Her lost baby

Chapter thirteen - He is no one

Nia's POV:

I am already in the seventh month of my pregnancy. I decided to focus on my baby. For now, she is growing healthy. I'm happy about it. I'm trying to take care of myself. My parents do it as well. Mom is always around me. She keeps telling me to eat healthy and to be careful of what I drink. I don't drink alcohol, so there is no problem for me. What she meant is drinks like soda. The baby might not like them. I don't drink these drinks often. From time to time, I might take one. It depends on my mood. I keep going to my classes. Thanks to the teacher, I deleted every memory of Kevin. The only thing that I left on my phone was one picture. This will be my reminder of what I used to have. Now, I feel much happier. Maybe this is what I needed. The baby will be a memory of him. Well, I won't count that. Now, she is mine. I can't wait to see her. This will be the most beautiful baby that you have ever seen. I will be glad if her personality is not like her dad's. It's enough that I had to deal with him. I don't want a mini version of him. Even if she is like him, I will still love her. No one can take her away from me. I will try to take care of her alone. My parents are doing enough things for me. I hope she will grow up happy.

I have a month and a half until I see my baby girl. I wish time could go faster. Well, I waited for so long. A little bit more time shouldn't be a problem. Now, I go to see my doctor every two weeks. She told me I had to do it since I was in the seventh month. At least the baby is growing up healthy. She has turned around a few times. I can feel her kicking. Her legs are so tiny. I want to hold her, but I can't. I will be patient.

Currently, I am in bed. My parents left for work. Mom wanted to work from home, but I didn't let her. I can take care of myself. Nothing will happen to me. I promised her. I know she is worried, but there is no reason for that. I will be fine. After some time, I decided to go for food. It's not like I didn't eat like an hour and a half ago. The baby is saying its word. I went to the kitchen and made myself a sandwich. This will be enough. I was washing the plate when the front door got open. It was my dad.

- Dad, I don't need someone to watch me.

- I'm not here for you. Have you seen a red box full of instruments?

- The one that you always keep in the garage? - I asked, and he went there

- No, I mean. Exactly this one. Thanks.

- No problem.

- I will go to the town. Do you want to come? You can't stay inside all day.

- Why not? I have nothing else to do.

- Go and get ready.

- Give me ten minutes.

- If you need something from your room, I will take it.

- Dad, I'm not that heavy. I can deal with this.

- If you say so.

Dad and I walked out. We went to a*****e for materials. He is a constructor. Sometimes, he is working for friends. This doesn't mean they don't pay him. Let's say that they get something like a ten percent discount. He got a few things. Dad wanted to go home to leave me, but I refused. I want to do something different. I will stay with him today. We went to the house of James. It's one of my dad's best friends. From time to time, they come home.

- Nia. You are so big. - Annie said

- Thanks.

- When will you give birth?

- After a month and a half.

- I can't wait to see her.

- Me too. She will be the most beautiful baby you have ever seen.

- I'm sure about this. Let's leave them to work and drink something. I want all the details.

- Sure.

- Can you drink coffee?

- No. Caffeine is not that good for the baby.

- Juice?

- Yes. Do you have an apple juice?

- That is the only one I have. - she said, and we laughed

- Perfect.

- Come with me. We'll go to the kitchen. We can have lunch together.

- That will be great.

Annie and I talked in the kitchen. Dad was working on the kid's room. Annie and James took their kids to a camp. They will use the time to renovate their rooms. Since James is helping my dad, he won't charge him much. The money for the materials will be taken from the family. After some time, the men came for lunch. I was so hungry. I don't know what is going on with me. I can't stop eating. It's not like I take much food, but it's more than enough.

- I see that you are hungry. - Annie said, chuckling

- I eat ten times a day.

- It's normal. Babies need a lot of food.

- Yes, but it's not healthy to eat that much.

- You will be fine. When the baby is born, you will see that it was all worth it.

- I hope so.

- How will you take care of it alone?

- I won't be alone. I will do the main things. Well, I know my parents will help me.

- You can be sure about this. - dad said

- Do you have a name? - James asked

- I was thinking about Lizzy.

- That's so pretty. Hopefully, she will be like you.

- This is what I want. If she has the same personality as her dad, it will be hard for me to deal with her.

- You will deal with her.

- She is the only thing I have from him. Well, one picture as well.

