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Four

Grayson Fitzgerald

"How many f*****g times will I tell you to settle this f*****g deal? Do I have to do it myself Mr. Lim? Tell me!"

Fuck, what a great morning indeed.

Sarcasm f*****g intended.

The fucker can't even speak.

"If you are not competent enough to finish this measly deal, then go to HR and ask for your f*****g severance pay, you imbecile!" Hinablot ko yung unang bagay na makuha ko sa mesa at ibinato.

It didn't startle him.

"I'm sorry Mr. Maxwell, but I did everything to convince the Andrade's to concede with the bidding. Ayaw talaga nung representative nila na si Mr. Oswald." Nakita kong namuti na ang kamao niya sa pagkuyom.

Lies.

This f*****g old man is really testing my patience.

Clearly, he's a great liar and manipulator and I was a f*****g fool to believe him.

I've had enough.

"Ayaw? O dahil kinuha mo yung 8 million sa dapat sana settlement deal nila sa bidding? Nahiya ka pa talaga at binigyan mo pa sila ng 2 million?" I eyed him angrily.

Fucking liar.

"What are you talking about, boy?"

There it is.

That f*****g aristocratic voice that I onced looked up to.

"Don't boy me old man! Get the f**k out! Expect to be fucing blacklisted. I don't f*****g care kung matagal ka na dito or may pinagsamahan kayo ng mga magulang ko, you should be thankful you'll be sleeping on your bed tonight instead of rotting inside a prison cell. Get the f**k out."

Fuck. How could some people be so greedy? I have been monitoring Mr. Lim's performance for about 6 months now. Nakakita kasi si John,yungover all head ng security ng Spectrum, ng unusual transactions dito.

At first, we were surprised, dahil napakatagal na niya dito sa Spectrum, and ang hawak niyang department ay ang pinaka sensitive--mergers and acquisisions.

He stole over a million pounds sa Europe branch namin sa loob ng walong taon. He was a trusted shareholder at kaibigan niya ang mga magulang ko.

But come to think of it, he was my imbecile father's friend first.

Fuck.

I should have known better.

I tried to give him the benefit of the doubt by creating a dummy deal with the Andrade's.

But the old fucker was too greedy, he stole the 8 million pesos from the 10 million settlement that he was supposed to pay Sebastian Andrade.

What the actual f**k right?

I could have sued him, or made a big deal out of his betrayal, but I still respect my mother and their friendship.

I am actually itching to pull out my 9mm and blow his f*****g brains out but I controlled myself.

Kung hindi lang siya matanda talaga kanina ko pa pinasabog yung mukha niya.

I loosened my tie and took out my phone to call John.

"Sir" He answered on the first ring.

"Call that b***h Lily." I ended the call.

That's right.

You may have thought that I was this righteous man for sparing that greedy fucker, but you're wrong.

Behind this cold, ruthless facade--is a cold, ruthless man.

What you see is what you get.

I might have been way over my head the past few months, but enough is enough.

I don't f*****g care about Thea Elise anymore.

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"That's it. You like doing that huh? You like being my little bitch." I groaned as I pounded my c**k inside Lily's mouth.

She gagged, but I don't really give a s**t, I just need my release.

"Ahhhh..fuck." I felt my load drip out of her dirty mouth. "Swallow it, and don't leave a mess, my clothes costs as much as your husband's monthly salary."

She immediately obeyed and licked everything as if her life depended on it.

Then, she smiled.

Tang ina, oo nga pala, hindi siya si Thea.

I furiously came because I imagined her lovely face while pounding my c**k on Lily's mouth.

"I guess you woke up on the wrong side of the bed." She giggled while standing up and pulling her dress up to cover her fake breasts.

Fuck, miss na miss ko na ang malulusog na dibdib ni Thea.

What the f**k Grayson?

Lily Silva, the socialite with a gifted mouth.

Asawa siya ng isa sa mga shareholders ng kaibigan kong si Vincent.

I accidentally met her--actually she purposely cornered me on a dark balcony while I was attending a party held by Spectrum and Imperio León.

She practically just knelt down and sucked my c**k dry while I was having a conference phone call with our New York office.

I don't know but I think she has this fixation on getting men off without being pleasured back.

She puts up with my filthy mouth and gives the best f*****g head a man could wish for.

What happened between her mouth and anyone's c**k remains between them.

Well, that was before..her.

Ngayon parang diring diri ako sa sarili ko dahil sa ginawa namin ngayon.

Why the f**k am I feeling guilty?

Alam ko hindi lang ako ang ginagawan niya nito, and I wonder how small her husband's d**k is for her to act like this.

Ahh f**k.

It doesn't matter.

"You don't know half the s**t of it." I rasped.

"I was surprised you even called me. I thought you were chasing that pretty little brunette. I thought you were done with me."

