My Ugly Mate

It’s said that a Lyceon is a rare wolf, along with the Primordial. It has only been documented that two have ever been born. It is unheard to know a wolf who is Lyceon descendent, because despite being mated to Alphas, most Lyceon were killed when their mates died due to greed and power. The second known was dated back in 1945, and no one has heard of her ever creating an offspring. Realizing that the Primordial is safe and sound, the Moon Goddess decides to try the Lyceon bloodline again. Knowing that Alpha'd eventually kill their Lyceon mate, the Mood Goddess decided to allow a Beta to protect the Lyceon, whose power is what he needs to protect his Luna and Alpha in a deadly battle many years from now. To make sure the Beta’s intentions are pure, the Lyceon child will already be born with powers, but will only come into full terms with them, when they are accepted and mated to one of a pure heart. Disguised as a semi-attractive female, Kendra Lowe is born. Kendra *five years earlier* Panting, I ran into my house and slammed the door. Bolting all the locks and closing the blinds. I couldn’t believe that I was being chased by the guards of another pack. I didn’t know the Alpha and I for damn sure knew that he wasn’t my mate, so I couldn’t understand why he wanted me so badly. I started moving furniture in front of the door and sent a mindlink to the guards and let them know that I was being chased. A few minutes later, I heard a commotion outside my house and then a few exchanges of words. Not maybe a few minutes later, there was a knock at the door. I hesitated to open the door, until I received a mindlink from my Alpha to open the door. Slowly, I unlocked my door and cracked it open. My Alpha Trevor and his Beta Keyon Black were standing at the door, waiting for me to open up all the way. “Are they gone?” I asked, waiting for an answer. “Yes, now please let us in.” Alpha replied, so I opened the door all the way. They walked into the house and I was instantly drawn to Keyon. He’s so sexy and big. Almost all the male wolves in this pack are big men. They fight just as hard as they eat hell, and so do I. I’m a fat, medium-sized woman who stands 5’6. My Alpha and Beta are a few inches above me, not to the point where they are staggering above me. My brown colored skin is lighter than theirs, but they are darker. I love my pack because of how different we are. Most packs are skinny and muscular with a non-black leader. Even though we do exist, it’s unheard of to see a pack of black wolves. We are a rare bunch, but just as deadly. Our pack is small, like maybe 200 altogether, yet we’re a mixed pack. That has never stopped us from defending ourselves against attacks and going on rescue missions. Our Luna, Latvia Smalls, is the Alpha’s first mate, who was actually a rogue. They have been mated for a good 7 years with 4 pups already. Beta Keyon and Alpha Trevor are best friends since they met in middle school, so it’s only fitting that Keyon is his right hand man. Then there's Gamma Zoronan (like Zoro from One Piece), who is also their best friend since middle school. Gamma Zoro does have a mate, Zyaire, who has 2 pups by him, so that only left Keyon to find his, and I think he’s mine. The problem with Keyon is, he’s attracted to pretty girls, the type of female everyone gawks over and wants. So, if I am his mate, I pray the bond is enough for him to look past the fact that guys don’t stand in line to court me. With Keyon standing in front of me, it’s hard not to look at him and not want him. “What happened?” Alpha Trevor asked. “I was walking back to my house through the woods, coming from the lake, when three guards appeared out of nowhere and told me their alpha wanted to see me. They’ve been here before and I said no.” Alpha Trevor stops me, “what do you mean before?” I look at him and Beta Keyon, “this is their 4th attempt to get me… and I have no idea why.” I admitted. Each time they approached me, it was outside the pack. This is the first time they followed me onto the land. My house is literally on the border of pack boundaries. “This is the first time they followed me onto the grounds.” I added. Keyon and Trevor started conversing among themselves. “You said there were three, we only captured 2, where’s the other one?” Keyon asked. “I might have, somehow, projected him across the woods.” I said slowly. I have no idea what happened. When I turned to leave, one of the guards grabbed me and all I remember was wishing he would get off me. Next thing I knew, he went flying across the sky, maybe 4 football fields away from me. That’s when the other two started to chase me. I guess I’m faster than them, but they still caught up. “Run that by me again?” Alpha Trevor said, looking at me perplexed. “I… might… have… sorta… maybe… flung… him… across… the… woods.” I said even slower. I’m still having a hard time wrapping my head around it. “Kendra, do you have your wolf?” Keyon