Paper Click

BF Forever

ONE DAY

"hey T, you're giving me another piece of one forth paper right?"

"I guess so! do I have a choice???"

I was busy cutting the paper in two

"I'm always glad to have your other half"

"what?"

"have half of your paper always?"

he smiled like he meant something else, omg! got this weird chills again whew!

"I don't have a choice right? you've got the half or else maybe you'll withdraw our bestfriendship anytime"

yeah I was joking but what the hell!

why isn't he laughing? and again???f**k!!!he's staring at me like that again...

that stare when I just wanna to melt down and disappear urgh!!! please stop teasing my naked heart please B!

"maybe I will hahaha I won't cause I'm sure you'll gonna miss me"

he grabbed me with one arm on my right shoulder hmmm how come he's so comfortable???

"hahaha you wish! in fact I'm planning to transfer to section B next semester so I won't ever see you again"

"oh really? you can't do that hahaha you'll miss half of your life without me in it"

"overconfidence brings forth deep disappointments"

"com'on T! seriously?"

he even made that serious face that makes me worry a bit but on the other hand, my heart is rejoicing hahahaha he looks afraid to lose me after all

"hahaha I'm just kidding! what the hell? are you the only one allowed to joke around here?"

"hmmm don't say you're leaving me again hahahaha it messes up my braincells, give me my paper now!"

it’s like he's commanding me this time with his tone of voice, I don’t even know if he's angry or just messing around again! I don't wanna risk saying anything out of the expected anyway

but indeed, I felt like my heart is satisfied already knowing I'm important to him after all, so this is how it feels being valued back...

"excuse me??? don’t make me change that joke into a reality hahaha" so here's the thing, I've learned that boys get serious about things that makes their status unstable.

so I guess I'd let the benefit of the doubt get in between, yeah I don't know where this is leading to but right! I'm gonna stay being his friend until he realizes that he feels more than just friendship...

hmmm that is if he ever feels that in the future or not...

then maybe I'd be his forever best friend and secret lover of all time!

hahaha loser tailor! hmmm poor heart! but it's okay as long as you won't lose him, you'll still be happy

even if one day he will soon be happy with someone else...

someone who's not his best friend...

someone not you...

now I'm getting crazy, talking to myself at the end of the day urgh!!!