Her lost baby

Chapter fourteen - She wants too much

Noah's POV:

Jasmine has been living with us for a while. Granny is not happy about it, but she is not saying anything. The only reason for this is because she cares about the baby. She is almost in the eighth month of her pregnancy. The baby should be born soon. I can't wait to see it. I want it to look like me. I was wondering how she got pregnant from me. Now, I don't care. All I want is for us to be happy. I will spend as much time with our girl as possible. Mostly, this will be on the weekends. During the other time, I have to work. Well, I will take some days off when the baby is born. Jasmine will need my help. It will be hard for her to get up. I mean, in the first few days. It's not like my mom won't do anything for her. These two are inseparable. I wonder why she is not that close to her mom. I wanted to talk with her parents for some time. The thing is that I didn't want to do it behind her back. We don't hide anything from each other. Maybe I can make her come with me, but I don't see it happening. Jasmine will never tell me why she and her parents don't understand each other well. This is not my business. It's better if I don't tell her anything about that. She has been calm, which is good. I hope that her parents will see the baby when it's born.

Jasmine started planning the room for the baby. For the first few months, she will sleep with us. I have already bought a bed. The only thing I need is time to put it together. Dad can help me with this. If he is busy, I will ask my grandpa. I'm sure he won't mind helping me. Mom and Jasmine have bought clothes. I think they are too much. After all, babies grow all the time. They change clothes more often than an adult. Also, they are not cheap. Well, they use our money.

I finished a meeting half an hour ago. It was about one of our projects. Dad was the leader. Since I have a baby coming, he has wanted to raise my salary. I will agree only if he does this for everyone else. I don't need special treatment. In the end, nothing happened. I might be the son of the boss. That doesn't mean I am better than the rest. This is far from the truth. I was checking my mail when someone walked in. It was Jasmine. I have told her to stay at home.

- Jasmine, what are you doing here? I told you to stay at home.

- But I can't be there all the time. Also, I wanted to see you.

- You see me every day. We live in the same place.

- So? You don't have much time for me.

- That is not true.

- If you love me, you have to show it.

- You are acting like this because of the pregnancy.

- No, I only want things from you.

- If you want something, say it now. I don't have much time.

- See?

- Do you want us to go for lunch together?

- I want to spend the rest of the day with you.

- What? You can't do that.

- Why not?

- Because I have to work. Go and do something else. I can give you money for shopping.

- You want to buy my happiness?

- I am busy. You can't come here wherever you want.

- Hey, I need you to sign this. Jasmine? What are you doing here? - dad asked

- Leaving. I see I'm not wanted here.

- Can we talk at home?

- No, thanks. I'm busy. - she said and left

- Did something happen?

- It's a long story.

- She will get over it. Once the baby is born, she will be occupied with it.

- This is not the only problem.

- Then?

- She wants something, but I don't.

- If you don't love her, why are you with her?

- I never said that.

- This is how it sounded to me.

- I love Jasmine.

- If you say so. Check this and sign it. I will wait for it on my desk.

- Sure.

On my lunch break, I tried to call Jasmine. She didn't pick up. I guess she is still mad at me. This started happening often. I don't know what to do to satisfy her. I know she is pregnant. This doesn't mean we can do this every day. Also, I don't want it. There are other things in life. Maybe I need to spend some time alone. This won't be bad for me.

After lunch, I went back to work. I sent Jasmine a text message. Hopefully, she will read it. I don't know how much we can last if we keep arguing like that. Maybe the baby will help us with our relations. It will make us get close.

- Knock, knock. You have more mail. - my assistant said

- I checked it in the morning.

- It came two minutes ago.

- Work never ends.

- I'm sorry.

- This is about a new building. They want to know if we want to move.

- What? Why would we do that? Please don't tell me they will destroy this building.

- I don't think so.

- What should we do?

- Nothing. I wonder why they sent this to me. Dad is the boss.

- They expect you to be the next one.

- There is a long time until that happens. Also, I don't know what will happen. I might end up giving up.

- Please, don't do it. I love working with you.

- Thanks. I will think about this.

- So about the building?

- We are not going anywhere. You can calm down.

- Thank you. I will leave you to work.

- Call me if there is new mail.

