Aubree Joy Ward

Monkey on my Back & Exhausted

Monkey on my back

the monsters in my head were screaming

and I felt metaphorical internal bleeding

I shot up all my money I'm I'm demon

I wish I wasn't gonna end up leaving

but maybe you'll feel better without

my touch my rough love my pout

I really f*****g need some help

I'm just so f*****g full of doubt

I ruined it and I'm so sorry

all I cause you is worry

maybe I didn't want you to hurt me

but you wouldn't have

you wouldn't have

the Monkey in my head took me

away from you my dear aubree

and for that I'm so f*****g sorry

baby this is so hard for me

I really do love you I just don't know

how to stop the demons though

if I die I just hope you know

you were the best thing that ever happened to me

My Love Affair With Fetanyl

you called it you said I'd use

and I'm so sad that you were right

it started with verbal abuse

and it ended with my life

ruined over ended done

it's over for all our fun

I wish we could've had a son

I wish just this battle I'd won

his name would've been George Lennon

and he would've been the dopest

and he would've made our life heaven

instead I ended up so hopless

I put that needle in my arm

and lost all of my charms

I took your trust and broke it

now this fire isn't lit

she touched me and I let her

I let her into my veins

this evil can't get better

I don't know if I'll change

I just want you to be happy

I dont know if I can help

I wish you could've whacked me

and I left it on the shelf

this is the end of a chapter

the best one in my life

now all I have is her

and she's gonna take my life

I traded my dreams for a needle

like a f****d up weasel

i would do anything to take it back

but it doesn't work like that

what's done is done

the end of our love

I still want you hun

but into my arm it was shoved