- I thought you deleted all of them in the class. - dad said

- Yes, but I kept one.

- Nia.

- Dad, I feel better now. You don't have to worry about me.

- You are over him. Right?

- Yes, I am. He is no one.

- Good. If he ever comes back, I will personally kick him out.

- Dad, please. Don't do that.

- Why not? He deserves it.

- Kevin only wanted to keep me safe.

- Is that what you call safe? He is a d**g dealer.

- So what? He didn't do anything to me.

- That was luck.

- Please. I don't want us to argue here. Can we talk at home?

- I still don't like him for what he did to you.

- Fine. I can't expect something else from you.

- What do you mean?

- That when someone makes a mistake, you can't forgive them. You think that people can't change.

- Because it's true.

- No, it's not. Hopefully, one day, you will understand it.

Nothing else was said. It hurts me when my dad talks like that about Kevin. I know he made a mistake, but at least he was honest. He ended things with me to keep me safe. To keep us safe. I'm sure he would've loved the baby if it wasn't for this job. I don't know why he chose it. Well, I know he will take care of himself.

The rest of the afternoon, I talked with Annie. She asked me some questions about the father of the baby. I told her everything. I wish my dad could look at things from my point of view. Kevin is not the bad guy. When he finished working, we went home. The whole ride was silent. I don't think he wants to talk to me.

- Hey, where have you been? - mom asked

- I went out with my dad to his work.

- You didn't do anything, right?

- No, I only talked with Annie.

- You were with Annie and James?

- Yes, why?

- Because I haven't seen them in a while. How are they?

- Good. She is excited for the kids' room.

- I'm sure about this. Is everything ok? Where is your dad?

- I'm here.

- Something has happened? I can see the tension between you two.

- Ask your daughter. She knows everything about people. - he said and left

- Honey, what happened?

- Dad and I had a little argument about Kevin.

- That again? For how long do you two will keep arguing about it?

- I don't know. Until he accepts that Kevin is not guilty.

- He is.

- No, he is not!

- You don't know anything.

- I was dating him, not you.

- So what? This doesn't mean you know him.

- Neither do you.

- Stop it! I don't want to hear anything. Both of you, in your rooms. Now! - mom shouted

- Fine. - I said and left

I walked into my room. I stayed there until my mom called us for dinner. None of us talked. I know my dad has a point. Well, I wish he could understand me. Kevin is history. I don't know why we still argue about him. I am happy without him. The baby is the only thing I have left of him. After dinner, I went to the backyard. I don't want to say in my room. There are many stars today. This means that it won't rain tomorrow. Soon, I felt a blanket on my shoulders. It was my dad.

- Did my mom send you here?

- No. I came alone.

- What do you want?

- Nothing.

- I don't want to talk about this again.

- No one said we would talk about it.

- Tell me what you want.

- To apologize. I'm sorry for what I said. Try to understand me.

- I do, but you have to do it, too.

- I know. I'm mad at him.

- But you don't know him the way I do. You can't judge him.

- He didn't have to do this to you.

- Kevin tried to end things before.

- What? Why didn't you tell me?

- Because I didn't let him do it. He tried to do this before, but I didn't want to be away from him.

- Were you pregnant?

- Maybe. Back then, I didn't know if I was.

- I see.

- He knew what he was doing. This is why he tried to break up with me. Kevin didn't want me to get involved in whatever he was doing.

- Let's change the topic.

- Good.

- How will you take care of the baby?

- With my two hands.

- You know what I mean.

- This is why my answer was like that. I will find a way to do it.

- Take care of yourself, ok? I don't want anything to happen to you.

- You will be with me. I don't have to worry about anything.

- I will never leave you. Trust me.

- Thanks, dad. I love you so much.

- It feels nice to hear it. I love you, too, kid. The baby, too.

Dad and I talked until midnight. He made plans for the baby. First, it needs to be born. Then, I will decide what I will do with it. Somehow, I will find a way to take care of her alone. Lizzy won't feel the need for a father. I will be both parents. It sounds easier than it is. This will take a lot of work. At least my parents are with me. Otherwise, I would've been lost. I might have been a babysitter, but this was for a few hours a day. Now, it's different. The baby is mine. I don't think about Kevin much, but he will always be a good memory. I hope that I will be able to take care of it alone.