- Yes, sir. - she said and left

The rest of the day I spent working. Dad and I had another meeting. I asked him why I was receiving some mail. He gave people my email for some things. I don't mind, but I wish he had told me. Dad has a lot of work. I'm glad that he needs my help. When he was at my place, he helped my grandpa a lot. Since he retired, my dad took the boss's place. It was obvious. I'm not saying there is something wrong with that. Well, the other workers do their job, too.

After work, my dad and I went home. I walked to my room to check on Jasmine. She was on her phone. I can feel that she is still mad at me. I sat next to her and took her phone.

- Give it back.

- Don't you think we need to talk?

- I have nothing to tell you.

- I'm sorry if I have offended you.

- It won't be your first time.

- Hey, don't be mad at me.

- I'm not. I stop caring.

- No, you didn't.

- So what?

I didn't say anything and kissed her. She didn't pull away. I know what she wants, but I won't give it to her. Girls have needs, but boys do too. All I want is a good shower. I am tired, and I need a rest. After some time, I pulled away and went into the bathroom. When I came back, Jasmine wasn't in the room. She probably went for dinner. I was about to go out when she came back.

- I thought you went for dinner.

- I have you.

- Jasmine.

- I know. You are busy.

- No, I am tired.

- It's the same thing. You don't have time for me.

- Wasn't this enough for you?

- You don't know what is enough for me.

- Can we go for dinner? We can talk later.

- Sure. Maybe when the baby is born, you will stop ignoring me.

- If you want the baby to live well, I should work.

- I never said that you don't have to do it.

- It would've been better if you had a job before you got pregnant.

- Why? So we never have a baby?

- I didn't say that.

- This is how it sounded to me.

- Jasmine, let's not argue again.

- You started it. All I want is for my boyfriend to love me.

- I do love you.

- Then show it.

- Why? Because you don't trust me? You think that I don't love you.

- Yes, I do.

- Why do you appreciate only physical love?

- This is the only way for a man to prove he loves me.

- You are carrying my child. Isn't this enough?

- You will never understand. I'll go to eat. Come when you want. - she said and left

Great. I want to say it's her fault, but it's not. Maybe I need to spend more time with her. There must be something that both of us will enjoy. We can start going out when the baby is born. Until then, we should do something else. I don't want us to keep arguing.

I stayed in my room for some time. Later, I went for dinner. Granny looked at me but didn't say anything. I don't need her comments now. Around 10 pm, Jasmine went to sleep. I stayed outside. Some fresh air will be good for me. Hopefully, the baby won't look like her. I can't deal with that. It's enough that I have to deal with the mother. I was thinking about something when I felt a presence. It was my dad in his pajamas.

- Why aren't you in bed? I see you are ready. - I said, chuckling

- I was going there when I saw you sitting here alone. How are you?

- I have been worse.

- Problems in paradise?

- Where is the paradise?

- I guess you didn't satisfy her.

- She wants too much from me.

- Maybe you want too little from her. Jasmine is a girl. She expects some things from you.

- But I don't want to do this.

- Then why are you dating her?

- Not everything should be based on physical touch.

- For you. What about her?

- I am the only one working for this baby.

- Is this the problem? Your mom isn't working as well.

- That is because you let her be free.

- I think you need a rest from your personal life.

- What do you mean?

- I heard that some colleagues will go out this week. I'm sure they won't mind if you join them. It will be only for a few hours.

- Thanks, but I don't want to do it.

- You can't stay all the time at home. Go and have fun.

- If I do this, she will say I don't have time for her. Again.

- Do what makes you happy.

- How?

- Only you know.

- Great. It's like giving me a puzzle to solve with no instructions.

- I can't tell you how to live your life.

- The baby is the only thing I care about.

- Take care of it.

- I will.

Dad talked with me for a while. Later, he went to bed. I stayed outside for a little longer. Jasmine is right about some things, but not for everything. She can't expect me to do whatever she wants. I have other things to do. Sometimes, I feel like she doesn't want to understand me. I have priorities, and she, too. I'm sure we can understand each other. Well, she makes things more complicated. There is no need for that. I don't know if I am dating an adult or a teenage girl. I can't make the difference. Our baby girl is the only thing that left me. I hope that she won't use this against me.