The Confusing thing called Love (completed)

Chapter 11; The Trip.

Ashlee POV;

The weekend has ended, I basically stayed home and focused on myself over the weekend. I was walking into work, nervous but was ready to do what I had to do. I didn’t go to my desk, I went straight to Mark’s office. As I approached, Logan was walking out, and shaking Mark’s hand, they were both smiling. As they saw me standing there, Logan passed me without saying a word.

“Ah, Ashlee, yes just the woman I wanted to see. Come in.” He said to me.

I followed him in and sat at one of the seats in front of his desk. I smiled at him, but before I could stay anything he started talking.

“Ashlee, I have known you since you were 16 years old, and you’ve always been a hard worker plus a smart girl. That’s why I wanted to tell you, your job here is safe.” He smiled at me.

“Wait, what? What did Logan do? I told him I was gonna walk and he could keep his job! Don’t let him do this, he’s working to hard to get here, please.” I said.

But to my surprise, he chuckled at me.

“Listen, I offered Logan a promotion, he is staying here also. When you both left Friday, one of my employees had quit for personal reasons and which made his position available. I offered it to Logan, I am gonna find someone to fill his spot. So you see you still have your assistant job. Technically he’s not your boss anymore so you two are free to do whatever you please,” He said to me.

“What you offered him a promotion? He’s only been here like an month? I’m not complaining, I’m just surprised,” I said, still kinda shocked about it.

“Logan is a talented man and smart. He deserves it. He will be traveling more, and working longer hours but he’s so excited.” Mark said to me smiling.

“So what am I gonna do until his replacement gets here?” I asked.

“Logan still has that position until I find a replacement. So your still assisting him” He replied to me. “By the way I hear your going on the trip with Liam, I just want to Thank you.”

I told him no problem, and decided to go to work. I went to my desk Logan looked at me, but didn’t say two words to me. I don’t know if he’s giving me space, or is he just mad at me?

Logan isn’t the kind of guy that will give you space when asking for it. So I was curious what was going on. He had a couple of meetings throughout the day. So I have barley seen him this morning. I had a couple of messages for him, so I decided I would use this my advantage. I knocked on his door, and he told me to come in.

“I have a couple messages for you.” I said to him.

“ Thanks..” he said, as he grabbed them out of my hand and laid them on my desk. He didn’t even look at me.

“Is there anything I can do for you?” I asked him.

“No.” He replied not even looking up at me, from his papers.

“Logan!!!” I said.

“What do you want, Ash? I am working right now.” He said to me.

“When has that stopped you before? You can’t even look at me.” I said to him getting upset.

“Maybe that’s because if I look at you, I’ll get upset or angry. I’d rather not, so please if there’s nothing else could you please leave my office?” He said to me.

So I decided to just walk out instead of fighting with him. The rest of my day went by very slow, and Logan still hasn’t barley said a word to me today. It was almost the end of the day, and Liam would be here soon to pick me up. As I gathered my stuff, Logan walked up to my desk.

“Listen, Ashlee;” “I am trying my best to give your space like you asked. I just hope you know, that I went into that office today, and was prepared to quit my job for you. I was thinking about leaving and going back home. I was gonna do it for you since I got here, you have had nothing but drama. I want you to be happy. So Friday night I will be leaving for the weekend, going to visit my mom and gonna figure out this whole pregnancy thing with Madison. I still believe it’s Justin’s baby, I’m also gonna go talk him too. So while all this is happening, and your gonna be outta office tomorrow for your trip. I think we should figure out if we gonna proceed with our relationship. We were a good couple when we were young and wild, but maybe as adults we aren’t. I do still love you no matter what. Mr. Asher has found someone to take my place, and so tomorrow I’ll be showing him around. By the time Wednesday when you come back I won’t be in this office. We will probably barley see each other at all. With that in mind have a safe trip.” He said to me walking away before I could say a word to him.