I looked at her coldly without answering.

"Oh well, you'll get over it, you're the devil for f**k's sake, you can sin all you want and get anything you want. But I hope I temporarily blew the frustration away.. Sa tingin ko hindi na mauulit ito base diyan sa mukha mo. You look guilty. " She shook her head and giggled.

"Too bad.I'm going to miss your long..fat..hard cock." She gave me a naughty wink and went out of my office.

"f**k!" I punched the mac monitor.

"Sir." I was brooding when John entered my office.

"Ano??"Sigaw ko.

He didn't budge.

He gave me a disappointed look.

"Calm the f**k down Grayson. I have some good and bad news for you." He walked closer until he reached the side of my table.

"If it's about Thea, I don't give a shit." I stood up and took the bottle of bourbon from my liquor cabinet.

I heard him chuckled.

Sino nga ba ang niloloko ko?

"I said calm the f**k down man. Kahit pa ayaw mong marinig, sasabihin ko padin dahil ngayon lang kita nakitang ganyan katanga at kabobo." Tininganan ko siya ng masama.

"f**k you."

"No thanks, sir." Tinawanan pa ako ng gago.

"Spill whatever the f**k it is John." f**k, kahit anong deny ko I am still f*****g curious on just about anything that concerns her.

Nginitian niya ako ng nakakaloko.

"Una, hindi ko alam ganyan ka na pala kadesperado, ikaw mismo tumawag kay Lily? Tang ina, hindi mo man lang ako hinintay, pinutol mo na nga yung tawag ko kanina at hindi mo pa sinagot yung mga tawag ko. Eto lang ah, ilang minuto magmula ngayon pagsisisihan mo yang ginawa mo.Kung hindi lang kita kaibigan kanina pa basag ang bungo mo sa kagaguhan mo."

Bigla akong natigilan sa sinabi niya. Hindi naman kasi siya yung tipo na mahilig magbigay ng opinyon. Matalik kong kaibigan si John at malaki ang tiwala ko sakanya.

Literal na magkapit bahay kami sa upper east side, my mother and his mom were what they call themselves "amigas" and members of the council. The council is composed of the upper east side's housewives, they organise parties, auctions and other wifely things. At sa tuwing mag kakaroon sila ng pagtitipon, kaming dalawa ni John ang laging nakabusangot sa gilid dahil karamihan ng mga kaidad namin ay batang babae, kung may lalake man, they were either too reformed to play with us, or sadyang aristocrats lang sila.

Kaya kami lang ni John talaga ang nagkakasundo, nadagdagan lang yung grupo namin after 10 years ng magkasunod na pinanganak ang kapatid kong si Selene, at ang kapatid niyang si Zach.

John is more of like a brother to me, and I am too towards him.

At alam ko ring naging malapit na din siya kay Thea.

"Fuck."

"f**k you talaga. Alam mo bang si Stella ang may pakana dun sa mga pictures ni Thea habang may kahalikan na nakuha mo kagabi?" Marahan ngunit galit na pagkakasabi niya.

Naitapon kong wala sa oras ang hawak kong bote.

"Jackson Mendoza, isang pro football star sa NFL, yan yung gagong pinilit ang sarili niya kay Thea one week ago sa Valkyrie. Pinsan ng magaling mong ex fiancee.Mabuti na lang magaling sumipa si Nicky." Binigay niya sakin ang cellphone niya para ipakita and profile ng hayop na yun.

"f**k, saan tong gago na to ngayon?" Inihilamos ko ang aking mga kamay sa buhok ko.

"Ospital. Medyo nahirapan ako dahil may mga body guards. Tuso talaga yang si Stella." Napansin kong meron siyang galos sa noo.

Fuck.

Kailangan maayos ko na ang gusot namin ni Stella para hindi na magulo pa si Thea.

"Salamat John. Fuck." Yun na lang tanging nasabi ko.

"Sa susunod, kumonsulta ka muna kasi sakin pag may nagpadala sayo ng mga ganyan. Ang tanga mo din minsan eh. Nag aral ka ba talaga?" Tinapik niya ang likod ko at kumuha ng bagong bote ng bourbon para bigyan ako.

"Puta,diba boss mo ako? Bakit ganyan ka kung makapagsalita sakin?"

"Dahil wala kang silbi kung wala ako, gago. Isa pa, hindi kita boss ulol. Ikaw ang nagmakaawa na kunin ko yang Spectrum." Tinapik niya ulit yung balikat ko at tumawa.

Tumawa na din ako. Sa tinagal tagal naming magkaibigan, tama siya, wala akong silbi kung wala siya at ganun din siya sakin. 

Dating black ops ang gagong to, at yung pagka deploy niya sa Afghanistan ang tanging panahon na hindi kami nagkaroon ng komunikasyon, pero nung umuwi siya para pamahalaan ang security agency ng pamilya nila, kinuha ko siya bilang stock holder at incharge sa buong security ng Spectrum.

