn’t realize was such a ridiculous question. “I’ve wanted you for a long time… I never thought… I mean you could have anyone.” It slipped out and I knew we had so much to work on and through. This was all happening extremely fast.

“Baby, I’ve thought about you everyday. At first it was just regular love and concern because you have always been a part of my life. But as you got older, there was nothing I could do to stop the different kind of love I began to feel. You barely post anything on any social media but I’ve checked it everyday since you first got it two years ago. I remember when you joined f*******:. I saw you on your fathers friends list and it made my heart feel like it was beating out of my chest… you have grown into such a beautiful woman… the most beautiful woman I have ever seen and now…”

“And you didn’t even send me a friend request. How rude!” I sarcastically broke the pause with a giggle. I felt alive, I felt so positive compared to just a few hours ago.

He grinned at me and kissed my forehead again. I sighed with relief. “You’re so adorable, you’re so beautiful Addie. You’re the most kind, smart and caring woman I’ve ever known. You say ‘I can have anyone’ but no one compares to you. Your soul calls to mine. You make me feel so many things I’ve never felt before. I’ve never… I’ve never felt this kind of love for anyone but you.”

I could tell he had been holding all of this in for a long time just like I had been holding in my feelings for him. I recognized the desperation in his voice, the need to finally tell me.

The joy was incredible. I had never felt joy like this before, joy that only Elias could bring me. He would be the only one who could ever make me feel the things that he did. We fit together, it was like we had been created for each other.

A fantasy? Yeah he had been my fantasy for so long but this was all real now. I was happy but I was also still nervous. There was a lot we would have to talk about and sort out like he had said. I wanted us to lay everything out there, no matter how embarrassing some of it might be for me.

This was it.

“I’ve never felt this kind of love for anyone else either. I’ve loved you for a long time. It’s been.. hard to hide it. It’s why I blush all of the time and act nervous when you’re close. But I can see now that you’ve already picked up on that.”

We both smiled at each other and then he was pulling me into his chest. “I’m not going to let you go ever again. I keep saying it but I mean it, Addie. Never.”

I buried my face in his neck inhaling the smell of him. “You better not.”

“Never, baby girl. I won’t let you ever leave me. Let that sink in.” My heart skipped. I had never seen the possessive side of him and it made my body hot. “Let’s get gas and a few snacks. It won’t be long now, so we won’t need to stop again. I should have filled my tank up before I got to your house.”

He moved over to a pump quickly before we both made our way out of the Jeep and inside of the little store. I picked out an energy drink, some water and a little container of cantaloupe.

Elias prepaid and we headed back out to the pump. I couldn’t help but gawk at the large amount of cash he had in his wallet but I didn’t ask. Some people preferred cash more but I also knew that he made a lot of money.

“Where did you come in from?” I opened my energy drink and watched as he started to fill the car. He bit his lip and I knew the answer was going to be interesting. He had a habit of biting his lip ever since I was old enough to notice.

“I’ve been in Maine… for a little while now. Maybe a year? I’ve been waiting for the right moment to contact you and then your dad contacted me and it gave me the perfect opening…”

A whole year… he had been here. I didn’t know how to respond to that. I might have been upset if things hadn’t turned out the way that they were right now.

“At the cabin?” I already knew but I had to ask anyway.

“Yes. I got it for the both of us with the hope that you would want me in the same way I wanted you. When I went looking for the perfect one, I had you in mind the entire time.”

“Were you… ever going to talk to me? If my dad didn’t call, then what?”

He sighed. “I was terrified to lose you completely. I’m your dads friend. I’ve known you since you were little, your dads going to be furious…” He put the nozzle back and turned his body to face me completely.

“I don’t care. I don’t care what either of my parents think, I don’t care how long you’ve known me. I won’t lose you again…” My voice turned into a whisper at the end.

“No, no you won’t ever lose me.” He leaned down to kiss me and my back hit the side of the car. Just as it started to get really heated again he pulled away, hands on my shoulders. “We need to go to the cabin now, we need privacy. It’s getting harder and harder to stop…”

I laughed through my heavy breathing. “Okay… we need to be as quick as possible… please.”

We both grinned at each other.

“Oh baby, I know all the quickest routes. I may not have actually contacted you, but… I can’t count how many times I’ve watched you from a distance. I’d park outside of your house and just wait to see you. No matter how little time I got. Sometimes I’d spend all day in whatever car I was driving at the time, working and waiting…”

My mouth fell open as a gasp left me. I had never noticed… all this time… oh, how I wish I had known he wanted me too.

“Get in the car now, Addie. I want to touch you without any interruption and I’m not sure how much longer I can wait.”