Just then Liam walked in asking me if I was ready. I grabbed my bag and purse and got up to leave. Maybe this trip will be good for me even though it was just over night. As I climbed into Liam car, he asked me if I was alright and I nodded.

As we drove, we played music, laughed, talked about stupid stuff like the good old days. We made it to our hotel. We first got settled into our room. Liam went down to the casino, I wasn’t 21 yet so I didn’t really wanna play but Liam did, and he said I was his good luck charm. We were down there for a hour, Liam was on a role. We were having fun, Liam was also drinking. As we were walking out of the casino, when a drunk man walked passed us and commented my a**. Liam got jealous and grabbed my hand, turned to the guy saying that I was his. I smiled at him. I love how he’s so protective I over me.

“Men are just disgusting.” I said to him.

“Not all men are, babes.” He said to me, still holding my hand walking down the hall. We decided we were gonna have dinner at the restaurant in the hotel,it was a very fancy place.

As we sat at the table, the waitress handed us menus and took our drink orders. Liam ordered another alcoholic drink and I ordered a Diet Coke.

“Ashlee, I have had fun today. I have missed you, and all the fun we’ve had.” He said to me.

“I have too, Liam. Thanks for asking me to come.” I said to him.

“I wanna tell you something, but I don’t know how your gonna react.” He said to me nervously.

He went to speak but then changed his mind.

“Liam, just tell me. You can tell me anything.” I said to him hoping he would tell me.

“Nevermind, let’s just figure out what we are going to eat.” He said to me.

“Liam just tell..” I started to say before he interrupted me by kissing me on the lips. I felt myself kissing back. Then I pushed away, and looked at him.

“What was that?” I said to him.

“I’m sorry but I wanted to do that ever since the day I first seen you at your locker on your first day at school. I have always liked you, Ashlee. I think I feeling something more now.” He replied to me.

I didn’t know what to say, I tried to say something but nothing came out. Instead I decided to run out of the restaurant and go up to our room. I’m not gonna lie, I have pictured myself with Liam, and always had a crush on him too. But I always had Logan so I never did or said anything about it. I sat on the bed, wrapping my head around what just happened. A few minutes later, Liam comes walking in and just stares at me.

“You kissed back, why did you run away? He said.

“I don’t know, I was shocked.” I said to him,

“Ashlee, I’m sorry I did that. But I wanna be up front with you, I think I’m falling for you.” He said, walking up closer to me. “If you tell me that you don’t feeling anything, and you didn’t enjoy that kiss, I will drop it and pretend it never happened.”

I went to speak but I couldn’t, because truthfully I enjoyed that kiss. I did like him, so I didn’t know what my problem was. I couldn’t think of anything at this moment, because he was so close to my lips, I was craving those lips again. That’s when I bit my bottom lip, and when he saw that, he reached in and kissed me again. He was kissing me soft at first then he started kissing me more rough. He pushed me down, as we were still kissing, he got on top of me. Still kissing, that when I realize something.

“Stop, Logan.” I mumbled in his lips.

“What about Logan? This is about us?” He replied.

“I can’t do this right now, I have Logan. Even tho we are taking a break, I still have him to consider.” I said to Liam.

He didn’t look happy, “Babe, when are you gonna let him go? He has broken your heart too many times, now you guys are on a break after you just go back together? He’s not worth it anymore.” He stated.

“I know, Liam. But he’s my first love, I still love him no matter what.” I said starting to tearing up.

“I get it really. I don’t wanna push you, when your ready I am here. Ok? If you need time to figure out what you want, then take your time. I have waited 5-6 years for you, I can wait a little long.” He said to me, making me smile.

“Thank you.” I said as I climbed into bed ready to go to sleep.

He got a room with two beds but to be honest, I didn’t wanna be alone.

“Can you come sleep over here and cuddle with me?” I asked him.

He agreed, we both got up and changed then climbed into bed. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed the top of my head.

“Good night babes.” He said to me.

“Good night.” I replied back.

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