asked. I shook my head, “not for another…” I looked at my watch, “seven hours.” I replied. Tomorrow is my 18th birthday and I can’t wait. I went to the lake to rent out a house for me to celebrate. I’m by myself and I asked the Alpha if I could live by myself. He let me choose which house I wanted, and, of course, I picked this one. I do have friends but I tend to stay to myself. “If that’s true, how did you throw him?” Alpha Trevor asked. I shrugged. “I don’t know.” I replied. I have been having unexplainable things happen to me for the past year. Astral projection, starting small fires (complete accident). One time I put up a shield when I was being attacked by rogues. I tried to mimic the fear, but nothing. I tried summoning the powers by myself at home. Nothing. I think my body has to detect danger to react, which is what happened today. “Go find the other guard and bring him here.” Alpha informed Keyon. “As for you, a guard will be stationed outside your house for the time being.” He says, looking at me. “No thank you” I automatically replied, which received a loud growl. “You dare defy me?” he yells. “No Alpha.” I submitted my neck, “but you did give me free will, and clearly I can take care of myself. Had they not followed me in the pack, you would never have known.” I added. He told me that even though I’m a part of his pack, he will not bother me. Having a guard posted will be bothering me. “Seeing how you were attacked before today, you will have a guard. Understood?” he asked. All I could say was yes, Alpha. Beta Keyon left, but Alpha Trevor stayed behind. When we thought he was out of earshot, I turned to Alpha Trevor, “you promised.” I reminded him. “I know, but now that you’re being attacked, you must be protected.” And with that, he walked out the house. Beta Keyon Kendra is iight looking, but she’s not my type. I want a bad mate, one who every woman and man will envy. Kendra is ugly to me, but I know a few warriors who would love for her to be their mate. They can have that, she ain’t bad enough for me. Our Alpha and Gamma, who’s also my best friend, are at her house after she mindlinked the guards that she was being attacked and followed. What I can’t wrap my head around is, if she didn’t have her wolf, how was she able to mindlink us? She is beyond weird and I don’t need weird in my life. Trevor sent me to find this other guard, as I was about a mile from her house, I heard her say something to Trevor about promising something and him responding because she was attacked, she must now have a guard. What the hell was that about? Why is he treating her like that? There was something he wasn’t telling me. I’ll find out later as I continue to search the area. While roaming around, I thought about when I was going to find my mate and then wondered if Kendra was my mate. I pray to the Moon Goddess that she doesn’t pair me with her. She has nothing to offer, no beauty or brawl skills. I don’t even believe her story about her blasting the guard. As we neared the lake, I got a mindlink from one of the guards that the scent had disappeared in the lake. Well damn, so much for that guard. I looked around and saw blood tracks leading from the lake to a different direction. We decided to follow it and it led us back towards the pack. When we got to the mountain side, we looked up to see a big dent on the side of it, the center of it covered in blood, then the blood trail rolled off the side of the mountain and started making its way towards the lake. Did Kendra do that? If so, how the hell did she get him up there? There’s no way she did that without her wolf. I’m just as shocked as everyone else. “Let's head back.” I instructed. We retreated and I headed up to Trevor’s office. When I approached, I knocked on the door and waited to be allowed in. After a few seconds, Latvia answered the door. “Come in big head.” she says, walking back towards her desk. “Whatchu find?” Trevor automatically asked me. “If he was injured, he lost a lot of blood, especially from where he was “thrown.” I said. Trevor looked up at me confused, “what do you mean?” I looked at Latvia, “it’s okay.” Trevor said. I sighed, “it looked as if he got thrown onto the side of the mountain pretty hard, because there’s blood coming from the impact to the lake.” At this point, both of them were looking at me crazy. “How high up?” I went to the white board and drew a picture of what we witnessed. When they saw the height, both of them looked at each other. “You’re joking?” Trevor asked. “Ask anyone who was with me.” I said, taking a seat. I look over at them and both of them are mindlinking, probably each other. What are they talking about, that can't be said out loud. I waited for them to get done. When they came to, Trevor said, “I’ll go and talk to the other guards. Thank you for helping.” I moved my hands between the two of them, “what was that about?” Latvia laughed and said, “mind the business that pays you.” I