100 Days and I Still Love You!

FOR GOOD

Yuna: Hold up! Something is missing and wrong here.

Yuna stopped me, as she was waiting for some more info.

Jenna: Of course, he isn't finished with it. You're quite impatient, aren't you?

Yuna: And that's the reason why you liked me, right? Am I right, or I'm right?

Oh, these two love birds are not going to stop real soon.

And Jenna looked like, she wanted to go all-in on Yuna. 

"Please respect the single in the group, or I have to find a new group sooner."

Yuna laughed and slapped my back real hard.

"Come on, Alan. You have plenty of those fishes, waiting for you to hook, but the problem is you. You're too fussy."

Well, she is technically right, but half wrong.

"I need to be picky, as I yearn for real love, not the one who is always looking for lust. Besides, because it was plenty of fishes, so why not trying for each of it?"

Yuna laughed while Jenna just rolled her eyes.

"But seriously though, that was a cliffhanger back there. Like, I mean, why so sudden, and Jenna, why are you so calm, and still befriend with him?"

Yuna continued, with the motions of her hands.

"And, where is the aquarium incident, that I've been waiting for?"

Both Jenna and I laughed.

"Well, you may wonder now, how the heck did I know that Jenna prefers girls over men right now, right?"

Yuna, who was still showing motions with her hands, finally stopped and paid attention to us.

"Now that you mention it, I've been wondering it too, like, how is she so sudden accepted that I liked her, and okay with it?"

Jenna giggled and patted Yuna's shoulder.

"Now its time for you to know it, by listening to Alan's story, and FYI, you didn't like me, I liked you, take note please."

Oh, no!

This lover is doing it again.

Better resumed it fast.

"Like I said..."

"I think we should break up."

I said those words, and it echoed again, not in the park, but in my mind. 

Yes.

It is for the best.

Jenna stared at me, blankly, but deep down, she knew that I meant it.

I waited for her to cry, or maybe a slap because I deserved it, but, instead, she just stood up, and stand in front of me. 

And she did something, that was not people who are dealing with breakup usually did.

She smiled.

"I know this day would come. And, I'm not mad, really."

She said it softly, almost like a mother comforted her child when the child fell or something.

"But before I agree to it, may I know the reason, behind this?"

She looked at me with her puppy eyes. I did not know that she had this pure soul, yet it had been tainted by me.

"I...I..."

She took my palms and held it together.

"It's okay. Please, I need to know if it was my fault, I want to fix it, to be the better me."

The words struck me hard.

It was not her!

It was me!

"No, no! You're never wrong! It just-"

I took a deep breath, as my palms were still in her hands. I calmy collected my self, preparing to confess everything, from the bottom of my heart.

"I think...I may be still in love with Adam, but, I don't know, I maybe love him, or rather, I love gender. I can't keep lying to myself by saying that I can love you when my heart was clearly not."

She listened to every word that I said, one by one, and nodded to each of it. Like she can resonate with it.

"It's okay, at least you gave yourself a chance to try, and another opportunity to change. I too, once, was in your shoe."

Hmm, it sounds weird, but okay.

Jenna then took me to the nearest bench, and we sat together. She took a deep breath like she was about to tell her side of the story.

"Umm, you see, like you too, I didn't like the opposite gender. I like girls."

Yuna: UUU, spills some more!

Jenna: Shh!

Yuna: Sorry!

I tried to listen to it again, though I was hearing it quite well, I needed a confirmation.

"Um, what? Come again?"

This time, her face slightly turned red, like she was about to explode.

"I LIKE GIRLS! HAPPY?!"

Of course, I am happy, but not kind of celebrating...

Like, I am happy that she too did not feel the same way about this relationship, but she too, like us being in a relationship, to hinder from the truth...

We both need to learn to tell the truth.

"So, if I like, rephrase this correctly, neither of us, was in love with each other, and we only are in this relationship, just to like running away, right?"

Jenna rolled her eyes, disagreeing.

"Not running away, discovering ourselves. It's not like we are committing a crime."

We both laughed at each other. The truth that we both kept, finally been exposed, just like that.

"So, what are we right now?"

I asked, to clarify things between us. We cannot just let go to school, and make it like we are break up and stuffs. People might be asking about us in school if we just showed up separately. 

Jenna put her hand under her chin, acting like she was in deep thought. 

"Or, we can pretend like, after all this time, we're just BFF. It was likely their fault to think that we're a couple."

We both looked at each other and agreed to this plan. We shook hand like we were allowed with the status.

"I never knew that we're this sync."

"Likewise. So, you still want me to accompany to your home?"

Jenna asked as she was unsure about this whole thing, though it was her ideas. I extended my hand, waiting for her to accept my hand.

