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JONATHAN pov 5

I thought the dinner would be awkward but everything went fine, infact better that fine. Lesede was sitting opposite me, even if she didn't spare me even a glance. She was quite, looking down her plate and only answered when spoken too. I still don't know if I love her or maybe am transferring the feelings I had for Lisa to her. I know I need to speak with Lesede and sort things out with her then end things with Lisa the right way. I know before I start any kind of relationship with anyone I need to put my feeling in order.

"Jon how are things at work, I heard you bought another land what are your plans for it. Are you going to do complex bulding, apartments or a hotel?" asked my grandpa. "I don't yet grandpa haven't had time yet to think of anything with what Lisa has done to me". "I tried to help you on your own boy". I was looking around the table and everyone was looking at me funny then it hits me, I mentioned my relationship with Lisa. s**t that was stupid of me especially since she didn't know what happened and I haven't spoken to her about anything. The dinner went down hill from there.

After dinner Lesede helped mom clean up and they went to the balcony to catchup. I went out for a smoke being nervous and about the talk am about to have with Lesede. It was getting late and Lesede came downstairs getting ready to go. Since it was late to go back to her apartment she was going to sleep at her parents house down the streets so we will have time to talk. She said her goodbyes and got her purse to live.

"I'll walk you home". She didn't say anything I guess my talk to her because she didn't even want to be around me.

We walked together in silence I didn't know where to start. "I'm sorry" was all I said but she was still looking down not saying anything. We were close to her house and I asked her for more time to talk and we sat on a pavement.

"I know I've hurt you and I'm really sorry". She looked me straight in the eyes " what are you sorry for? For the two slaps I got from you, the curses I got from you calling me a dried up virgin lesbian who's afraid to come out or for telling my secrets to everyone at the party and breaking our friendship". Tear were running down her cheeks and I saw the hurt in her eyes, she was shaking. "I guess the reasons you apologizing to me now is because you got hurt and finally found out you were being played. Yes I knew and tried to worn you but you saw me as jealous. What did you finally found them in your bed because I did while you were on a business trip and also at the party you curse me at in the bathroom. So I don't want anything with you anymore, I'm good and doing good by myself but I except your apology we good but we can never be friends again. I wish you all the good thing in life, let's keep things the way they have been these two year. Bye!" She gave me a kiss on a cheek and went in her house without even looking back. I felt my heart shattering in many pieces and I knew this was really the end of our friendship. I stood there for a long time before I turned and went back home.