Blue Eyes I First Saw

Chapter 26

“Wait!” I run yet Seikatu's steps are fast and wide. He exited the forest and I'm catching my breath as I ran after him. “I'll be back with your brother!” my mouth formed and said those words as I saw Souru trying to stop me.

“Seikatu!” I shouted again and he halted on his tracks. My feet felt tired so I slowed down and caught my breath when I'm just right near his back.

“I— I . . .I can tell you e— verything.” my words are cut by my heavy breathing. “About So— uru.”

My skin tingles again when Seikatu turns and looks at me with a frown. He's effect on me is unexplainable yet it's not a bad feeling or an uncomfortable one. 

I avoided his ocean blue eyes and looked at his black shirt on his chest part instead. 

Hell, it's hard, I can tell. Enough. “Seika— I mean, Mr. Ikemen. I'm telling you the truth.” How can I explain this more clearly? Heck, with his eyes on me, I can't formulate anything. 

“Souru is not dead, Ms. Kanasimi.” his coldness can make me back out but, this is for his brother for Pete's sake.

“He is! I can tell you why! I can tell you how! I can tell you when! Just please! Listen to me!” my voice broke. I'm so weak. “For Souru, please! Listen to me for your brother! He helped me and I want to help him. I want to help him and I need you to listen to me.” 

“Then, tell me where he is?” Seikatu is calm, yet the way he speaks says he's not. “Show him to me and I'll listen.”

I shook my head countless times at that. Wiping my tears that dripped down my cheeks and sobbed. “I can't— I'm sorry.”

“Why?”

“He's . . .he is— a ghost I talked to.” it's almost a whisper.

I heard him sighed again and placed his hands on both sides of his waist. Looking up to him, he is pushing his tongue inside his right cheek again looking up to the sky as if calming himself. Seikatu sighed one more time and looked at me with an irritated expression plastered on his handsome face.

My gaze can't stand his eyes so I look down. “Miss. My brother is alive. Keep that in mind.” Seikatu said and turned his back on me. “Whatever you're going through, don't pull a prank like this again on anyone.” Then, he walked away with his long legs.

I sighed. My shoulders dropped as I thought of Souru. This might be his last chance yet I ruined it. Seikatu's effect on me is something that I can't control, it's so natural but then, scary. 

This might be Souru's last chance and I want to help him. His brother— Seikatu might still believe me if I gave him time or be consistent. 

Gathering all my hopes, I went back inside the forest where Souru is crying in silence. It reminds me of how Seikatu cried not so long ago. 

“Brother.” I stood beside him and Souru wiped his tears before smiling at me. This kid is so courageous. “I'll talk to him again soon.” 

“Sei, you really don't have to. I'm fine. I saw how my brother found this all . . .ridiculous.” 

“Things might still change like how you did it to me when I'm about to . . .you know.” I told him the fact that I will never forget.

“Things don't work that way every time.”

“Brother, stop being the negative charge. Your brother will believe me. Trust me, okay?” I offered a reassuring smile at him that made him nod. 

“How will you do it?” Souru being Souru asked curiously.

I shrugged. “I still don't have any ways in my mind, to be honest.” thinking of some ways, I know it will come up to me once I sort all the information I need.

How can someone like me make a man like Seikatu believe in what I say? How can I do this?

“Zire . . .” I whispered my thoughts that made Souru frown at me. “Zire!” 

Like a bulb light on my head, a grin crept on my lips as I looked at Souru— who was looking at me with wonder.

“What are you thinking?” his head tilted a bit as if analyzing me.

“Zire and your brother are friends.” I stated that made him nod.

“I told you that already, I guess?” 

“Oh?” Did he? “I didn't remember but, anyway . . .they are friends and I might ask him to help me.” Souru's face lightens up at the idea and I know to myself that I'll help him and his brother.

“So . . .” I know Seikatu's university, his workplace, even his current address, what should I know more?

My eyes flew to the poster where a photo of living and happy Souru is attached, where Seikatu's phone number is printed. 

Right. I know his number.

Without a second thought, I got my iPhone and saved Seikatu's number on it, with his address, work place, and university indicated on it.

“I can say that you now have something in mind.” Souru said, looking at me.

I smiled at him. “Souru, I'll make your brother talk to you. I promise.” like a sweet wicked witch, my grin never leaves my lips.

Sooner or later I'll make this work. But then, my involuntary reaction and feelings towards Seikatu when he is near me is unexplainable. I should start working on that too, perhaps?

I sighed. If I'm just used to socializing, this mission won't be that hard for me. Introvert problems.

“Bye, Souru!” I shouted back as I left the Aokigahara forest where Souru— my ghost brother stays. 

