opia [h.s au]

Chapter 31

Harry P.O.V.:

It doesn't matter how much I think about it, I just can't wrap my mind around the fact Billie actually wants to be with me.

I mean, besides of the physical thing. This is something I can totally understand, I know my way through the human body and adding to that there's the amazing chemistry between us, something that can't be fabricated, it's a skin to skin kind of thing.

What I can't figure out for the life in me, is how Billie can actually enjoy my company. Although I'm always doing everything in my power to be around her as much as I can, it still baffles me that she seems to want the same thing.

To be around me.

What could I possibly have, besides my appearance, to offer her?

Billie is such an amazing woman, independent, gorgeous, smart and funny. She has a body to die for, sexy curves that are soft to the touch, everything just naturally perfect.

She could get whatever guy she wants and somehow, she wants me. A damaged, broken, empty motherfucker who will never be able to give her everything she deserves.

And yet, I'm egotistical enough to let her stay. I really tried to be away from her, to spare her from all the suffering I know I will bring for her life. But I'm weak, and couldn't resist my desire for long.

That's just who I am. Anyone in their right mind would never want to be with me. To open up for me. I'm not worthy of love or care, cause I know I'll just take everything I can get and then leave the empty shell behind.

Even though I know I'm going to ruin Billie, sucking the life out of her beautiful soul till she have nothing left to give, I just can't help it.

I need her.

Crave for her.

The rain outside is turning to a f*****g storm, but inside of Billie's apartment feels like our personal cocoon. The scented candles, the dim, quivering light, the warmth of her smile when she breaks from the tender kiss she just gave me.

Feels like my own private paradise.

Billie takes a step back, but I'm quicker than her so I wrap one of my arms around her waist, pulling her body against mine, eager to taste her lips again.

Our mouths connect brutally and she makes a little whimpering noise that has all my blood running straight to my d**k, faster than I ever thought is possible.

I don't know how many time I have till Billie realizes she is too good for me, but I'll be damned if I won't make our time together the most pleasurable possible.

That's about the only thing I know how to do right, and if it depends on me, I'll give Billie a night she'll never forget.

I slip my tongue inside of her mouth, deepening the kiss and she welcomes me with a little sigh. My heart is racing fast, as fast as in the day I almost overdosed on coke, and my mind is spinning so f*****g fast I'm even a little dizzy, kinda light headed.

Billie wraps her arms around my neck and kisses me back with just as much intent. Groaning inside of her mouth, I wrap one of my hands on her long hair while pulling her body with the other, wanting to feel the entirety of her.

She swirls her tongue around mine one more time before lightly breaking from the kiss so she can suck my bottom lip between hers, biting it down with just enough force to make me groan, and f**k, I want her. I want to taste every single inch of her body, I want to memorise it and burn her form to my memory. 

Billie's hands cups my face and she kisses me even harder, panting a little when I grind my hips forwards and push her up against the wall, pinning her body with mine. I break from the kiss, attaching my lips to her jawline and leaving open mouthed kisses all the way down to her neck and collarbones, savoring her skin and the faint jasmine scent of her cologne.

"I wanted you for so long" I whisper to her ear, pulling her soft earlobe between my teeth and giving it a little squeeze "Your taste haven't left my mind."

Billie whimpers, squirming under my touch as I rub my chin on the thin skin of her neck, goosebumps spreading all over her body. Her hands wanders through my body, first on my shoulders then my chest, leaving a burning sensation everywhere she touches, till she slips her hands under my t-shirt, digging her nails to the skin of my back and the little sting of pain makes my c**k even harder.

Groaning, I pull her harder against the wall, squeezing the tender flesh of her waist with one hand and wrapping the other around her tiny neck. Billie whimpers, her mouth looking for mine again and I happily oblige, kissing her one more time.

Think I've never kissed someone with so much intent and need. I've been with more people that I can count, I've had it rough, vanilla, kinky, was even called daddy once, but nothing even compares to the way my stomach flutters when I'm kissing Billie, how much my heart races and, let's be honest here, how insanely hard she makes me.

As much as I have this rush to rip the clothes out of her body and f**k her senseless, at the same time I want to take things slow and savour every second I have with her, to taste every inch of her skin, to learn everything about her body. I explore her mouth with my tongue and love the way she kisses me back just as hungrily, the frantic way her mouth works contrasting with the delicate touch of her fingers on my back.

