Ryder

“Astrid! Wake your ass up now!” My mom yells from the kitchen. I lay there hoping she would forget me. “Wake the f**k up, you lazy girl!” As if I was lazy, I was the one that paid the bills and worked my ass off everyday after school, and now work 2 jobs since I graduated. I roll out of bed, and get up to pull some clothes out to wear. I try to hide my body as much as I can. The girls in school would call me Miss. Piggy because I wasn’t skinny like them. I was 5’0 and 145 pounds. You could probably thank my chest for most of the weight, and also thank my grandmother for giving me these. I was a size G cup, the boys at my school would call me “Honker”. So I choose baggy sweats and a Baggy sweater and left my room. My mom was standing in the living room all dolled up. You see my mom was the opposite. She loved showing her body, she was a little taller then me. Short black hair and a push up bra to make her look as big as I was. Huh reminds me of the time she called me a b***h because of my size that she wanted. “ why the f**k did you wake me up this early? This is my only day off and you know it!” I told my mom. “ I need you to come with me to Mikes place. I need to grab something from him” she seriously acts like I don’t know what shes getting. Shes been a addict for all of my life. “Why do I need to go with you? That has nothing to do with me?” “Just get in the f*****g car! And do what I say!” She storms out while she yells at me. I walk to the old beat up Honda Civic that I had bought with my own money a year ago. I probably paid more to fix it then I bought it. But I loved her. We drive up to a mobile home that was about to fall. There standing in front was Mike. Beat up looking old man probably my moms age. My mom gets out and start walking up to him to give him a hug. So gross. “Come out Astrid and say hi!” My mom yells at me. I get out just to see Mike looking at me up and down, licking his lips while he does. “Well hello hot stuff” he says. I grunt and wave. He turns around and waves us inside. As we walk inside, I look around just your run of the mill drug house. Smells like piss and dog s**t. My mom and Mike start talking. I go ahead a zone them out. Thinking about how a little more money and I can start my move to Texas, and get away from here and this life I never wanted. Get away from taking care of my mom. Its not that I didn’t love her, I just didn’t want to be her mom anymore. I was her kid she should be acting like my mother, not the other way around. “Astrid, come here please.” I hear my moms voice and stop zoning. I walk over to her. “Astrid I don’t have enough for my stuff, is there any way I could have some money and ill pay you back?” She trying really hard to be nice right now. “Pay for your fix mom? No way in hell will I be giving you money for that!” I couldn’t believe what I was hearing not once has she ever asked me to pay for her s**t. “Please I need this!” She starts to yell at me. I start walking to the door trying to go back outside when Mike stops me. I didn’t even notice he left his seat. “You know I’ve seen you around town. You’ve got a pretty smoking body. Why don’t you and I go to my room and Ill let your mom have her s**t?” What the f**k did he just say to me? I was in shock. I stared at my mom and she just nodded her head like she agreed with him. No this was the last straw! “f**k you Mike! And f**k you mom! Im not giving my body to him for your fix! Im leaving! Find another f*****g ride home! Im done.” I try to storm out but Mike has my wrist now trying to walk me to his room. I go into brick mode, and then as soon as I get a chance I kick him in his private parts and run out of the place. I get into the car and race off. I was done. Why did this have to be my life. Why did my mother have to be a drug addict. Why couldn’t I have a normal life. I got to the house, went into my room and packed all my stuff I could. I go to my closet and open a piece of the wall I had cut out to open a box. It had all my savings about 2000 dollars worth. This was it my time to move, to get out of this hell hole of a place I lived for 21 years. I looked at the house, my home. Got into the car and left never looking back.