After thinking what to do, I decided to go back home and think of ways on how to approach Seikatu.

Seikatu. Whenever I think of his name all my mind think of are his ocean blue eyes. It feels like those eyes are mesmerizing me even though it's not near me. How can someone be pierced through someone's mind by just his eyes? My system are even messed up when he's around. When Seikatu is around. 

This might have some psychological explanations, perhaps? 

I should visit Guki to ask and bond with her. Feels like a long time has passed since I last visited her. The last time I talked to Guki was when I was about to do the deed and now, there are a lot of things that have changed. She'd be happy if she knew that I'd finally consider her advice.

As I settle on the seat next to the bus’ window, my mind wanders to Seikatu. On how I first saw him on the Metro Tokyo streets and followed him, how those pair of ocean blue eyes stared at me for minutes, how he made me nervous when he's near.

The scene in the forest played on my head. Our distance and how he stared straight to my eyes and made me immobile.

Seikatu made my back incline flatly on a tree's trunk. With his hand near my head he sighed again and looked at me. 

My eyes almost grew on how near he was to me. Not because I'm scared or my fear of being touched but because every part of my skin tingles.

Why does it look so sweet and romantic like those in the novels? 

Hours ago, my heart thumps so fast and loud, my skin tingles and all but, now that I think of it, my lips can't help but to stifle a smile. What the heck is going on? Seikatu is having an effect on me that is so . . .weird.

I sighed. I should make this stop before I encounter Seikatu again.

The almost five-hour ride from Narusawa to Metro Tokyo went fast as I drowned myself in my thoughts. 

Seikatu. Seikatu. Seikatu. That's how my thoughts went like. 

He is living alone, working at McDonald's Minato City, a scholar at University of Tokyo. He is smart as hell, I'm sure of that. A hardworking and determined man, maybe cold and serious too— he really is. He makes me feel— enough of that. What's important is I know his whereabouts, and places he stays. 

I sighed and continued walking to the station to go home to Shibuya. This Seikatu thing is turning me to someone I don't know, a stalker or whatever. If Souru just had a different brother this might be easier but then, he's not to blame. I'm the one who chases someone on the street, I'm the one who feels immobile towards Seikatu so I'm the only one to blame. 

On the train my mind wanders. Why do I always go to Metro Tokyo before going to school? Metropolitan Kokusai High School is just near Shibuya yet I kept on going to the metro first. I can actually walk from my parent's house at Shibuya to our university.

Old habits are really hard to die. It's I and Faya's routine before, we'll go to the metro to eat breakfast and study together before walking to Kokusai Koko side by side. That's how crazy we were before to walk the long way instead of going the near route.

I'll make my rerouting on Monday, perhaps? Faya and I are now best of friends again but I know the habits we had before might set aside. On Monday, I'll walk from my house to our university, no more metro to walk by.

On the other hand, I'm just making an excuse to avoid seeing Seikatu early in the morning like that one time. I might see him on the streets again so it's better to go straight to my campus.

“Zyosei, glad you're here. Your father bought some books for you.” my mother said as she spotted me in the living room.

Books. What's new? They want me to study hard. 

I smiled. “Thanks, I'll just change and . . .” my eyes went down to the pile of books on the center table. I thought it's just some, why did that ‘some’ make three piles?

“This one is chemistry books . . .” my mother signaled the first pile then the second, “while these are biology books, the last one are medical books.” she smiled at me, a very genuine one that made me smile too.

Chemistry, Biology, and Medical. Those areas are my forte. My excitement grew at the realization.

“Thank you!” I almost cheered as I examined the books. I won't be this excited if these books contain Calculus or Technology but it's my area!

“You like it?” my father appeared, as serious as ever. 

I nodded and carried the books I could carry. “I love it! These are my favorite subjects and I'll really read this! Thank you!” my feet almost jumped but then I stopped from grinning upon realizing that I became a talkative human just because of these books. I can sense the approval of my father but I think my mom didn't like how I acted.

Clearing my throat and having just a small smile, I bowed. “Thank you again. I'll go to my room now.” Then, I proceed upstairs carrying six books bringing back the grin in my face. I'll just carry the books that are left later.

How come they bought me these books? They always bought mathematics and alikes, this is so weird yet I like it. 

I hurriedly remove the mathematics books I have and place the new ones on it. Having math on my shelf is tiring, at least my sciences are starting to dominate my shelves. I grinned again. 

This day is full of motivation. Tomorrow will be great having Science, Faya, Souru, and Seikatu— wait. Seikatu isn't motivating, he's intimidating, especially his eyes.

I can't wait to wake up for tomorrow!

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