rolled my eyes, “rude ass.” I said, walking out the office. Both Trevor and Latvia laughed. “Love you too bro.” Trevor yelled. I flicked him off and closed the door. I walked down the stairs and went to my room. The height that the guard was thrown at had me stomped. It was physically impossible for a regular wolf to throw someone that high, even pissed off. So how the f**k did he get there? Better yet, what did Kendra do to get chased into our territory, and were they really after her? I can’t phantom the bullshit for today. Also, what the f**k were Trevor and Kendra talking about? Promise what, and why must she be protected? I’m mad that Trevor is keeping a secret from me. We're supposed to be boys, he knows s**t that no one else knows, and vice versa. Why couldn’t he trust me with this secret? Muthafucka tripping, cause if there ain’t no trust, why are we boys? I go to the restroom to clean myself up and get ready for dinner. I walked out the restroom to see my sneaky link sitting on my bed. “Hey Keyon.” Miranda said. “What up?” I asked, walking to the closet. I felt a hand across my waist. “I’m horny, you in the mood?” she asked seductively, kissing my back. My d**k jumps at the thought of her mouth wrapped around it. It’ll relieve some stress, so why the f**k not? “Say less, do what you do best.” I said, dropping the towel and turning towards her. I’m not a big d**k wolf, I’m thick, but not long, maybe a good five to six inches hard. She drops to her knees and starts putting in the work. Her throat game is stupid, she deep throats my s**t with no hesitation. Unfortunately, it takes me a minute to bust from her head. Maybe twenty minutes at the most because I’m used to it. Hopefully, when I get my mate, it’ll be different and, honestly, just the idea of my mate sucking this d**k is enough to get me through these f*****g sessions. Just the thought alone makes me want to c*m soon. I started moaning, thinking about f*****g Kendra. Hold the f**k up, what? “Naw, stop.” I said, pushing Miranda away. “What’s wrong?” she asked, standing up. “I can’t do this, bounce.” I said, indicating towards the door. “Something wrong with my head?” she asked, dropping to her knees again. “Naw, I lost the feeling.” I replied, stepping back from her. “I can get it back.” she rebuttals. “No Miranda damn. I’m trying to be respectful, leave!” I yelled, shoving her out the closet and towards my door. “Fine,” she says as I pushed her out the door. Before she could say anything, I slammed it shut. She bangs on the door and yells, “asshole… f*****g asshole!” What the f**k ever, let’s get back to this thought. “Nigel.” I called to my wolf. “What up?” he replied. “What do you mean what up? Did you not see that s**t?” “Yeah, I saw it, you’re drawn to her. What’s wrong?” He asked nonchalantly. “What’s wrong? What’s wrong? She’s not f*****g attractive. She’s not the ideal mate for me. No man is throwing themselves at her. No one f*****g wants her. How does that look, a man like me, with an eye sore like her? It doesn’t work. I can’t see that.” “Maybe you can’t see that now, but if she’s our mate, you’ll see it then. The attraction is there my boy, you gotta see it through.” “No the f**k I don’t! I don’t want an ugly f*****g mate, f**k that.” I said. I ran the thought of rejecting her through my head. “You better f*****g not!” Nigel snapped. “You wildin’ for real big dawg. Don’t do no s**t like that!” He growled. Man, if I rejected Kendra, I'd feel that s**t too. If I continue to f**k Miranda, she’ll feel that pain, which would cause her to reject me. If she rejects me, I’ll hopefully get a second chance mate, and she’ll be stuck without a mate. “Man, you’re f*****g stupid. Tell me how that sounds out loud?” Nigel says. Yeah, he was right. That was stupid, but then it hit, and man, oh man, was this brilliant. If I do it now, it won’t count as a rejection, so she’ll know I don’t want her and we’ll both get a second chance, mate. “Don’t do it!” Nigel scratches at my head. I blocked him out and headed out to look for Kendra. I ran into the common area and saw Trevor, Latvia, Zoro, Zyaire, and Kendra all sitting down talking. Trevor notices me and waves me over. “There you are Keyon, we were just talking about Kendra’s birthday and how she’s spending it down by the lake. I think we should join her, so she won’t celebrate it alone.” I looked at everyone at the table, I knew what I was about to do was going to piss them off. “I’ll decline, but Kendra, may I speak with you for a second.” I asked, walking towards the back. I turned to see her behind me, it’s now or never. I took a deep breath and said, “I know you haven’t gotten your wolf yet, but this needs to be done.” Kendra I was sitting in the common area talking with the Alpha, Luna, and the Gammas about my birthday tomorrow. “It’s okay, I don’t want any issues. Since my mom passed away, I’m used to celebrating my birthday alone.” I replied when the Alpha insisted that