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“I’m not pissed at you, but I do want them back”
He nods sitting forward
“Right now?”
“I think that would be best yeah”
He nods, taking my hand, black mist rises from the floor, and his power washes through me. I close my eyes, feeling it as he enters my head. It was like a library, full of stories and adventures, full of sadness and happiness. All my lives, and those who have passed on recorded and safely tucked away in my brain.
As usual, dad makes a mess, going through each book and dumping them on the ground. I growl as karma comes forward
“What is he doing, look at this mess”
“He’s giving us back our memories”
She stops what she’s doing
“So they are real?”
I nod my head, lifting a book and putting it back on the shelf.
“What a prick! All this time I've defended that bastard only to find out he deserves it all! Motherfucker needs a good kicking!”
She growls, stomping around and placing the books back on the shelves,
“I know, I’m pissed too”
Just then dad stops, pulling a huge book out and he looks at us
“When I open this it’s all going to come back, it might sting a little”
I nod, taking karma's hand, she smiles at me squeezing it. I and my wolf had a very up-and-down relationship but I still wouldn’t change her for the world.
Dad opens the book and from it shoots a beam of light, blinding us all, the walls around us crumble and suddenly I’m hit with every painful memory, taking my breath away as I fall to my knees.
Every single time someone touched him, I felt it. Every time they hugged him it broke my heart, I only thought I felt betrayed before, I only thought I felt hurt and worthless to him but now I know I always was.
Every single time we laughed together it hurt, every time anyone touched him he would cry for forgiveness, and he would beg me. And it worked right up until the last time.
That time wasn’t a hug, that time was more than that. He chose so many girls over me so many times I couldn’t keep up, he was honest right up to the last time, that’s what broke me, and that’s what made me not want to keep on going. I could hang on to hope when he was being honest but when he wasn’t I couldn’t.
As my eyes open mum and dad are both standing there, holding their ears as I scream, the pain in my chest so overwhelming I can’t take a breath, mum tries to heal me but I reject it. I didn’t want to feel better, not this time. I wanted to remember it all so I know just how little he cared. Instead, I shut my mouth and get up, walking past them both
“Where are you going?”
“To get drunk”
“Are you sure that’s a good idea right now?”
I look at mum, I know she means well but I just couldn’t right now.
“It never is but I do it anyway. I need time to process. I’ll see you guys later”
I lift my keys and head outside in a daze, my phone starts to ring again, it had been going nonstop since I woke up. I pull it out and glare at the screen, Branson was calling so I hang up, and then his messages pop up.
‘What was that?’
‘Are you ok?’
‘Seriously I know you hate me! Just tell me if you're ok
I growl typing up a message
‘Got my memories back, lose my damn number. Goodbye!’
I press send, wait for it to go through then turn my phone off, I pull out a smoke and light it up, climbing into the car and starting up the engine. Tonight was going to be a long-a*s night.
I drive straight to the bar, jumping out and heading inside, the place was busy and I was not in the damn mood to look at anyone. I grab a box and walk around the back of the bar, stepping up and I start filling the box with poitín.
“Ehh who are you and what the f**k do you think your doing”
I look at the dumb b***h who’s standing in my f*****g bar being a b***h to me.
“Excuse me”
“She’s not worth it, get the booze and let’s go”
Karma snaps, she was looking forward to forgetting everything too. I go back to filling the box then the b***h growls
“What the hell are you doing? You can’t come in here like you own the place and start taking drinks! Get the f**k out now”
I open a jar and take a drink, and then I smirk at her. She wants to be a b***h, I’ll show her what a true b***h is like.
“Put that down and get the f**k out!”
By now the other customers were looking at her like she was crazy, some were even trying to silence her
“What! It’s not allowed! I don’t give a crap who she is”
“Is that so, what’s your name?”
I ask taking another mouthful before putting it down and going back to filling my box
“Doesn’t f*****g matter! You're barred so you won’t need it”
“Ohh I’ll need it alright”
I say smirking
She steps forward grabs the box and tries to take it away from me, I growl as joe turns the corner, his eyes widen in slow motion as I watch as her hand slowly comes down and grabs my shirt.
“Noooo she didn’t”
Karma flies forward to watch my reaction
“Joe when I told you I extended your budget so you could get extra bar staff and you said you were going to get pretty ones because they sell more alcohol, did I not explicitly say that I don’t care what they look like as long as they ain’t dumb? did you think I was joking?”
Her eyes widen and she freezes
“You have less than half a second to get your hand off me and get your a*s out of this bar before I decapitate you or worse I’ll tell dad and sit back and enjoy the show”
All the colour leaves her face, her eyes roll in her head and she drops like a bag of potatoes
“Damn she fell hard”
One of the customers says as they lean over the bar, casually taking a drink.
“s**t she was on a trial run”
He goes to lift her then groans
“You know what, I’ll give someone a free jar if they will come to lift her and place her outside somewhere where the princess won’t find her and stab her”
I flip him the bird then take another drink and watch as 2 nerds start wrestling for the honour of throwing her out.
“Just be careful it’s not near one of the wolves, they will eat her”
“Yeah it happened not that long ago, the dude was drunk and passed out and he woke up dead”
I say casually, joe looks at me
“Oh really, he woke up dead? Did he wake up dead or do you want to take that statement back”
I roll my eyes at him
“Where is benny? I and you are going away”
“Where to?”
“Bar business”
He looks at me, then he looks at the pile of jars in my box then back at me. I grin at him innocently
“Come on I’ll give you that raise”
“You realise you're paying him to drink with us”
“Shush you, we need a driver and Joe is funny”
I tell karma as he rolls his eyes and leans against the door
“Benny get out here I have to leave with the princess”
I grin adding a few more jars to my box then I push them over to joe
“Bring that with ya and your driving”
“If I’m driving we are taking your car”
I nod, jumping over the bar
“Cool, now lets Toodle we are late”
I demand walking out to the car, as I do I see the girl passed out on the smoking chair, a few wolves scroll by but just as I go to whistle
“Don’t do it, I know she’s stupid but she doesn’t deserve to be eaten alive for it”
“We have 2 completely different approaches to punishment it’s quite frankly ridiculous”
“Yeah because I’m not a homicidal maniac”
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