Billie breaks from the kiss and pulls her face just inches away, pinning her hazel eyes on mine. "Want you just as much" She whispers, a smirk playing on her lips before she leans forwards and bite my bottom lips a little roughly and I groan, smiling because I know for a fact she like things a little... Hard.

In a quick motion, I grab her bottom with both my hands, pulling her from the ground and Billie wraps her legs around my waist, panting loudly as I squeeze her flesh forcefully, hauling her up and against me while I bite her neck and she groans loudly, her hands traveling up and down my arms, as if she doesn't know where to rest them.

All I want is to take my time with her, to make her beg for me, scream my name. I want Billie to never forget about me, I want me to be the first person she thinks when she wakes up in the morning, and the last one before she goes to sleep.

I want to be all that she have in her mind, just like she is always on mine.

I don't know how to win her by her heart, her mind. She is just too much for me, she is older, more experienced and I dare to say, deeper than me. But there's one thing I'll be sure to guarantee: only I'm capable of making her c*m so hard she forgets her own name. I'm gonna make sure of it.

I grind my hips further, pressing my hard d**k to her core and Billie whimpers, biting down my lip again. She starts dry humping me, her hands firmly fisted around my hair and I swear to God these little pants she is doing are driving me crazy.

But I'm into it. So f*****g into it.

With my lips still attached to hers in a mess of kisses, licks and bites, I walk towards the bed, throwing Billie to the mattress where she lands with a little bounce, her eyes never leaving mine and I can't help the dirty smile playing on my lips when I kneel over her, feeling like I'm the predator and she is my sweet, innocent prey.

Grabbing the hem of her sweater, I pull it up her torso, tortuously slow and can't help but hiss under my breath as I watch her skin shivering under my touch. Billie lifts her body a little, just enough for me to take her sweater off and throw it away.

A thunder roars loudly outside, a flash of light clearing the room for a few seconds, the rain beating hard against the windows increasing the feeling of isolation from the rest of the world. It's like time has stopped and nothing else matters. It's just me and Billie.

I lean down to kiss her again and she closes her eyes, but on the last second I dart my lips away from hers, kitten licking her mouth instead and she smiles, sinking her teeth on her bottom lip.

"Kiss me" She whispers, releasing her bottom lip and wetting it with her pink tongue.

Once again I ghost my lips over hers, but I don't oblige, getting really close but not enough for actually touch her and she lets a little frustrated whimper falls from her lips at the same time I grind my hips against hers, pinning her on the soft mattress.

She looks at me with expectation and blown up pupils, and I know that she is loving this game just as much as I am.

Billie wraps her legs around my hips, trying to pull me down at the same time she cups my face with both her hands, lifting her head to smash her lips against mine and I oblige, giving myself completely to the kiss.

It's sloppy, messy, loud. Taking both her hands with mine, I pin them over Billie's head, breaking from the kiss to attach my lips to her neck. In the moment I let go of her hands, she tries to fist my hair again, but I won't take this right now.

I roughly grab her hands again, pinning them over her head and turn my glare to her eyes, hissing hoarsely. "Keep your hands there. Don't move."

Billie's pupils blown even more and she nods lightly, licking her own lips and smiling a really dirty grin. With my eyes still pinned to hers, I lean down, ghosting my hands over her shoulders and arms. She takes a deep breath when I grip the strips of her bra, pulling it down slowly.

At this point I don't know if I'm torturing Billie or myself.

Her tities jolts from the fabric of the bra and I kiss her lips again while gently lifting her body up so I can unclasp her bra and get rid of it once and for all. She lays on the bed again and watches while I ghost my hands over her boobs, her skin shivering and both her n*****s going impossibly hard almost instantly.

With just my fingertips, I caress her skin, purposefully avoiding the pink nubs, grabbing and squeezing her breasts lightly and Billie squirms, panting.

"Please, Harry." She begs under her breath. "Touch me"

"I am touching you, love" I raise my eyebrows with a cynical smile.

She rolls her eyes playfully, sucking her lips inside of her mouth and then closing her eyes shut. I ghost my lips over her mouth, then to her neck, collarbones and the milky skin between her breasts, sinking my blunt nails to the skin of her stomach and scratching all the way down her lower belly.

Her breath becomes shallower and she squirms on the bed, trying to clench her legs together and the thought of how wet she may be gets me moaning softly.

