Black Heart

This story is the sequel to Black Rose I recommend reading that book first in order to have a complete understanding of the events and characters in this story. Brian's POV I cant stop thinking about her all day all night. I haven't slept since the night it happened. When I close my eyes her tear stained face haunts me. I hated that I hurt Ariel. I know I hurt her I could see it on her face when she looked at me standing in the hallway outside my room. I could see the heart break and betrayal in her beautiful doe eyes and in the fat tears that ran down her face. I can't believe I forgot her birthday. I'm such an a** for making plans and standing her up. She was so excited to spend time with me. She always makes me feel important and special and I made her feel insignificant on her special day. The truth is I forgot because I was so wrapped up in my own heart ache. I knew about Matt's plan to make her his girlfriend and I was terrified that she would choose him over me. Instead my selfishness pushed her right to him. She hasn't spoken one word to me in days, she won't even look at me. It breaks my heart. I wanted to fix this. No, I needed to fix this. Matt invited me over to their room to try and talk to her. I was nervous as I knocked in the door. Matt answered greting me with a man hug. " Shes in the bedroom" he told me. " Be Don't be a d**k! and please tex me when you leave so she's not alone" I nodded at him and he wished me luck leaving the room to give us privacy. I knocked in the bedroom door and heard her "come in" before I entered. She was sitting on the bed cross legged wearing my hoody that she stole from me and some short shorts. Her sexy legs on display. My heart fluttered at the site of her in my cloths. She really was beautiful she could be wearing a trash bag and I would still think so but in my cloths she was a whole nother level of beautiful. " Hey, can I sit down?" I asked her. She nodded and patted the bed next to me. " I'm sorry," I started. She just studied my face. I needed to touch her I took her hand in mine. I looked down at her hand in mine, my fingers touching the ring. " so he really did confess his feelings for you huh? You guys are really together now?" I asked her and she nodded. My whole world came crashing down, I was too late. I messed up and now the only woman I've ever loved was with someone else. I sucked in a breath. Well, I have nothing to loose now might as well tell her. " The truth is thats why I forgot our plans." I told her. She looked at me confused tilting her head to the side. " What do you mean?" she asked me. " Matt showed me the ring and told me what he wanted to do and it broke my heart. I wanted to be with you, I wanted you to choose me, be mine but I was too chicken to ask you first. I was hurting so I was stupid and I went to the hotel bar and got drunk trying forget the pain. I met that chick there and took her back to my room. I didn't even end up sleeping with her. I just knew you would say yes to Matt and I wanted to forget, to get lost for a minute. It was stupid and selfish and I have never regretted anything more. The truth is I love you Ariel and that scares the s**t out of me. In the short time I have known you, you have become one of my best friends. I've shared things with you not even Matt knows. You always matter to me, Your are always important to me and I'm sorry I ruined your birthday and made you feel like you didn't matter. I'm so sorry. I love you and I wish it wasn't too late for us." I was crying now. I haven't cried since I was.. actually no I've never cried. She sat up on her knees inching closer to me. She sat in my lap and wrapped her arms around me hugging me tight. I wrapped my arms around her pulling her close and buried my face in her neck breathing her in. We sat like that for a long time before she pulled away to lok at me. " I forgive you," she whispered. I pulled her back to me. " I love you," I whispered. She looked up at me and stroked my cheek. I closed my eyes over enjoying her touch. She's about to crush me I could feel it. " Brian I won't lie to you. I really thought we had something special. I consider you my best friend I have never shared so much of myself with anyone before you. Your amazing! The s*x we have is better than anything I've ever experienced with anyone else. But I am with Matt now and I think I actually love him. I spoke to Matt and he's still willing to share and explore a pollyamorous relationship with you to make me happy. But now knowing your feelings I don't know if that's such a good idea. I love you Brian but I'm not sure yet what that love means. Its not fair to you to wait around for me to figure it out. You deserve someone to love you as much as you love me. I don't want to loose you but all I can offer you right now is my friendship and incredible s*x from time to time." she held my face as tears rolled down her cheeks. I reached up and wiped them away with my thumb. I didn't want her to cry. I grabbed her chin and pressed my lips to hers. I kissed her slow putting everything I was feeling into the kiss. I moved my hand down her neck into her hair. My other hand pulling us closer. She kissed me back wrapping her arms around me. I pulled back and looked at her face. " I will never love another like I love you Ariel Jones. I will gladly take your friendship and s*x over not having you any day" I told her. She kissed me, moving to straddle my lap. Her hands pulled my shirt off her lips moving to my neck. I grabbed my sweater she was wearing and pulled it over her head lower my head to her naked breasts pulling her n****e between my lips. She threw her head back and moaned my name making my c**k press painfully against my jeans. She pushed hard on my chest putting me flat on my back she slid down my body removing my pants and freeing my erection. She took me into her mouth and I cursed loudly. "I need to be inside you," I told her. she pulled off the rest of her cloths quickly and sat up on my waist. I let my eyes scan her whole body above me, God I love this view. She smiled at me reaching to grasp my length lifting her hips she slammed down on me letting out a whimper of satisfaction. She whimpered and groaned dirty words to me.. I f***ing love her filthy mouth. My hands roamed every inch of her body and I watched her ride my c**k. I let her take what she needed. She threw her head back and I felt her clench around me. Her body shook and shivered as she climaxed. When her body calmed I flipped us over and pumped in and out of her. My strokes slow but hard my lips found hers. I felt her getting close again I pulled back watching her face as she reached her orgasm. The site bringing me to my own release. We lay there naked. She snuggled close to my chest as I held her. " Brian, I really don't want to loose you, Are we ok?" She asked. I looked down at her beautiful face. " Always kitten, you'll never loose me" I told her and I meant it. She didn't choose me and I don't know if she ever will but if friendship and occasional s*x is all she can give me I'll cherish every second for as long as I can. She fell asleep in my arms and I just held her. My best friend was a lucky man.