This is what I always dreamt about

episode #16

Ok so when Kalan told me we were leaving alone I kind of freaked out coz' I'm not sure what will happen if it is really were the two of us along. Don't get me wrong he do get me hot and bothered and all that, its just that I'm not ready. I wanna get to know him, then date him for a few months or maybe years then finally get settled down... And maybe have a family coz if we do (hahaha day dream) I want them all to be boys that looks and acts like him but has my touch to them, not too rough just right.

I was bored doing nothing, just laying in bed with a lot of pillows in a frigging plain heading for I don't know where. Guys don't be mad at me but I really am not that good at seeing places or going places coz' everywhere I go, if I know a place I seem to be a target or kill people myself. Ja , it sucks to be me but his taking me anyway. The reason my I am in bed and not in my seat is coz' I hate the vibrations.

Into this whole journey I watched all 50 shades movies then my very best 365 days. All those movies do refer to s*x yes, but its more about how woman will fall in love with men like that. I can remember Margo telling me what her sons were like and to be honest, the apple doesn't fall far from the movie.

"You're in bed but not sleeping. Good coz' I wanna know how you feel about me" Kalan said walking into the room like he owns it, which he does.

"50 shade boy" I joked, or at least tried to... Coz' I got a look from him that nearly made me scared shitless

Key word 'nearly'

"Sorry it was just a joke..." now I'm feeling nerves because he just took off his t-shirt and joggers. 

"s**t, I really didn't mean it like that please..." I was pleading tp him while he got on the bed then stalked on his hands and need towards me.

I'm shaking scared I might be a bad b***h, but that's only when you mess with me for no good reason, with a very high tendency of lashing out at a point.

"Kalan please sto-" he covered my mouth

"Unless you trust me that much I don't think making jokes like that will be funny at this moment coz' I will take you, even by force, and no one will believe you if you told them." he whispered to me

I started to cry, I mean really never do that. But then you get me and my stupid antics. 

"Now I am going to sleep since you left me sitting there, alone." her said before removing his hand and laying down next to me on the bed.

I lied down too, too afraid of moving, I curled up and cuddled to my pillow for dear life, God I'm so stupid.

I lied like that for quite some time before my one ass cheek started to feel numb I checked the time to see how long we have been in the air. Good, I have two maybe more hours till we land so I took my suitcase out got my clothes and other things I needed then went to the bathroom. I locked the door then moved the chair to the handle to jamb it. After what happened I don't really want to be alone with him anymore... Over one stupid harmless joke then he flips out. I started the shower then stayed in it for a good hour till I heard the handle move, then it started getting violent and I froze. I didn't know what to do then it stopped and got quiet.

Bang, Bang, Bang! The door flew open revealing a monster. I moved to the corner of the shower and slid down when he stepped close to me while I was in the shower. I really have to get a grip on myself coz' if I don't he will take it the wrong way. And then you get stupid me that flinched away from him when he tried to reach out for me. He saw it then moved way from me then out the bathroom hitting a whole in the wall while walking out. I didn't mean to upset him really, I really didn't mean to. I covered my face with my hands then cried.

Soon my crying stopped and I got up and got out the shower drying myself then dressing me when a flight attendant walked in with a tray of fresh food and and some coffee. 

"thank you" I managed to whisper out

"Boss told me that we will be landing soon and he needs to use the shower" she said looking down. Hmm.. He must have done something other than punch the wall, probably yelled at her or something. But when I looked at her face I saw a hand print which made my blood boil for some reason. 

"Leave the food and come with me" I stated while grabbing her arm and storming to the front were he sat earlier

"Was this f*****g necessary? I shouted How the f**k do you call yourself a man if you hit woman like they are worthless to you, Why hit her when I'm the one who made you angry? What the f**k is your problem?" I questioned him not giving him the chance to speak I hold up my hand 

"If you ever lay a hand on her for doing nothing but trying to flirt with you-"

"Then she shouldn't f*****g touch me" He screamed "I'm yours no one else's. Only yours." he seethed, I didn't wanna laugh at him coz he really looked like a cartoon right now with smoke coming out of his ears. s**t I have to stop.

"That's cute when you say you are mine, just don't touch that doesn't have your name on it or that you DO NOT OWN" I said raising my voice at the end.

He just looked at me. he tried to get up and come close to me then I turned around to face the flight attendant looked down as if being command to do so.

"Leave us and bring me my food please" I tried to sound polite but it came more as an order. 

I took my seat lot looking at HIM. I calmed myself down good enough, when the Attendant came back with my food I thanked her then she left leaving us alone finally. I could see HIM trying to talked to me even his hand would twitch now and again. He was tense. I got up then left to got to the cockpit.(not sure how you spell it, ironic and disturbing). 

I knocked on the door and waited for someone to open up. The door opened and I walked in greeting everyone.

"When will the plain be ready again after we land?" I asked no one in particular

"The plain will be ready again in the next 2-3 days unless urgent it will be ready at noon today" The piolet answered

"Thank you" I said then walked out and took my seat again then I looked out the window to show him that I did not have time for his s**t at the moment. The voice over the intercom said we will be landing in New Orland's within 10 minutes and that we should put on put on our seat belts. Mine got stuck for some reason then I left it I lied back and closed my eyes gripping onto the arm rests, I felt something warm on my lap, I looked to see it was only Kalan putting on my seat belt while leaving very close to me. I turned my head to the side nearly brushing our lips together.

The plain started to shake a little when Kalan got back to his seat and buckled him in. I could feel the vibration of the plain again when it landed on the tarmac airstrip. Here goes nothing I thought as the plain came to a halt. I wish he doesn't hurt me when we are alone or try something funny. I preyed to God to keep us safe and to Keep a watchful eye over me so that I could be saved from him, when he is upset, I preyed that we would have a safe stay here coz' I don't know how long we will be here.