Her Saviour

Chapter 15: Rin's thoughts.

Rin's Point of View

She stayed at that spot for about half an hour more and got into her car. Instead of going back home, she drove in the opposite direction. She still did not feel like going back home so she drove. She reached an area with a stream. Any area near the water bodies was her favourite. She got out of her car and looked at the area. Most of the places near a water body were full of garbage but this one was not. It was clean and pretty. She felt at peace. She decided that this would be a "getaway" place if anything happened.

It was less than a year after she had finally mustered up her courage to go see a psychologist. She had avoided counsellors and therapists for a long time. After meeting with the psychologist, she diagnosed her with Borderline Personality Disorder. She prescribed her two types of pills. One was to make her mood better and the other one was a sleeping pill. Before the visit, her sleep schedule was so messed up that for her day was night and vice versa. The sleeping pills were effective and she was glad that she was not left alone with her thoughts. However, with time the dose had to be increased for it to be effective. On the other hand, the medicine that was meant to make her mood better did not work. It was of no use.

She thought, "How long am I going to stay like this? Nothing seems to matter and it was not easy to be happy."

"It is a weird time to be having a mental health disorder. It is not a time when mental health disorders were heavily stigmatized and disregarded. It is also not the time where there is an absolute and a time-efficient cure. Whatever solution is available right now requires intensive therapy and medications. Some can not endure that long."

She sighed.

"I want to die" she whispered.

She checked the time, it was almost 7 pm. It was time to go home. She got into her car and drove back home.

When she got home, she directly walked to her room and closed the door.

"Should I do it tomorrow?" she thought of her suicide plan.

She left the thinking about it for tomorrow.

She ate a sleeping pill and went to shower.

After she was done, she dried her hair and got into her bed.

The sleeping pill kicked in and the last thing she thought of was Haru.