This is what I always dreamt about

episode #13

Its been a ruff week for everyone. I will take my meds, a therapist would come and see me but all I would let her do is observe me. That's it. I wouldn't talk to her or let her know how I was feeling. There were days that I would just cry myself to sleep, oh did I forget to mention that Kalan had to move me back to my room coz' I wouldn't sleep or let anyone near me.

For weeks I spent my days in bed and in the chair staring out the window not leaving my room at all coz' everyone that was at the party stayed because of me and I just want to be left alone. They even decided to keep it that way till I was ready to come out on my own. They would send up maids to bring me my meals and medication. Doc would come in ever so often to take my vitals, blood pressure and everything else. No one would make eye contact with me. I am not sure why though.

Enough about that s**t I ain't emo

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Its been nearly two moths that I was cramped in my room so today I decided to stretch my limbs that wont stop popping every time I would try an exercise in my room. I am fed up with this. Kyle and his brothers were not to enter my room along with my brother as well. 

Yesterday, Greg, Margo and Jax came to see me for an important matter. I found out that Jax is my real blood brother and he was taken from our real parents when he was 5 to pay off a debt. Then when he was old enough he told the parents we once had that I was born and I needed to be taken to, How stupid of him I don't even remember anything about the whole point of being taken away from my real parents. Anyway, they also told me that the people that took us used my brother to get into their family business because at the time, whoever his name is was a man w***e and whoever her name was couldn't get pregnant, so they would go around to families that struggled and couldn't provide a better future for their kids, they would get taken as well sick? I know right. And I mean I really got sick at a point that I couldn't eat for a whole day coz' that just kept on playing on my mind and what was worse was that if the families refused they would kill them and that's probably how they got my non blood brothers too.

Lucky for Jax our family was alive when they agreed for him but, me? it was tough coz' they murdered our family. Funny thing is, is that I am a girl and they only wanted boys but they saw something in me that would make the whole fake family thing more real I am not sure. I did blame Jax for my real, real parents death but he said it was the only way he could keep us alive coz my real, real mother couldn't get anymore boys. 

It was a war when they sort of went for another family that was part of a mafia stupid i***t couldn't keep their brains in check to see if this that family was into gang stuff or not. They explain practically everything to me. (I am in deep though here telling you all this while I got washed and dressed for the day, sorry) YOU DO GET THE POINT OF ALL THIS PLEASE TELL ME YOU DO IF NOT THEN I AM SORRY BUT I AM NOT IN THE MOOD TO PLAY ALL THAT OUT FOR YOU.

 It was hard at first but I slowly got over it with the help of my maids and yes they would sneak in Kade to be with me so today I decided to take him for a walk on the beach, that's if we are close enough.

I made my way out out of the room nearly bumping into my personal maid, the one who helps me with taking my meds and stuff.

"Oh sorry, I didn't know that you were going out, how are you feeling? Are you ready to face the world head on today?" she asked with the biggest and sweetest smile she gave me

Giggling a little I nod my head then continued to walk down the hallway but, very slowly with her following me.

"So where is everyone this morning?" I asked her she said that they were having breakfast and if I wanted to surprise them I should just walk right in greet and eat while everyone stared at me.

We laughed about it then I started to get nerves for some reason and she saw. She led me down stares to the breakfast room just outside the door but, a few feet away from it, then turned to me.

"Ok enough with the shaking, everyone misses you and want to see you but it was docs and Greg's order to keep you alone to process things on your own and when you were ready you would emerge from your room looking like an angel as always, that was their words. Mine on the other hand is for you to relax, they are still the people you know and came to love-" she gave me her little speech I blanked out on the love part.

I really do love these people and I hurt them so now is the time to make up for it specially with Kalan I miss him more for some reason so here goes nothing.

"Thank you for the talk" I thanked her then went to open the door.

When the door opened all the talking stopped when I stepped through them. The first person who came running to me was Margo, then the boys along with my brother and Greg was the last one to give me a big family warm and welcoming hug. It felt really nice.

"I'm sorry for keeping what I was going through away from you all I just didn't want to burden you all with my problems and make you feel more different around me, I cant... I don't have the words to explain it really" I said nervously

"Oh nonsense child, we are just happy to see that you are well and you will never be a burden to us, not ever and well..." she tried to say getting all teary eyed that's when Greg, my super hero came to the rescue when everyone broke away from the hug and calmed her down only to get a slap to the chest and went back to their seats making me giggle a little. 

And then my giggle got everyone's attention making me blush by accident and looked down. When I sat down everyone greeted, me included, I got my usual breakfast by Luca and thanked him.

As I was eating something caught my eye, and that was the empty chair right next to me at the head of the table. I stopped eating and Margo caught me.

"His in his office he refuse to eat breakfast with us without you so go and get your man" she stated making everyone laugh including me. I was about to get up and go to his office when I felt someone's breath on my cheek and neck I turned slowly to face who it was al low and behold it was Kalan looking sexy as hell, what I didn't expect was that he put his hand on the side of my face and gave me my very first kiss that turned into a make out session.

Some clapped hands, others cheered and some but, a very few shouted free porn. I was so funny that I had to pull away from him very fast and laugh my ass off and he did too. God, why did I have to be stupid and stay away from him for two months he must have been worried sick about me.

"Good morning, my love" he said once he calmed down with his hand still on the side of my face. I reached up and gave him a quick peck on the lips. That earned us aww from everyone specially Margo that squealed and she earned a groan from Greg making her glare at him.

"God I missed you so much" Kalan said once we took out seats "Please promise me that you wont do that again...To me, please" he said with worry and desperation in his voice. I took hold of his hand

"I promise you I wont and that will be the last thing I want to do to you or your family" I stated and gave him a sorry smile "Oh and sorry for kicking your future I didn't mean to lash out like that and it was the first time I actually drank" I said giggling at the end 

He smiled a cheeky smile at me and said "You have a cute giggle" making me blush. God what is he doing to me we haven't even gotten time to get to know each other right and her already gave me my first kiss which I wont mind doing again, by the way.

"Thank you" I said getting all girly, this s**t ain't me guys.

"Anyway, I know what you are thinking, lets get to know each other and since I know that you are trying to escape to go to the beach with you personal pet that you let the maids or guards sneak in, when we are done with breakfast, let me take you there. I want to spend two months to get to know you. You owe me that much." he said boldly 

I looked around every female nodded their head and the guys had smiles on their faces. I turned to face him

"Yes I would actually love that but how did you guess what I was thinking?" I asked sounding a little confused

"You sort of said it to yourself while you were staring at me" he said making me hid my face with my hands and he laughed I soon followed too with a giggle.

When breakfast was done we made our way to get Kade and got into the pick up truck with Kyle, Logan, Luca and Jax (the big brother that wouldn't miss anything for the world) with food for us to eat and I'm telling you we had about 5 baskets filled to the brink.