In a swift motion and without any warnings, I grab Billie's left breast, pulling her pink n****e between my thumb and index finger, while I cover her right n****e with my mouth, sucking the nub and lapping my tongue around it.

Billie moans loudly, grinding her hips up to find mine and I lower my body, pinning her on the mattress and rubbing my hard c**k over her dressed core, my mouth still attached to her t**s.

I give her other breast the same attention, rolling her n*****s between my fingers and Billie pants goes even harder. Seems like she has very sensitive boobs, and damn, I'm enjoying it just as much.

I spent a little more time playing around with her breasts, first one then the other, switching from gentle kisses to rough touches and squeezes and f**k, it's getting harder to keep up with this, I just want to f**k her already.

Billie fumbles her hands on the hem of my shirt and I lean over my knees, pulling the fabric out of my body. She looks at me with hungry eyes, her gaze traveling through my chest and stomach, shoulders, arms, lower belly. I watch as she darts her pink tongue over her lips and the view alone makes my d**k throb harder inside of my briefs in expectation.

As if reading my mind, Billie leans up on her knees and kisses me again, her hands wandering on my body and my skin seems to melt under her fingertips, the feeling of her touch almost too overwhelming for me to bear.

My breath is caught up in my chest when she reaches for the waistband of my jeans, fumbling her fingers to unbutton my pants. She breaks from the kiss, pinning her eyes on mine while she slowly pulls the zipper down, the smirk on her lips making she look even more gorgeous.

I smash my lips against her, sucking her tongue inside of my mouth and she pants loudly, slipping her fingers under the hem of my briefs. A shameless moan escapes from my lips when she wraps her fingers around my c**k and suddenly I forget how to breath, the throbbing sensation just too much to bare.

"f**k, you're so hard" Billie praises, kissing me harshly while her fingers touch the tip of my c**k, collecting the shameful amount of pre-c*m that has been pooling there ever since we kissed for the first time today.

"I'm gonna f**k you up so damn good" I groan while Billie attaches her lips to my neck, biting and licking my skin, leaving a wet trail of open mouthed kisses.

Suddenly she jolts from the bed, getting up and pulling me with her. I let her lead the way, standing in front of her. Billie sinks her teeth on her bottom lip, giving me a perverted smile before she drops to her knees, tucking my pants down along with my briefs.

I sigh in relief from getting rid of the cage of clothes over my d**k, but before I could even think in something to say, Billie takes me into her mouth, wrapping her perfect pink lips around my c**k and f**k, her mouth is so wet and warm a little whimper falls from my lips.

She rounds her tongue around my head, humming while she moves her head up and down, taking all of my length in one big swallow and it feels like heaven, f**k, I can't even think straight.

Her eyes are closed and she whimpers when she kind of gags with my c**k, and the feeling of my tip touching her throat is almost too much to bear. Billie continues her attack, lapping her tongue and sucking me into her mouth, creating some kind of friction that has me groaning uncontrollably.

Out of pure instinct, I fist a handful of her hair, but thankfully I come to my senses before I start guiding her head at the pace I want her mouth to f**k me. If she was any other girl who I've just met I wouldn't have a problem with that, but I don't want to scare Billie out... I know she likes it a little rough, but I don't know how experienced she is in getting her mouth f****d.

She does another lap of her tongue, her little hums making her mouth vibrate lightly, and I can't see straight. Closing my eyes shut, I warn her in a taunting hoarse voice. "Billie... Stop."

I feel her lips turning up as she smiles and when I open my eyes to look down at her, she is already staring me, her big, round eyes full of malice and desire. It's a f*****g perfect sight and she seems to be enjoying it as much as I am.

"I wanna f**k you" I groan, bending a little to touch her shoulders "If you continue I won't be able to..."

Billie blinks twice, giving me one last big slurp before she realises me from how mouth, a wet trail of saliva still connecting my head to her mouth. She stands up with a sheepish smile. "I've been wanting to do that for a long time" Billie smirks and my d**k literally moves, my heart racing inside of my rib cage.

"Such a filthy girl..." I comment, grabbing the back of her neck and pulling her head towards me so I can kiss her again. Her tongue tastes a little salty from my pre-c*m and tasting me on her is so f*****g erotic and somehow intimate that it's like something snaps inside of myself.

I need to taste her, now.

