Dear No One

"Having a wider heart and mind is more important than having a larger house." - Venerable Cheng Yen ~ Have you ever thought that in our world where money is the key to all major problems, only for me it is a person, this one particular tiny woman, who could be the answer to problems I do not even know I have? I convince myself that I have all that I need; power, money, friends, and women who want to be with me, but not even one of them elicits any flutter or the need to constantly be with them, care for them, or any of that s**t you watch on TV or read in books until she comes along. I don't know, perhaps deep inside of me, I might have just been waiting for her. That woman became my whole world. It all started with me looking to hire someone to do a quick job online. Fate really is a force to be reckoned with. Honestly, I didn't have a chance to stop myself. You can't really fight what is inevitable. Most importantly, the heart always wants what it wants. It knows better than what you think you want or need, a brain on its own, deciding for you. The brain is just delayed in knowing what the heart already knew. I feel content. Relax in a way I have never been before. I snuggle closer to her and inhale her scent deeply. This is what I want to wake up to every morning for the rest of my life. With her in my arms, every day, all day is perfect for cuddles. I have never thought cuddles would feel heavenly. It's because of her that everything feels great. I am missing out big time. I squeezed her tight to my body. Basking in her warmth and unique scent. I still can not believe she's here with me. She cooed, I wrapped my arm below her wonderful globes just the perfect size for my hands and slid the other onto her stomach and I rejoice imagining what lies ahead. Soon my seeds would take root, and my babies would grow right there. I can’t wait anymore, I’m very excited. I want to see my and her little version, half of me and her. The product of our love for each other. Total f*****g bliss. If only I had known this was going to be my future, I would have searched through highs and lows, shaking the entire world so she would be forced to come out and fall into me, anything to find her sooner. After all, I have the resources. I never would have imagined my life would be perfect just like this. When I have her, nothing else matters. I have what I want and need. To hell with the others...