Mapa

Some lessons in life

"I didn't know who's the person that made her fall in love. I want her back. I want to start from the very beginning with her. I will court her once again. I don't know if I will tell my parents about this. They will miss her so much more than I do"

"Theon, tell them. If they don't have any idea on your relationship they will ask you how's your ex. You need to move on. They need to move on. I think you need to love yourself more today. Take time to heal. Everything will be okay. Don't expect something coming from her. She didn't know your worth. She can't see your worth. I know you're blaming yourself right now because you think you're the reason why you broke up. I want you to know that it's not your fault. She made a decision. Move forward and you deserve happiness"

"Why did she leave me just like we don't spend more than a year together? Why did she entertain someone while she's with me? Does she ever think about my feelings? I have a lot of questions"

"I don't have any answers. I can't answer your questions because I'm not her. That question will have an answer soon"

I'm scared of having a relationship with someone because I know something will happen. That person may ruin my world. That person may say he's sure with me but the actions of him are different. Before you love someone you need to love yourself first. You need to know that there will be a lot of ups and downs. You're not right in all situations. You need to accept the fact that the opinion of other people or the opinion of your partner will be normal when you're in a relationship. They may be right. He may be right. Loving someone is the same way we love our friends. It all started to be friends with that someone. Turning friendship into relationship. But once you end that relationship expect that you will lose both. You can't have their time 24/7. You can't tell them how you feel everyday anymore. It hurts when someone who you used to tell everything has no idea how you feel right now. In a relationship there's only 2 choices. Be in a healthy relationship where you both understand your time. Matured that you don't need to talk 24/7 just to be called a happy couple. Become the better version of yourselves. Improve your skills together. Respect your busy day. And the other one is a toxic relationship where you still entertain people. You don't care about your partner's feelings. You can't see the red flags.

I have a friend that always cries because of a boy. She's crying everyday because of her ex. As a friend I will do my part where I'll listen to her rants. Give her advice. She doesn't care about red flags. She loved him so much more than herself. They broke up and came back 2 times. She gave her ex a second chance. I told her not to give her ex a second chance because cheating is involved on their 1st break up. I believe that once a cheater, always a cheater. Did everyone deserve a second chance? For me, no. We're not sure if it will work for the 2nd time around. I only give second chances to those people I see improvements and do their best to show that they really deserve it. It's okay to cry after the break up. It's normal.

Theon is no longer online. I think he's having a hard time seeing her ex's name on the active list. I'm about to sleep but I choose to watch videos on t****k. I have high standards when it comes to someone. I won't settle for less.

I have a lot of problems but I didn't tell my friends. I'm not open to them because I know they have personal problems too. They have problems that they don't want to talk about. I'm proud because I survived everyday. I survived even though I have depression that kills me inside. I have suicidal thoughts. I never do suicide because I know it's only a temporary problem. I won't end my life because of having temporary problems. I'm a fighter.