The Journey Series

One More Time

Lee

Am I bad if I want to spend a little bit more time with her. Talking to her makes me feel like I’m just me, with no cameras around and everything. We decided to go home together and I was the one driving Fipa’s car since Fipa will go home a bit late and Keith will bring her home, it is of course with Nana’s permission. Bella and I decided to leave before dinner.

“Do you want to go home already, Bell? Or is it okay if we drive around the city a little more? I want to see what it’s like here.” I asked her. I’m hoping he will say yes. I want to be with her even a few more times. I tried to turn on the stereo and ta song played. I love the melody. I wonder if it is a local song.

“Wow! Belle, what’s this song? I liked it. Oh that is  Maybe the Night by Ben&Ben. It is a really good song! You’re asking if we could drive around the city before we head home. Yes, sure!”.

On our way to our destination I can hear her singing the song, I act as if I am not hearing her, I quickly grab my phone and started to record her singing without her knowledge,

                                                            Maybe the night holds a little hope for us, dear

                                                    Maybe we might want to settle down, just be near

                                                   Stay together hereWe follow the pull of fate, into this moment

                                                                We follow the pull of fate, into this moment

I guess that voice will help me lull into sleep especially during my strict schedules. What does this girl do to me? She has this magic string that drags me closer and closer wot her even though I know that it is not right. I don’t want to be a damn bastard friend to Henry. f**k you!, cupid! f**k you destiny, are you laughing at me now. Who would have thought that this girl will change everything I believed in.

We decided to visit a food park and other night markets but as we are busy talking and laughing I can see someone took a picture of us. Damn! I hope this will not go on social media, I don’t have a mask on although I’m wearing my gray hoodie and black cap. My fans would recognize me.

“Listen, Belle, can you act normal but do as I say. Please wear something that could cover your face a bit. I can see someone taking their camera and cellphone at 3’oclock. I’m afraid this will be posted on social media soon. I don’t want to drag you in a news or I don’t want my fans to bother you.” I told her.”

“Okay, do you think it’s okay? Do you want me to call Henry?” she asked me.

I started to send a message to my agency just in case things get escalated quickly so that they can do some damage control. We already planned to release a photo of me at the airport going to a different country. I don’t want Belle to experience the craziness of my job. The price that I need to pay for being an actor.

I don’t want to ruin the mood so I decided to treat her to another round of ice cream and we talk about her childhood and also, mine. We pretty much have the same childhood memories. I was raised by my grandma as well since my parents were busy in each of their own careers. I loved my Grandma and I would really love Belle to meet her soon. Grandma is the reason why I bought a property in Jeju Island. I want her to relax by the ocean. It is good for her health condition now. I’ve hired a good nurse to be with her.

" Belle, I want to very honest with you. I have never felt his way again since I started my career and you make me feel like normal again. I would really want us to be friends. I don't know if you have the same feelings as me. I feel like I've known you for a long time but I don't think this is fair for Henry. So I'm going to try to suppress this feeling and a few years from now when you graduate and I don't know about my career. I will hang on to destiny. If we are meant to be, I will wait. This is the reason that I asked you to be with me again tonight, just one more time. I will cut my vacation short because I cannot stand seeing you with Henry! It makes some jealous even though I don't have the right." I explained to her.

Belle

I was shocked to hear Lee's confession and as much as I want to hug him and tell him I feel the same. I ended up just nodding to whatever he was saying. The thought of him leaving makes me feel empty. I just want to go home and cry but what gives me some hope is that he is still hoping to see me after I graduate. My heart ached. I don't want to be selfish but now, I think I'm beginning to understand my parents. I can now understand my mother and I think we can never really fight destiny. It will always lead us to a path that is intended for us to take, whether it's right or wrong we need to go through that to experience the true sense of joy. Perhaps his absence will make me focus more on Henry and I could control this emotion. A few minutes ago, my worry was that someone would post about us on social media but now I have this inner battle within me. We are inside the car now and I hugged him, I can no longer pretend. I have to feel what it is like to hug him.

"Sorry to do this but if this would be the last time that I'm going to see you and talk about this matter let me hug you for a moment", I told him. He brushed his hand into my head.

Damn! It feels way too right in a wrong situation and we need to be mature enough to not be controlled by our emotions.