"Come on, best friend! To fool the other, first, we must fool ourselves. It will be great to learn how to become a best friend."

She chuckled, later on, she grabbed my hand and walked beside me.

"Gladly, best friend."

We walked home later that day.

Yuna: That's it? That's it?!

Jenna: Of course, not!

Alan: The story about us was ended like that...but...

The next day, when we both were on our ways to school, I asked Jenna about her preferences in a girl.

Yuna: This better is juicy detail. Are you probably describing me back then?

Jenna: Half of it, and yet it comes full set.

Should continue, or else they might be on the full mode.

Jenna's face turned red again.

"Wh-why do you need to know about that?"

"Well, technically, you know about my type of boy that I prefer, so if I know yours, maybe I can play cupid, and help you with it?"

She looked down while kicking the nearest tiny rocks along the way.

"Maybe, a girl like gentle, and kind, but kinda dumb, of course, since I will the be the brain in the relationship."

Yuna: Heyy!

"And, she will regularly say she loved me, though I told her it was cringe, and annoying, but she said it anyway because it will be our love's vow."

Yuna: Aww.

As she said that, she tucked her hair behind her right ear, showing her red face to me. I hugged her by the shoulder, to let her know it was okay.

"Come on! Of course, you will meet that girl soon!"

Yuna: Already met.

Jenna: Let's enjoy this first, and later you can tell me how lucky you're.

"Ehem"

When we arrived at school, everyone was still thinking that we were dating, nothing else comes in their mind.

"So, the plan worked, I guess."

We giggled silently and proceeded to our class. And this time, maybe, just maybe, I will have that conversation with Adam.

"Goodluck. If he loves you, and just pretended he doesn't, you have every right to punch him. Later on, you can make out with him."

"Shut up!"

I hushed Jenna, as we were already in the middle of our class, as our teacher did not notice that we were talking.

As he was strolling at the back of the class. 

But, I did not turn back to look at him, somewhat my eyes were focusing on one spot, which today, it was empty. Adam's seat was vacant, like, we all knew that he probably showed up late, but today, the school was almost over, and he was not there still.

"Hey, is he always skipped school?"

I asked Jenna quietly, to avoid our teacher listened to it.

"Though he was quite problematic, no, he wasn't that kind of person who skipped school. Have you ever seen his score in the quiz? Full mark!"

Exactly!

Though I only knew him, like this year, all the teachers would not mind his rebellious manner, as he always scored on their test, and as long as he kept it that way, the teachers would get out from his hairs. 

Maybe he sleeps in?

I continued to focus on the class, although my mind was not.

I will look for him later.

The school was over, and I told Jenna about my intention. She nodded and gone home alone, leaving me by myself to search for him. 

Sleuth time!

Okay, now, just to figure out about where could this guy be.

I had been done thinking about it.

I will tell him my feeling, just to let it go from myself.

Either he liked me back or not, I care it less.

Just wanted to let it go, that is all!

I searched for their usual spot, which was behind the school, where his gang usually done smoking there. As I went there, the group was already there, but no sight of Adam. I bravely went to them, as they were busy smoking. When I already stopped in front of them, they stared at me aggressively.

"What, punk? Wanna fight?"

I stood there frozen, and my words stuck in my throat. But one of them looked unmotivated to continue to taunt me.

"Look, we're not in the mood today. Get lost."

I mustered my courage.

This is for myself, not Adam!

"I need to ask, *gulp*, for someone. Wheres Adam?"

All of their eyes stared at me, disbelief.

"And what do you have with him?"

Two of the guys looked like they were about to throw a fist. Luckily for me, like seriously, one of them calmed the other two and walked straight to me.

"Listen, kid, we don't know where Adam is. He likely likes to disappear, as usually. But this time, he disappears, like for a long time. I suggest you go to the old film shop, where the owner is an old lady."

A film shop?

Oh!

I used to go there with Jenna.

"Oh, um, thanks."

I nervously thanked the guy, but he grabbed my collar and leaned closer to my ear.

"Listen, whatever things that both of you are doing, finish it fast."

I nodded many times and left quickly.

After I ran to the shop, somehow my heart was not at ease. As soon as I reach the shop, I swiftly opened the door to find Aunt May.

"Aunt May! Do you by any chance knowing someone named Adam?"

Seeing me out of breath, she offered me a bottle of water and asked me to sit.

"My, why in a rush? Yes, I knew that young man, I told you before, right? Sadly, he told me he wants to have some spaces, as his heart was broken. Why?"

After listening to that, I did not know what to do.

Maybe he did not want to see me anymore.

Maybe, it was for good.