they join me tomorrow to celebrate by the lake. “Don’t be silly Kendra, we insist.” Luna Latvia said. As we were at a disagreement, Keyon walked in and Alpha Trevor called him over. “There you are, Keyon, we were just talking about Kendra’s birthday and how she’s spending it down by the late. I think we should join her, so she won’t celebrate it alone.” He says to him. I look up at Keyon, who in return has a sour face. Damn, it was just an invite, one that I didn’t even extend to him. “I’ll decline, but Kendra, may I speak with you for a second?” he asked me. My heart immediately started racing. Was he going to tell me that he loves me and that I am his mate? I pray to the Goddess he does. That would make this birthday that much better. I grabbed a donut and walked behind him. When we got to the back hall, he turned and faced me. “I know you haven’t gotten your wolf yet, but this needs to be done.” “What needs to be done?” I asked, anticipating the kiss he is about to plant on me, confirming my wildest dream and desire. I’m trying to read his face, but it’s hard to tell what he was thinking. “If we are mates, then I need to get this out.” He begins. OMGoddess, here we go. I began to smile, thinking he’s going to profess his love for me. “I, Keyon Black, Beta of the The Infamous Moon Pack, hereby reject you, Kendra Lowe, an Omega of the Infamous Blood Pack, as my mate.” To say I felt nothing would be a lie… My heart and world just shattered as I dropped my donut. So many things wrong with this situation. 1) He thinks I’m an Omega… which I’m not. I’m a Beta. 2) If he knows I don’t have my wolf, why would he reject me? Is it because of the pain he doesn’t want us to endure? And finally, the main thing… he’s REJECTING me!!! What did I do to have him reject me? “Wha…what?” I asked softly, holding back tears. “I said I.” “NO!!! I heard what you said.” I yelled, backing away from him.”Why, is what I want to know?” I needed an answer because what the f**k, I didn’t do s**t to him, and he doesn’t even know if I’m his mate or not, but here you are, hours before finding out, rejecting your “possible” mate. The f*****g nerves. He looks at the floor and then at me. With the coldest facial expression ever, he says, “I’m not attracted to you. I think you’re ugly.” My heart broke even more because… you’re rejecting someone based on their looks? I am sick and tired of muthafuckers using looks as a reason to be with someone. Yes, I am aware that people are attracted to your looks first, but if that personality ain’t worth s**t, is it really worth the rejection? I’m not f*****g ugly, fat as hell, yes, ugly no!!! I can feel my anger growing inside me. I don’t feel any pain, because I don’t know if he’s my mate or not, but if I’m not pissed the f**k off. “You’re serious right now?” I asked, my back towards the curtains. He moves towards me and I hold my hands up to stop him. “You’re rejecting me, not knowing if you’re my mate or not, because you find me ugly and unattractive?” I repeated everything he said. He’s no longer looking at me, but to the floor. “Yeah… yeah, that’s the gist of it.” He said quietly. My mouth is about to get reckless, “I hope she takes you for everything you have and are.” I started coldly, catching him by surprise. “What?” He asked, which only pissed me off more. “You heard me correctly. I hope she drains you, belittles you, uses you, tricks you into thinking she cares, but really will cheat on you. You won’t reject her, because you know it’ll kill you and her, and if you do reject her, I hope she doesn’t accept, and you spend the rest of your life miserable.” I barked. By this time, he had walked us out into the common area. Everyone was now witnessing what I’m saying to him. He’s pissed off and is stalking towards me. I feel immediate danger and my powers are starting to flourish. “Take it back!” He yells, moving faster towards me. I stand my ground, because whether he likes it or not, he intentionally hurt me, and my words will sting. “I hope she’s so damn attractive that every unmated wolf, male or female, has their way with her, and you feel everything she does. I hope she gets pregnant by another wolf and you help her raise it with your pups.” I said, as he charged towards me. Without thinking, he’s flung backwards towards the wall. The Alpha, Luna, and Gamma are in between us at this point. “What the f**k is going on!!!?” Alpha Trevor yells, shaking the whole building. “He rejected me… without knowing if I’m his mate or not… All because I’m ugly to him.” I hissed, glaring daggers at him. All of a sudden, my whole body is engulfed in flames. “Kendra no!” Luna Latvia yells, throwing herself around me. I had no choice but to calm down, or risk injuring her. “You have no control over your emotions right now, calm down.” she whispered. I did what she said. As I’m coming down from my high, I look around to see everyone looking at me. I can feel the tears seeping from my eyes. “Excuse