Aubree Joy Ward

It's Okay I'm Nobody & Alone

It's okay I'm nobody

I can't expect you to love me

When I don't know what that means

Dying inside so blatently

Falling apart at the seams

I wish I could make you happy

But it's impossible for me

To give something so sappy

When I don't have it in me

I'm so sad all the time without you

And I haven't slept in so f*****g long

Because I'm not worth love that's true

So I sit alone and listen to sad songs

Wishing I had a hand to hold while I cry

Wishing i wasn't stone cold sober

Wishing I had the balls to die

Wishing that I could just hold her

But wishes aren't s**t without action

And this is all inside my head

The same head I wanna smash in

Hopefully I feel peace when I'm dead

Abuse

those words I said on that day

that lead our relationship astray

will always not be okay

I regret it every single day

I threw your suitcase in the pool

I feel like it all went to hell

you used to look at me and drool

but now you think I'm unwell

your dying inside loving me

I felt like this was meant to be

but now I don't think your happy

I'm so sorry I am no longer sappy

when I get mad my tongues a knife

cutting your heart into slices

causing you so much strife

I wanted to make you my wife

and ruined it all like a kid

my f*****g immaturity did

this makes me hurt so bad

I wish I could go back

to when smiles were all we had

never frowns and never sad

love happiness we were glad

now I don't know if we'll last