Aubree Joy Ward

Nothing

My life's so full of emptyness

And I'm a complete f*****g mess

Go ahead Tell your jokes and jest

Put more weight on my chest

I sit around and stare blankly

At an empty tv screen

Hoping one-day maybe

Something will pop out at me

Or maybe I won't want to die

And maybe I'll learn how to not cry

Writing letters saying goodbye

To loved ones all night

But then I get a call or text

That makes me feel like even less

Mikey why do you act like this

And so a needle is my bliss

I fade away into a sleep

A sleep described only as deep

Because awake I always weep

But inside my dreams I scream

I nod and nod away for hours

Some would call me a coward

And maybe theyre right

Maybe they're right

But still I feel like I am owed

Something better for my soul

Prolly should work on some goals

But instead how about nope

I have no emotional energy

And my list of sins is plenty

See I think you hate me

So I act out hatefully

I wanna break something

As bad as I'm broken

There's only one thing

That'll stop my moping

And that's my sweet dear heroin

Shell fill me up as I draw her in

I love her prick so caring

I did too much f**k that was daring

Maybe I'll just fade away

I n t o n o t h I n g