I break from the kiss, holding both her shoulders with my hands. "Take off your skirt and lay down on your bed" I hiss, sucking my bottom lip into my mouth with the expectation.

Billie widens her eyes a bit, probably surprised by my sudden demanding tone, but she obliges, taking out her skirt but leaving her underwear, her cheeks suddenly turning a little red and f**k, she looks adorable.

"Lay down." I command again and she lays on her back, her eyes never leaving mine.

I look down to my d**k, wrapping my hand around it and fisting it up and down a few times. Billie's eyes goes wider and she bites down her bottom lip when her glare follows mine. "See what you do to me?" I ask her, kneeling on the bed and crawling over her.

I peck her lips once before darting my lips to her neck, biting and sucking into her thin skin, not caring if I leave a mark on my way down. She feels so good, so soft, it's like she is a f*****g porcelain doll, I almost can't believe in my luck for having a chance with her.

Spreading her legs with my knees, I continue my way down on her body till I reach her core, still covered with the lacy material of her panties. Billie squirms under my touch when I take one of her legs up, leaving open mouthed kisses on the back of her thigh. I do the same with the other leg, just ghosting my lips over her heat while I change from one leg to the other and Billie whimpers, almost crying out.

I lay on my stomach, positioning myself between Billie's tights and can't help the little smirk that plays on my mouth as I notice she holding her breath over what I'm about to do next. Brushing my fingers over her core, I tug them on the side of her panties, pulling it and exposing her completely for me.

Fuck, she is beautiful.

It's a masterpiece, she looks so soft to the touch and damn, Billie is so f*****g excited I can see the arousal pooling at her entrance. My mouth water with the view and although I was planning to tease her a little more, I just can't resist.

Billie is sweet to the taste, and the moans and desperate cries that falls from her lips while I lap my tongue around her throbbing knot of nerves makes me go even harder, which I thought it was impossible.

Suddenly it's like the someone pressed "mute" on the entire world. I can't hear anything but my own heart beats in my ear as I attack her core with my tongue, lapping it around with intrinsec patterns of movements, first slow, then going faster and faster. Billie raises her hips a bit, circling her core on my face and f**k, if I was in the death corridor I would only want this for my last meal.

I tease one of my fingers on her entrance and she moans loudly as I inch forwards, feeling her walls clenching around my digit, so f*****g tight I can't barely breathe thinking about how she will feel wrapped around my c**k.

"Har-- oh, f**k" Billie stutters in a high pitched voice, squirming under my touch as her legs suddenly stiffs and her lower belly starts to shake. f**k, I want to much to throw her over the edge and make her c*m in my mouth, but that's not what I'm planning for today.

Forcing myself to stop, I stand up, breaking contact with her entirely and Billie whimpers in frustration, looking at me with knitted eyebrows. However her scowl don't lasts longer than a second as she lay downs her eyes to my d**k and bites down her lips and my stomach backflips with the amount of desire in her gaze.

I roll the condom down my length, which is so rock hard I don't even need to hold it still and kneel on the bed again, crawling to hover over Billie, her eyes never leaving mine. I lay down and kiss her, slowly and with no rush, a complete contradiction for how excited I am.

But I don't want her to think that's just another f**k for me. I know I'm terrible with words, and I know my behavior can be frustrating most of the times. Sometimes I can't be completely honest with her, bloody hell most of the time I'm not honest even with myself. But I want to show her with my actions how much she means to me. I need her to know she is so much more than a p***y for me.

Billie kisses me back, cupping my face with both her hands and the way her thumbs caresses my cheek is almost too endearing, I feel like I'm melting to her kiss.

What the f**k this woman does to me? I can't understand this feeling, is so f*****g intense, I almost can't recognize myself.

However, I'm tired of fighting against it, I'm tired of trying to convince myself I'm just being sappy and unreasonable. I don't know what Billie truly means to me, but I know she is too damn important to be treated like she is just another girl for me.

Breaking from the kiss I hover my face just a little bit from hers, pinning my gaze on her eyes. I thought I would never have this opportunity again, to see Billie under me like that, so ready, so needy.

She needs me.

This is f*****g insane.

Placing the tip of my c**k to her entrance, I inch forward slowly, pecking her lips once again but it's impossible to concentrate on kissing her, so I just stay over her, my lips opened while I pant in sync with her. The moment I fill her completely, my skin shivers from head to toe and I feel the little hairs of my neck standing up.

