The Assassin's Kryptonite

Don’t Leave

Don’t Leave

“Don’t leave me….”

I was getting soaked in the rain as I tried to walk near him. But every step I took, the distance between us kept on getting bigger and bigger. Why can’t I go near him?!

“Trevor!” I tried calling for him, but he was just standing there in the rain looking down. What’s his problem? Can’t he hear me?

“Trevor!” I shouted his name louder, hoping that he’d finally hear me, but no, nothing. I heard the thunder and lightning simultaneously striking between us, but instead of cowering in my fear, I fought the heavy rain and the strong wind to walk towards him again.

But nothing. I still can’t get near him and I feel like he should be the one to walk towards me, so I’m trying my best to get his attention.

“Trevor!” I smiled triumphantly when I saw him look up. Has he finally heard me? Finally! “Trevor!” I shouted again and again while waving my hand despite the rain.

I was so happy seeing him look at me. With his expressionless face, he was looking at me intently. And instead of being scared, I felt secure and safe. Because that’s my Trevor, I’m sure. The dead eyes but the soft heart behind? Exactly Trevor.

I waited for him to walk towards me. I waited for seconds. And then I waited for a few minutes. And then he was just standing there not moving. Why? What’s wrong Trevor? Walk towards me please…. Come with me please…

“Trevor?” and then he turned his back on me.

“Trevor?” and then I started walking towards him.

“Trevor?!” and then there was darkness and I was falling into a very dark place. A place where it’s so cold and there’s no warmth. A place I would never want to be.

Trevor? Trevor? Please come back…. don’t leave me Trevor….

“Trevor!” I woke up feeling hot all over. I feel like my head’s going to explode and my body will deteriorate on me.

“Camille?” and then I saw him in front of me. He didn’t leave me. He’s here? He’s really here? Oh my god……

“Y-You didn’t l-leave me….” I wasn’t able to stop my sobs anymore as I cried uncontrollably, feeling so relieved that I saw him there. He’s here. In front of me. In the same room. Trevor’s here. He didn’t get tired of being with me. He’s here.

“What?” He went towards me and hugged me to his chest. I felt his warmth and I instantly felt better. I don’t know how he does that. Instantly makes me feel better. He makes me forget about the things I should be thinking about.

He makes me feel so safe that I sometimes forget that I’m in an unfamiliar place. He makes me feel so happy in his own way. In his own selfless way. How can I feel this towards a total stranger to me a month ago?

“I-I thought y-you left….” I was struggling while trying to speak because my sobs were getting the best of me. I was beginning to struggle with breathing but I just couldn’t help it! I was so scared! Actually. I’m still scared! And then, from being helpless, I instantly felt rage at him leaving me.

“How could you leave me! You’re a bad person! You left me here!” I was getting hysterical as I punched his chest repeatedly trying to make him feel what he made me feel earlier. Or was it the other day already?

“I didn’t…”

“No! you did! You left! I look all over for you!”

“I didn’t Camille!”

“What? Are you mad? You’re shouting at me? How dare you! You left and now you’re the one who’s mad?”

“No, I’m not….” He was trying to explain or something, but I left him there hanging as I lay down on the bed again and covered myself in the comforter. I hate him! And I hate my head! It hurts so much! And my body feels so sore! Because of him, I had to feel this way! And because of him, I had to be drenched by rain!

And the thunder! The forest! It’s so dark and I’m so scared but I endured that all for him! Why did I do that anyway? He’s such a jerk!

“Camille…. I cooked something for you… you should eat first before going back to bed,” he was tapping my arm as he said those words, but I continued to ignore him. Besides, I’m still feeling sleepy and ugh! I still feel so sick! I do want to talk to him as of the moment.

“Camille….”

“Go away!” I shrugged his hand as I moved towards the farther side of the bed to get away from him, but to no avail, because the bed isn’t really that big and Trevor, being Trevor, has such long legs and arms. Ugh!

“Camille….”

“What?!” I can’t help but look at him already because he keeps on calling my name. What does he want? Is he leaving me again? Is he really that heartless to do that to me?

“Are you mad?” Wow! Just wow! What a question Trevor Helios! What a very stupid question coming from a fairly logical man like you!

“No!” I answered as I turned my back on him once again.

“Then why are you shouting?”

“Leave me alone!”

“See?”

“Ugh! I hate you!” I exclaimed, getting up ready to leave already. Even when my whole body is aching all over, I’d give all my strength just to have a little peace right now. And if he’s not going to give that to me in this room, then I'll go out myself! Annoying! Jerk!

“Where are you going?” he asked as he grabbed my arm.

“Away from you!” I answered as I struggled to pull my arm against his hold. But of course, aside from being sick and weak right now, he’s far stronger than me.

“Get back to bed Camille.”

“No!”

“Please….” I almost gave up on his charms, but no! He's always been charming, and I should already be immune to those eyes of his! Stop being adorable Trevor Helios!

“Stop!”

“Stop what?” He looked so confused and he was making it harder for me to ignore him.

“Stop being…. stop being …. That!” I can’t say it ugh!

“What?'' So you’re confused, Trevor Helios? Well, guess what, I'm also confused as hell about what I’m feeling for you! And I hate it! I hate how I’ve become a mess just by staying with you for a f*****g month! A f*****g month and I almost forgot who I am! The Camille Louella that everyone knows is almost completely gone and I can’t even remember how I ran my life before!

All I can think about is this gorgeous man in front of me and I feel like I’m going crazy! Ugh!

“I hate you!” I exclaimed as I held my aching head once again. I should be really resting right now, but this annoying jerk just keeps on bothering me!

“Are you okay?” he immediately went to assist me when I almost collapsed in the bed because of the pain I was feeling all over my body. I don’t know where I’m even getting all this energy from when my brain and body are literally begging me to let them rest.

“I’m obviously not okay Trevor, can you just go?” I exclaimed as I crawled into the bed and lay down. I feel like the world’s spinning once again and I’d pay anything for it to just stop and let me rest for Pete’s sake!

“Camille…. Just please eat before sleeping. You need it to restore your energy. I’ll leave after you eat, I promise,” what he said made me turn my head to him. What? Leave? He’s leaving? Again? What is wrong with Trevor Helios?! Have I become someone he can’t tolerate anymore?

“Leave? You’re leaving me again?!”

“What?” He looked so confused as he bent and extended his hand to touch mine. “No! no! I meant I’d go outside and let you rest. I promise.”

“You promise?” I still need to make sure. Because even though I’m pissed at him that I could probably punch his face, I still can’t deny the strong affection I feel for him. And worry! God! I felt like my world crumbled when I thought that he had already left me on this island alone. I can’t go through that again. The pain in my chest kept me from going farther and farther from the mansion. The worry I felt about him being in danger made me forget about the fear I have for the dark forest.

I can’t. I swear if he makes me go through that experience again, I would headlock him so badly he’d have trouble breathing.

“I promise,” I saw sincerity in his eyes. But now that I’m accepting all these feelings I have for him, I’m starting to question if I really saw the sincerity in his eyes or am I just hallucinating and projecting those hallucinations and imaginations in his every action? How about all the kindness and ingenuity he showed me? Are those all my imaginations? God, I hope not.

Since he looked sincere enough for me, I followed his heed and tried hard to eat.