Aubree Joy Ward

Anybody Else & Exausted

Anybody else

Every morning I wake up

Wishing I wasn't me

Wondering how to make up

A lie so you can't see

That I'm bleeding viciously

From my heart dead cold

Please just try and see

I'm young but my pains old

I hate the man I see in mirror

I hate these f*****g eyes

I couldn't be f*****g clearer

All my smiles are lies

Sky bright not a cloud in sight

Yet a storm brews within

Bloody hands from fistfights

And scars from my sins

Broken bones shattered quick

Family torn because of me

I look at me and I get sick

How nice it feels to see

That I'm my own worst enemy

I cause all of my pain

Im cursed can you not see

This was never the plan

Everywhere my feet are planted

I leave without a trace

I will never qualify for sainthood

Please give me space

I've chosen the easy way out

More times than I can count

I choose to sit in this and pout

Because I really f*****g doubt

That I'm capable of more

Yet im still gonna try

To open the last door

To a better life

I can't live this way anymore

I need to escape her grasp

She's made me spiritually poor

And closed my heart's clasp

Now I feel and it hurts

But ita better than numb

That only makes it worse

And makes me a little more dumb

Exhausted

I'm so terribly tired

From carrying the weight

Of all the stones on fire

That are on my plate

Lifes thrown me around

A parking lot caked in blood

The only relief is the sound

Of my head hitting concrete thud

Sweet bliss and oblivion

Pain my dear companion

This pit I'm falling in

And the sand your rubbing in

The wounds I've caused to me

The crimson speckled leaves

The scars that don't ever heal

Because they're inside of me

I'm rotten on the inside

Sweet on the out

My heart has since died

Don't know much about

Life or living barely can survive

The landscape of my heart

Is a land which cannot thrive

So from here I must depart