Wonderland

Chapter 5: Sugar, We're going Down

Chapter 6: Sugar, We’re Going Down  

September 28th, 2014

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Chapter 6- Harvey Duke-

*Two Weeks Later*

I walked up to Rex in the hallway nervously, I had never ditched class before. He had texted me a few minutes ago and told me to meet him here.

"Everything ok?" I went to grab his hand, but he lurched backwards, "Rex?" I asked softly.

Did I do something wrong?

"I never want to see you again" He said, and it felt like a million 18 Wheeler's slammed into my body.

"W-what?"

"Well I mean I still need the help so after school studying is still on but other than that I don't want to see you, talk to you, hear from you, got it?"

I nodded, and he pushed himself off the wall and walked away. I gulped and just stood there frozen. I watched as another Guy joined Rex as he was walking away. I didn't really know the man, but I could tell by the bow-legged stagger it was Jensen. Jensen, the biggest "hottie" in the school, it was Rare to see him with Rex, considering Rex had completely fallen off the social scene and was now on the list of people to not talk to. 

what the hell was going on.

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As normal I leaned against the brick wall waiting for Rex to show up, he finally did, and I surprised to see him with Jensen. Jensen had as the called it, emerald green eyes and shortish shaggy light brown hair. he wasn't the tallest, but he was hot. like super-hot. 

"Aye what's with the loser?" Jensen pointed his thumb at me but speak as if I wasn't even there.

"Free lessons" Rex shrugged and Jensen gave him a warning sneer of some sort.

"See ya tomorrow Rex" Jensen squeezed Rex's shoulder and Rex gave him a knowing smirk then looked at me with a frown. I felt so small under his gaze. He c****d his head towards his car and ushered for me to follow. I did what I was ordered to, and the car ride was awkward and silent. 

Just as normal Cole was lounging about in the kitchen with one part of his body exposed, this time he was in an MCR tank top and red plaid boxers, he was chewing on some pizza and smiled when he saw me.

"Bunny!" he cheered, "want some" he gestured to the pizza.

I shook my head quickly keeping my eyes down.

"Hey" he frowned, "what's wrong bunny? somthin' the matter? Rexxy here do something bad?" 

Rex glared down at me viciously and I shook my head once again, "No sir" I said.

"Sir? what the hell's got you so rattled?" Cole asked raising an eye brow.

"Drop it Cole" Rex growled and pushed me towards the stairs. I stumbled, and Cole was the one to catch me.

"What the f**k Terrence?" Cole pressed me to his chest protectively, "The hell is wrong with you!"

"Nothing now give him back!" he held a hand out, but Cole swatted it away sliding me behind him and I clutched onto his tank top letting the small of his Armani cologne take over my nose.

"No f*****g way, you've got some nerve 'showin up and 'pushin Harvey 'round" Cole snapped his voice slipping into a New York accent.

 "He's here to help ME Cole, now let us go study" Rex grumbled.

Cole glanced back at me, "you ok little one?" he asked sweetly.

I nodded and slid away from him and started to walk up the stairs after Rex but mouthing thank you to Cole who looked at me worriedly.

"We should start on English because there is an exam next week" I mumbled, and he plopped down on the couch.

"Fine with me" he huffed.

"Why am I here?" I asked.

"Hm? cause you're smart and I need help" he said.

"I don't want to be some reference book to you" I whispered.

"Then there's the door" he gave a small wave of the hand.

"Fine" I stood up just after I sat down, and he looked at me a bit shocked, but that fire soon died, and his eyes were dull again.

"Don't talk to me anymore" he said.

"Yea" I spat bitterly, "I got that"

I slammed his door shut and gave a quick nod to Cole as I stumbled down the stairs. He grabbed my hand and spun me around.

"What's going on?" he asked calmly but I could see the dark hatred in his eyes. 

"nothing" I refused to look at him.

"Harvey" he looked a bit hurt, "Please tell me, I could help"

Without warning I was pulling him outside and telling him everything that had happened the last three weeks. in the end there were tears wetting my cheeks and he looked like he was going to kill someone.

"One more thing Cole" I said through the sadness, "Don't confront Terrence"

"What!" he snapped his eyes up to look at me but when he saw me flinch he softened his stagger, "why not?"

"I don't want to cause any trouble" I said simply giving him a sad smile.

"Harvey, I do hope you know you're freaking amazing"

"How so?"

"Well first off you're standing in front of me with a broken heart and you don't want to cause trouble for the person who broke it, second I know that your home life isn't the best and I also know that your school life sucks as well, I’m stunned really, I don't know how you do it"

"I never had it any other way" I mumbled, "It's not like being alone is a new thing"

He wrapped me up in a hug, "That's horrible"

"I also promised someone that I would be as strong as I could"

"who?"

If only I could say without breaking down.

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My fingers hovered over his number before I tripped walking home and pressed it.

"s**t s**t s**t s**t" I cursed.

"Auntie will have your head for using the kind of language bunny boy" the deep voice laughed through my phone.

"Stephan?"

"you called me, why wouldn't I be the one to pick up? are you losing it?"

"no" I laughed, "no... just.... when are you coming home?"

"I have a two week break right now actually" he hummed, "do you want to see me?"

"mmhm" I whimpered.

"where are you? I’ll pick you up from the airport"

"uhm" I looked around, "just outside the school"

"sit tight darlin"

he hung up and I sat on the curb, my hands shaking in anticipation, when a silver car pulled up I jumped to my feet as the man 6 foot 1 stepped out.

"Bunny" he smiled softly and hugged me tightly, I latched onto his shirt and he looked at me, his lips in an upwards curve, his leant down and kissed me gently, I whined but didn't fight it.

This was a shock but not a big one, he always told me that when he got back he'd make me understand his feelings towards me. he cupped my cheek and kissed my temple, "you have no clue how long I have waited to do that" he sighed happily.

"How's war?"

"dirty" he replied simply.

I nodded, not sure what else to say, my lips still tingled from his kiss and I knew I was smiling like an i***t.

let me clear up the confusion: this is Stephan Locke, lived across the street form me since I moved in with my aunt cause my mom went mental. he's bout 3 years older than me and for two years now he's been traveling overseas as an air-force officer.

he's got short blond hair and bright green eyes, and he's my first love. Before he left to go to boot camp he told me he had loved me for many years and when he got back he would still love me.

I never believed him, who could love someone like me. He’s the one that made me realize I was gay.

"is auntie still hardcore?"

"yeah"

"so, if I asked her if I could ask you out she'd behead me?"

"oh yeah"

"any news on your mom?"

"she's doing better, dealing with dads’ suicide better but she's still a mess"

"are they going to let her see you?"

"I look exactly like him they're afraid it will revert her back"

"I’m sorry bunny"

"it's okay, it's been 8 years, I stopped missing her"

"don't lie to me, I know you better than anyone, you miss her a lot"

"she'd be accepting of us"

"my mom would be happy to take you in if you need it bunny"

"I know, but, without you here there is no point in coming out, Rex isn’t mine anymore either"

"who's Rex? do I have competition?"

"I don't even know how to explain it, he just snapped and told me never to speak to him again"

Stephan sat down the curb and invited me to sit next to him, I did just that and he looped his arm around my shoulder. I leaned into him.

"would you like to stay with me tonight?"

"would Allie be okay with that; didn't she just get her son back"

"Allie knew I loved you before I did, I’m sure she'd be okay with you staying over for a night"

"then take me home Steph, I just want to go home"

"I will always be your home" he kissed my temple again and for the first time I felt like I would be okay with Rex hating me. Stephan might just be the one for me.