I've been with men, I've been with women, I've been with supermodels, had s*x under the influence of a shameful amount and variety of drugs, but nothing could ever compare to this chilling feel that takes me over when my core connects to Billie's

It's like a connection from another life, f**k, she feels like a paradise.

"Oh my-" She moans, her walls adjusting around me to welcome my length "Harry, oh... fuck."

"You feel so f*****g perfect" I sigh, not capable of holding myself back "s**t, it never felt so good."

She nods, panting and pulling my head back to her, smashing our lips together on a frantic kiss. I slowly start to increase the pace of my movement, thrusting in and out of her with my mouth slack open, completely unable to prevent the groans that falls from my lips.

"This is... So g-good" Billie whispers in between her moans, wrapping her legs around my hips and pulling me down so I'm completely buried inside of her.

"s**t, I could f**k you all day" I close my eyes for a second, just savoring the feeling of Billie wrapped around me, my erection throbbing inside of her, taking a deep breath before I take ahold of myself, my mind clearing just enough for me to regain control over my movements.

"Oh my... f**k" Billie groans when I catch up a rapid pace, going in and out of her firmly, feeling every inch of her perfect cunt. I can feel the excitement building up inside of my quickly, the need to f**k her senseless, my most primal instincts kicking in.

Last time we had s*x I hold myself as much as I could, trying not to be so rough with her. I didn't and still don't know if she is into something more... Violent. I know she likes it hard, but I have no idea how much hard I can go with her.

Well, there's only one way to discover.

Wrapping my arms around her waist, I hover her up with me, changing our position so I'm sitting in the bed and she is in my lap, but I don't let her take control. Holding her butt and burying my nails on her flesh, I thrust further, quick and hard, till all the sound that comes from her mouth are nonsensical words and whimpers.

Billie holds on my shoulders for dear life as I f**k into her senseless, her eyes pinned on mine and she is so f*****g wet I can feel her arousal pooling all over my legs. Still holding her, I move her body a little, trying to find the sweet spot inside of her, completely aware that I won't last long now, all of this being too f*****g overwhelming for me

I don't know if that's because we've been dragging it for a little while, don't know if the expectation I was dwelling in somehow made this feel even better, but I swear to God s*x never felt so good before, even in my first time with Billie.

"f**k!" She screams out of the sudden and I can't hold a smirk.

Found it.

Increasing the pace of the thrusts, I hold Billie still, pulling her body down on my c**k as I f**k into her to the point she has her eyes rolling, her mouth slack open and little strangled screams falling from her lips.

"Har... f**k, I'm... Don't stop!" She begs, sinking her nails on the skin of my back and I love how it stings "I'm so clo-".

"Gonna c*m for me, sweet girl?" I ask, failing on keeping my voice steady, I'm panting just as much as her "Gonna c*m all over my c**k?"

My dirty mouth seems to put the last nail on her coffin and she lets go completely, her back arching in my arms while her entire body trembles frenetically. Her walls tighten up around me and the feeling, added to the sight of Billie cuming in front of me are enough to kick me out of the edge as well, the tight knot that was sitting in the end of my spine letting go completely.

"f**k! f**k, f**k, fu-" I half moan, half scream, while I unload myself completely on the condom, still inside of Billie. Her pants matches mine and her entire body is grizzling with sweat. 

We both stay still for a few minutes, just trying to keep up with our breaths and return to a state of normalcy. Billie's arms are quivering a little around my neck and she has the most sweet and beautiful smile on her lips, her eyes still closed shut.

I peck her lips with mine, giving a long, savoring kiss while I hover her body up so I can get out of her. Even though I just came and practically emptied myself inside of her, the moment I'm out of her I'm already missing her.

"That was... So f*****g good" She giggles "My legs are shaking, I don't think I'll be able to stand." 

"I got you, babe" The words falls from my lips without any warning and I'm surprised of how the pet name sounds natural and comfortable in my tongue.

Still holding to Billie's body, I sit up from the bed, turning to carefully place her back on the mattress and she giggles again, her eyes wandering up and down my body. She bites her bottom lip when we make eye contact again and she sighs, giving me a coy smile while pulling the comforter around her body and I swear to God, she never looked so beautiful.

For the first time in a while, I wish I could be different. I wish I could be better, wish I could be really worthy of it. I want to continue being the reason of her smile.