Heart desired

//chapter 5//

If I was the girl I was before, I would have jumped in delight. Woah! My idol! He is finally here!

But now, hearing it, I felt so many emotions stir inside me. First, he is the boyfriend of Cecelia. The person who knew the most. If to recognize anything amiss, he'll be quicker than Andrea.

Second, I had been crushing on him for so long that even seeing him up close felt dreamy and impossible. So, I have to be careful to not to do anything overboard.

Third, he is the person I will have to kill in order to live. I, the person who wrote several stories using my pen as a weapon now have to change the tactics. Which means I have to know every weakness of him to strike at the right time.

As walking through the doors of the storage room, I clutched my heart. Just how heartless am I becoming?

Andrea nudged at me. "At least smile. You used to smile like a clown whenever you got to see him. Now you look like you are attending to a funeral."

I pondered. "What should I do? Put on a fake smile? Like this?" I showed her my fake smile and she gasped.

"What the heck was that? Did your jaws snap? Quit it! You are giving me an eye disease. Just, think of something funny, you idiot."

Something funny... hmm...

I suddenly remembered my assistant, Daniel. He must be so angry now because I couldn't finish Crystal Core. Thinking of that, a smile came to my lips.

Andrea gave a thumbs up. With that smile, I had the perfect face of a girlfriend.

I entered the dining room again. But this time, the spotlight was taken by someone. I stopped short.

Luke Silverstone was standing infront of me, smiling like a king.

His eyes was shining like stars. Up close, his perfect jaw and nose looked more sharper than ever. His lips had turned up to a smile, making his posture more elegant. He wore black ripped pants and a white shirt. He wore a dark blue jacket halfway zipped and a silver chain dangled from his neck carelessly.

In simple words, breathtaking.

But that wasn't what stopped me. It was the look ge was giving me. Or Cecelia.

It wasn't something filled with adoration or love at all. It was a way that a superior would look at a mere servant.

Even it wasn't directed at me at all, under his gaze, it hurt. Clenching my fists, I finally managed to make eye contact with him with a smile.

And almost fainted.

Memories crashed into my head. Luke holding Cecelia, he taking her to a mall, him kissing her, him holding her while she cry. Jealousy build up in my heart and I quickly showed it down, regaining my composure.

"Hey, Luke." I said.

Something flickered inside his eyes, but it quickly vanished. "Hey there, beauty."

"Psh." Andrea rolled her eyes beside me. I almost cracked up, but held it back in.

Luke glared at her, looking annoyed. Then he smiled at me, and indicated his hand. "Up for a walk? To the usual place?"

"Sure. Just a sec." I turned to Andrea. "Please do my dish too." I pointed at the table where our unfinished dishes stayed. Luke let out a laugh, looking at the direction I pointed and I quickly whispered to Andrea. "Spy on us. I'm uncomfortable."

She nodded and went off, taking our plates with her. I went took a glass from the water fountain and drank some water before I finally gave my hand to Luke. He looked irritated, but then again, quickly hid his expression.

I let him lead the way, mainly because I had no idea where we are going. I didn't dare ask any questions that would rise any suspicions.

Walking hand by hand with my idol like this felt like a dream, but after all, this wasn't what I expected at all. I was thinking about collecting a good amount of money before attending to his consert. Never I imagined that I'd be an imposter pretending to be his girlfriend.  A sigh escaped my lips and Luke turned to me.

"What is wrong with you today?" He asked.

A normal boyfriend would be concerned about every change his girlfriend, but this was not it. He sounded like he was hella annoyed by my actions.

"Nothing." I replied. "Why did you ask?"

"You are not talkative today, which is a good thing for my ears. And you are not obeying the rules today too."

Rules? Just what kind of boy control his girlfriend by using rules? I didn't even cheat for the God's sake!

"Which rule?" I asked, pretending to wonder.

"Can't you remember? When we meet, you have to stay silent till I adress you. You broke it. And when I indicate my hand to you, you must take it right away, and you broke it too. And when I am present, you can't speak with anyone unless I give you permission, and you broke that too."

I gazed at him, completely dumbfounded. What the f**k? Who does he think he is? Did Cecelia really allowed this?

I lowered my gaze, no longer being able to look at him. He was completely different from the person I imagined. It wouldn't be a sin to kill this unearthly man.

"Oh. I was just too excited to see you." I said.

"Are you really?" He asked and I slightly nodded. "Then why aren't you dressed up like I told you to? Why haven't you done anything big to celebrate our anniversary? I told you. I am a celebrity now. So I need you to do something big as my future wife."

Just what the f**k is wrong with this man? Is he the reason Cecelia was like that?

"I had a lot in my mind because of the accident. I am sorry." No I am not. I thought secretly.

"Alright. We are here." Luke said, and I looked up.

We were at a small bench behind the orphanage. We sat down, and I kept my distance a little.

"You remember that day, right?" Luke asked. "You promised me to do as I say or you know the consequences. Just don't make me a bad person." He glared at me.

"Otherwise your little secret will be all over the world."

I honestly didn't know what to say.

But I was suddenly sure of one thing.

Cecelia really did ask for the best of her life.