goodbyes ?
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I stir and I feel the light on me and for a moment I don't remember anything I feel tingels over my hole body I feel miro holding me and the soft bed
"I love you , you know that "I hear miro tell me he looks sad
and then I Remember I remember everything
"you don't , you don'treally love me you just want to have me ad keep me "
"I love you,.. give me a chance I will fix this you were not supose to find out "he tells me
"how am I not supose to fid out that you have another luna in our home "
I see his eyes , he looks in my eyes ad I feel the tingels over my hole body and I feel the bond buzzing in between
"A year , I want her gone with in a year "I tell him
he smiles like he just got his way like always like he is king and he will always win
my heart breaks a little I eed to kow this before I make my disicion
"why , why does the world get to know her but you keep me hidden like a filthy secret ? "
" my world does not accept your kind verry wel and she is one of the strongest in my world wait for me I will fix this really "
he tells me and as much as I want to take my sibblings and run I know a part of me will die if I do so I will wait a year ,..
he stads up to go and I hear myself almost begging "stay "
he gets a distant look in his eyes I shouold know better " you know I cant I have to run the pack I am an alpha "
and he disapears once again breaking my heart.
a year later..
It has been a year the luna gave birth to a boy the boy is now 6 months and miro could not be more proud of his son. he still loves his mate , he just loves his son more
amy's pov
a year I have waited more than a year today it wil be a year and 3 weeks and I need to get rid of the feelings I have for miro I need to gat as far as I can while he loves his luna and his son he has forgotten his promisse and he has not once come to vissit me, my sibbligs or his children wel lets be fair, he does not even know I have had his children but he schould have come , he should have vissited instead of keeping me here on the border of the pack with no contact to the pack just me and the kids.
today is the day I have to leave I am leaving this pack with my kids I will never come back I am leaving miro the fantasie of a forever with him is over.
after I have moved all of our stuf bit by bit without the gaurds knowing I finaly can move myself and the kids I sold all the stuff I got from miro and saved up everything I got from him and bought a little cafe not verry far from here where the humans are. I leave the note infront of the door and I Leave with everything I have left
" where are we going ? " janey asks me
" home" I tell her and we drive away
the cafe has a rooms upstairs and its just like a house the yard is amazing and big I still can't believe how cheap it was.
the kids pick a room they are all upset and angry because they have never left the fantasie of miro getting back they formed a bond of mom and dad of a reall familly with us and we let them down, miro let them down.
I down'tknow what to do with the cafe yet I am thinking of a bakkery or something els there is no place for animals in this town no animals at all maybe a care center I am good with animals.
miro pov
I feel something inside me break, a part of me gets weaker and I get scared, my promise flashes before my eyes the promise I tried to forget I have a reall familly now.
I mind link the gaurds
"where is she "
it has been a wile since I wanted to hear from my mate so they are surprised
"I think you should come here and see, I think she left "
a rage starts from within me and I start to break everything
its not fair I cant let her go
how could I have let her go!
I run to the little house I can see no one took care of the house in the time that I was not here I can see its old and broken like I broke my mate
I see a letter infront of the door I open it
My sweet miro
by now I wil be long gone, its clear to me you have chosen to stay with your luna and I have given up the fantasie of staying with you for ever I can'tkeep getting hurt I can't keep hurting my familly, the familly we shared the bond you formed with janey and the boys I can't I am sorry.
We found a great place we love, the kids miss you so much I waited a year, I have sufferd more than a year I have planned my escape 3 weeks and you did not notice. you did not suffer like I did, I hope once you will suffer just like I did.
I love you but I can't love you annymore because your not mine anymore.
Do not look for us, we are not yours annymore
with the last love I have
AMY
I break the letter maybe its better like this maybea fox could never survive an alpha, I do not allow myself to cry I have my son I have lilly she is not my matet but she is my luna.
maybe I will find my mate again get to know my fox kids but for now its better for my pack I stay by lillyś side.
I walk back a broken alpha it hurts my heart hurts is this what she felt ?
bearable I geus but I am stronger than her.
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