me Luna.” I whisper, as I step away from her and flee. “Kendra, wait!” Latvia yells after me. I didn’t want to be there anymore. Keyon Her words are stinging and f*****g with me. I just rejected her, and instead of accepting my rejection, she’s hoping that my next mate does the worst to me and I’m miserable. I’m livid as I charge towards her, but before everyone can step in and I reach her, I’m thrown backwards onto the wall. What the f**k just happened? “What the f**k is going on?” Trevor asked. “He rejected me… without knowing if I’m his mate or not… All because I’m ugly to him.” Kendra replied, leaving Trevor glaring at me. “You… did… what?” he hissed, his eyes black with anger. Before I could reply, Kendra’s whole body was engulfed in flames. I know damn well she’s not on fire. Maybe I hit my f*****g head too hard, but no, I see what the f**k I see, and so does everyone else. “Kendra, no!” Latvia yells, throwing herself onto Kendra, who immediately calms down. So this confirms what the f**k I know: she does have powers, and they know about it. I don’t know what was said, but Kendra takes off with Luna behind her. “So she does have powers?” I asked, shaking off the impact. “Well, thanks to you, everyone knows that now.” He growls. “And you couldn’t tell me?” I snapped, how dare he blame this on me? “Excuse you?” He replied. “You couldn’t tell me she had powers? You knew this whole time and you left me out of the loop. You and Latvia!” I yelled. “WATCH YOUR TONE!!” he growls. “MY OFFICE NOW!!!” he says, storming off. I got up and followed him upstairs. He storms in the office and throws a glass across the room. “Do you have any idea what you just did?!” he asked, glaring at me. “Exposed Kendra for the freak she is. How the f**k she has powers, but no wolf? That s**t doesn’t make sense.” I replied. “You f*****g i***t… she’s a special wolf, who the moon goddess brought here for a reason. I can’t tell you everything because we don’t know if you’re her mate or not, but after that dumb s**t, we will never know.” Trevor is steaming pissed, any anger and smoke will be coming out of his ears. “I DON’T f*****g WANT HER AS MY MATE ANYWAYS… DO… YOU… NOT… SEE…. HER!!!?” I yelled. “There’s nothing wrong or ugly about Kendra. You’re just a shallow son of a b***h who thinks he’s the Moon Goddess’s gift to women.” Damn, that hurts, just ten years ago, he was the same way. Now look at him. “Don’t forget just a decade ago, you were the same way.” I reminded him. “But I would never have rejected my f*****g mate!” Okay, he had a point, he’s big on finding your mate and loving them unconditionally. I truly believe if he wasn’t with Latvia, and he had a chance with Kendra, he would accept her. He would, not me. “Man, whatever, I said what I said. And technically, I didn’t reject my mate, I rejected Kendra. So, now we both have a chance with a second chance mate.” I said. I know what I’m doing. We have no bond, no chemistry, and no spark. That thought I had earlier was just a fluke, because I wanted someone different. Just because I don’t want her as a mate, doesn’t make her unfuckable. That’s about how much of me she’ll get. Trevor went to say something when the door opened and in walked Latvia and Kendra. When Kendra saw me, I felt myself being lifted off the ground. “Don’t you do it!” I yelled, as I felt myself fly across the room into the window, crashing into it. “Stand down!” Trevor booms, as Latvia stepped in front of Kendra. I stand to my feet. “Let that be the last f*****g time you throw me around a room.” I threatened. “No, it won’t be.” Kendra replied, trying to side step Latvia. “Everytime I see you, I will throw you across the room. If I knew how to control my powers, I would set your ass on fire.” she hissed. “You are a f*****g freak!” I snapped, shrugging off what she said. “Shut up Keyon.” Trevor barks at me. “You will do no such thing Kendra.” he says, addressing her. “Fine, then I’ll be leaving this pack tonight.” she rebuttals. Whether she leaves or not is not my problem. I could give a f**k if she rejected the whole pack, just as long as she’s not my mate. “You will do no such thing, you are still underage, you belong to this pack. Plus, how the f**k am I going to protect you if I can’t get to you?” He asked. I finally spoke up, “why the f**k are you protecting this omega so hard? You don’t do this for the other ones?” All eyes are on me. “You’re so f*****g stupid.” Kendra laughed. “No!” Trevor stepped in, “he can’t know, we don’t know if he’s your mate or not. Only your mate is supposed to know. Granted, after his stupid ass move just a while ago, we may never know. You know you can’t control your powers, and we promised your mom we'd protect you until you find your mate. Don’t make us go back on that promise.” He practically pleaded. The look on my face must've been priceless. Here's the big bad Alpha, pleading with an Omega. He promised her mom? How recently did he speak to her?