Though I noticed he was not the John that I used to banter with bago siya na deploy, and somehow I understood him. He opened up to me one time over a bottle of good bourbon and right then, I knew the war or whatever it was that he experienced changed him.

"Teka, may gusto ka ba kay Thea?" Hindi ko maiwasan mainis, dahil mas rational ang pag iisip niya pagdating kay Thea.

"Eh kung sabihin kong meron?" Nanunudyo niyang tanong.

"f**k you."

"Masyado kang possesive at irrational. Ayusin mo nga ang sarili mo." Tinampal niya yung ulo ko.

Hinayaan ko na lang siya dahil pili lang ang tao na nakakaganito sakin--yung rinerespeto ko lang.

"Besides, si Nicky ang crush ko, sapul niya yung solar plexus nung manyak na Jackson na yun. Eto, tingnan mo yung gago, parang may lbm sa pagpulupot sa sahig." Tumatawa siya habang pinapakita yung video ng pag upak ni Nicky sa hayop na manyakis.

Oh f**k, kakaiba yung ngiti niya lalo na nung na mention niya yung word na crush--na nakakapanibago kasi ni hindi man lang siya ganyan magsalita dati regarding women--we are tight as hell pero when it comes to relationships and women, he's a bit closed off.

I shook my head at his remark.

"Pucha, nakakatakot pala si Nicky." Natatawa kong sabi, hindi rin pinalagpas ng mata ko yung pinakamagandang babae sa paninigin ko, na galit na galit habang kinakalmot yung Jackson sa video.

Alam kong ang dami nanamang mura ang kumawala sa sexy niyang bibig.

But f**k, her dress is too tight and leaves too little to the imagination!

Hindi pa siya sakin, pero pag dumating na ang araw na yun, sisiguraduhin kong yuyuko lahat ng lalakeng dadaaan at madadaanan niya.

Tang ina, ang gago ko.

Bakit ba kasi lahat ng klase ng emosyon na heighten magsimula ng makita ko ulit siya sa pangalawang pagkakataon.

At bakit ba kasi ang laki kong tanga para ibalik yung dati kong ugali na walang kwenta ng ganun kadali dahil lang sa maling akala.

I need to get my s**t together.

I need to stay rational.

Get ready Thea Elise, I will tempt the living hell out of you, and you will have no choice but to give in and let me worship you at your f*****g feet for the rest of your f*****g life.

"Gago, alam ko yang mukha mo, yan yung nag dedaydream ka nanaman ng future niyo ni Thea. Pucha para kang tanga."

"f**k you, atleast hindi ako katulad mo na hanggang ngayon natotorpe pa din sa kapatid ko."

Pambihira, ako na nga yata ang pinaka mabait na pwede niyang maging manugang, pero hanggang ngayon ini insist niya pa din na hanggang kapatid lang talaga ang tingin niya kay Selene.

Para ngang nagkapalit pa kami ng kapatid, dahil kung super spoiled sakanya si Selene, si Zach naman sakin. In fact I am grooming him to become my prodigy for Spectrum since Selene has her own company. At 19, my brilliant sister has everyone wrapped around her pink manicured fingers.

"Wala talaga Grayson. Alam mo namang bata pa lang tayo gusto ko na talaga magkaroon ng kapatid na babae, kaya ganun na lang ang pag alaga ko diyan sa maarte mong kapatid, pati credit card ko ginagamit."

"Si Selene talaga kahit kailan. Pero, back to Thea, kailangan ko ng makausap si Selene. Alam kong naging close din sila dati ni Stella, kailangan ko ang tulong niya. Ayokong madamay pa ulit si Thea sa mga kalokohan niya."

"Next month pa ang dating ni Selene, naisahan nanaman kasi ako, nasa cruise ship siya ngayon for a month long get away. She had Beth running Allure for the time being.So, mahirap siya macontact."

"f**k. Tawagan mo si Simon pa tract mo yung cruise ship."

"Opo kamahalan."

"Gago, ilang taon ka ng nakikikain sa bahay, inuubos mo pa yung lasagna ni mom para sakin. Ngayon lang to, alam mo namang mas magaling ka sakin sa ganyang bagay, mamaya ako pa murahin mo sa maling suggestion ko."

Fuck, dapat talaga matagal na akong nakikinig sa mga turo sakin ni John para naman hindi ako helpless sa tactical s**t na pinagsasabi niya.

"Mas mahal ako ng nanay mo kaya ganun." Sabay lagok ng iniinom niya. "Asikasuhin ko muna si Lim habang hinihintay ang response ni Simon." Saludo niya sakin sabay alis ng opisina.

Fuck.

I need to see her.

Even from afar.

Napaka laki kong gago.

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