Blessed to have you

Feelings

Sheron's p. o. v.

What's wrong with this person? what does he think of himself? he thinks he can do whatever he want to do? after all these days. I was dealing with the person because of whom I got hurt. and now in the middle of jungle he just stopped the f*****g car and now he is saying that he is leaving tomorrow.

it is so painful. I never thought you would do this to me. our first meeting was an accident but then you came in my life with all the happiness. you make me happy you make me live life again and now when everything was going great. I was feeling better. I was liking your company. I started to like this devil friend of mine then he is saying that he is leaving. how can he do this to me, how can you do this to me l.....love?

just then I realized something. I love him? do I really love him? is that's why I'm feeling betrayed? I'm feeling betrayed because he never confess? or it is just affection? with this all those incidents happen between us came to my mind. ankle twisting, me in his arms, feeding each other, insulting each other, crying in his arms whole night,and today's all events made its way to my mind. I realized one thing that I couldn't deny. I love him! yes you stupid sheron, you love him! there was a smile at my face but he is going back to New York.he is leaving me here. all alone with this feeling. I wanted to scream that I love him I want to be with him but... does he love me?

I was hugging him behind. my tears keep falling from my eyes. Dervin truned and hugged me. I don't know how much time we were like that but I felt... safe? it was like I belong to him. Dervin wiped my tears by his thumb and I looked at his eyes there was pain but at the same time he was bit surprised.

a car horn take us both back to reality that we both we still in a hugging position in the middle of jungle. the sky was already dark. we walk towards the car, not saying anything. we both were in our own thoughts. we drive towards my house in complete scilence.

when we were just about to knock at the door. Aunt Pam opened the door , she was looking at us with a worried expression.

as we walk towards the living room anut Pam asked "what took you both so long? I was worried!" "anut Pam, something happened to the car so we got stuck there." I said. Dervin first looked at me with a blank expression but then nodded. he was about to leave when anut Pam asked him to stay tonight because it was past midnight and it was not safe to drive. he looked at me like he was asking for my permission. I scilently nodded and asked him to stay.

we went to our respective rooms. I need to clear all this. what I feel for him, what he fell for me. I need answers.