Our life together

chapter 12

I roll over and cuddle into Ian's chest.

 "Morning beautiful" he says in a groggy voice and wraps me in his arms kissing my hair. I kiss him and the lips and he smiles, his eyes still closed. 

 "Wake up sleepy head" I kiss him once more and poke his nose and try to open his eyes. I eventually roll over and take my phone; I open my snap and start to snap Ian. I want to post it on my story but then I realized I can't, people can't find out about us. The only person that knows is Tyler, well that's the only person I told. I decide to just send the snap to Tyler and caption it 

"morning like these." I put my phone back on the nightstand and look up at Ian. 

God he's so handsome. I wish it could stay like this forever but sadly there is a thing called school which ruins every teenagers morning. I get up and go into Ian's bathroom; it's like twice the size of mine. Why would he need such a big bathroom anyway? I pull my hair in a bun and head in the shower. When I finish I wrap a towel around me and brush my teeth and put on some lotion, I turn around and see Ian leaning against the door frame smirking. I look at him and roll my eyes 

 "how long have you been standing there?" I ask and continue to lotion my legs.

 "Long enough to get me turned on." He says seductively and comes and wraps his arms around my waist from behind. 

 "Gosh you smell amazing" he starts to kiss me from my neck to my shoulder. 

 "Well it is your soap." I say sarcastically and walk away. 

 "That attitude is gonna get you in trouble." He says looking at me annoyed but with a hint of humor. 

 "What would you do?" I say teasingly and remove my towel revealing my naked body. I walk out and head to my room and get dressed. As I put on my pants he enters, 

 "what the hell was that?" 

 "You're not the only one that can tease" I start to put on my makeup and look at him.

 "Besides you can't do anything" I smirk at him.

 "Is that so?" He says coming closer.

 "Yes" I said with a big smile, "

 "I have to be at school and I'm already running late."I finish applying my mascara, take my school bag and look at Ian. 

 "Bye Baby" I kissed him on the lips and head downstairs.

It was time to face the sad reality that we call school. It has been even worse to see Dylan; he doesn't even look at me anymore. But would you blame him after what I did to him. We don't have any projects together anymore; we decided to do it on our own. Everyone knows that we broke up, no one had to say anything I guess just the fact that we don't even acknowledge each other present anymore says enough. School goes by slowly. I walk out my last class at 2:15 and head outside where I see Ian's car parked. I get a huge smile on my face and walk to the car. 

 "Hey baby" I get in and kiss his lips. 

 "How was school princess?" He places his hand on my thigh and squeezes lightly. 

 "Well you know the usual." I smile at him. 

 "How was work?"

 "The usual." He smiles at me and kisses my forehead. 

 "What we gonna do today?" I asked like a small child eager to go play.

 "I have to go back to work baby girl, I took a late lunch break for me to pick you up cause I'll be home late."

 "Okay" I say dryly and look out the window. 

 "I'm sorry, I'll make it up to you, I promise."He takes my hand into his and kisses it. 

 "You better."I say in a sassy tone and kiss his cheeks. He chuckles and smiles at me. 

 "Don't think I forgot about your little tease this morning." I smile innocently 

 "I don't know what you're talking about" he chuckles once again but doesn't say anything he just hums. 

He drops me at home, his home. The chef is busy cooking and I great her. I enter my room, change into some sweats, put my hair in a bun, remove my makeup and lay on my bed. I take my phone and call my dad but he doesn't pick up. He doesn't know about all this. I can only imagine how he would react; he'd be mad, disappointed but even more mad. Am I ever going to tell him? I don't know, I guess if things become really serious between Ian and I he'll have to find out, but I think for now it's better no one should know. I haven't spoken about this to Ian but I think he would say the same. They are best friends, I know they talk mostly everyday and now I'm probably gonna be the reason that they won't be friends anymore... all because of me. Is this all worth it? Is it worth losing my relationship with my dad? Is it worth to put Ian's career in line just because I want to be with him? Is this all worth it? I try not to think too much about it and decide that it's best to talk with Ian about this. Just to be clear about everything. It's 2:30 and Ian finally comes home. 

 "You're still up?"He kisses my forehead and starts undressing himself to get ready for bed. 

"Yeah couldn't sleep" I say and continue watching the TV series. 

 "How come?" He asks from the bathroom.

 "I don't know, I was just thinking." 

 "About?" He comes in bed and wraps his arms around me. 

 "Us" I say quietly hoping he won't hear. 

 "What about us baby girl?" He asks softly in a sleepy voice.

 "Nothing, forget about it." He hums and falls asleep.

 A feeling of relief comes over me because I didn't want to have this conversation right now. I cuddled up beside him and let sleep take over me. I wake up to the vibration of my phone, I look at it and see Ian's number on lock screen before I pick up I turn around and see that I'm the only one in bed. 

 "Morning beautiful." I hear him say as I pick up. 

 "You can't say that if you're not here and can't see me." I say a little meaner than I intended. 

"Sorry baby girl I had an early meeting, there is breakfast downstairs if you're hungry." 

 "Ok, when are you going to be back home?" 

 "I don't know, probably late again." 

 "Ok." I say dryly

 "Don't be mad." 

 "Why would I be mad? I've barely seen you for the past 2 days." I say sarcastically.

 "Babe..." before he could continue I cut him off 

 "ok talk to you tonight." I say and hang up the phone. 

the day goes by slowly, I miss Ian but am still mad at him. I don't want to call him cause I want him to know that I'm mad and that he has to make it up to me. It's only 9:30pm when I finish showering in Ian's bathroom and hear him storm into the room and then in the bathroom where I am.

 "Why the f**k haven't you answered your phone the entire day?" He says angry, I try not to feel intimidated and say 

 "because I'm mad" as carefree as I can. 

 "Because your mad? Mad that I have to work to earn a living? Do you know how f*****g worried I was when u weren't picking up? I was so damn worried that I couldn't get anything done and came home immediately after my last meeting!"

 He raises his voice at me and I can't help but feel tears forming I'm my eyes, no rose! Pull it together. 

 "Well I wouldn't be mad if you haven't been coming home so late!" I say also raising my voice. 

"You're saying it like I've been coming home late every day; it's only been 2 days. You know damn well that if I could have come home earlier, I would've!"

He looks at me angrily; I don't know what to say because in a way I know he's right. Never have I ever seen him this mad at me, and this is all because I was being dramatic. He changes from his work clothes into sweats and a white cotton shirt. I don't know what to say or do? He hasn't looked at me once since he stopped yelling. I walk out of the room and go to my room, as soon as the door closes I let myself fall on the ground and start crying. This is our first fight, never has he been so mad at me or that he just ignores me. And this is all because of me! Because I needed to prove something! I lay in bed, sad and lonely. I haven't slept alone ever since we've been together and now I don't like sleeping alone. I don't wanna go in his room because I know he wouldn't let me sleep next to him. So I lay in my bed alone, wishing things turned out differently.