PROMISES

CHAPTER 01:The First Promise Zian's Point of View I am re-reading the letter that Gio left. 1st I want you to play that first video during may burial. Don't watch the other's just yet pag kalipas nalang lamay o kaya sa libing ko. You can watch it every second or everyday dahil alam ko naman na noon ka pa nagwa-gwapuhan saakin. I know that you keep on saying that "If only this person is not gay then he would rival Xander's handsomeness" And here am I at his burial. Nandito lahat nang kaibigan at mga mahal namin sa buhay, wala akong hindi pinalampas na imbitahin sa libing niya. Of course, Gio is loved not only by me but also by them, who wouldn't love such a great man like him?Nandito din sila Xander at Xavier at kasama din ang pamilya nila, actually, nagdadalawang isip ako kung iimbitahin ko sila but Zelo said that they should be invited because they are part of Gio's life before he passed away. But still hindi ko sila kina-kausap o pinapansin, hinayaan ko nalang ang nanay ko na asikasuhin sila dahil sila naman ang close at hindi kami.  Hindi ko pa kayang kausapin sila because.. nevermind.  Today is the last day that I; we are going to see him. The last day I could take a glimpse of my loving fiancè and I can't let those memories ruin this day.  I am standing in front of his coffin while I an holding Zelo Miguel, my son's hand. I slightly took a glimpse at my son and I can see him smiling while looking at Gio. I envy him because he's always been like that even though his father figure is already gone. He is smiling like Gio isn't gone but I know he is still hurting as well. I can also feel his pain because he loved him so much, I just wish that he will not blame anyone for this. I don't want him to feel what I felt before. I also envy him for being able to digest in his system that Gio is gone and that our tears can never bring him back to life. Which I still cant do.  I can still remember kung paano nagwala si Zelo noong nalaman niyang wala na ang Daddy Gio niya it was like it just happened yesterday. He cried and cried and he didn't even slept. He just sat beside Gio and held his hand while crying inside the morgue and I was there not knowing how to comfort my child because I was kneeling beside Gio holding his right hand while crying as well.  As days passes by Zelo Miguel started to smile again. He always kisses the picture frame with our picture together and he always plays the favorite song of Gio using the piano, he always do what Gio does when they both do when he was still alive. Lahat nang pwede kong maalala na ginagawa niya kasama si Gio ay nagagawa niyang mag-isa. It's like my son is keeping Gio alive in our house, in our lives, in our hearts by those simple things. I am proud and sad at the same time.  Because my young boy can do it, But me? I can't still smile. How can I possibly smile when I just lost the man I loved the most? How can I smile when he will be buried today? I know it is in his letter that I should smile and I will try to fulfill his wishes step by step but right now it is really hard to smile. Sabi nga nila hindi minamadali ang kaligayahan. "Mommy I know Daddy Gio is happy where he is and he will always watch over us so please don't cry anymore" - Zelo said with a sad smile on his face. I kneeled in front of him and I hugged him tight. A hug that will ease the sadness and loneliness that I am feeling right now.  "Sorry love for not being strong... sorry if I always cry at night" - I whispered and he tighten the hug. Yes, I do cry every night because at night, when everything is quiet, I can remember him hugging me until I fell asleep, telling me stories about our childhood and many more.  "I understand you mommy don't worry. I know we can move on from this and be happy for Daddy Gio and for our sake as well" - he said and I gave him a sad yet reassuring smile. My son is really a big boy now, he can perfectly say those comforting words. He is comforting me rather than me comforting him.  Can you see Zelo, Gio? He is just turning five but did you just hear what he had said? I can't believe that he is already like that. He is indeed a prodigy.  "Please settle down and take your seats as we watch a video from Mr. Gio Quinto given to his Fiancè Ms. Zian Montoya" - I heard the emcee I hired said and we took our seats. Hawak hawak ko padin ang kamay ng anak ko at inalalayan ko siya hanggang sa makaupo kami sa aming pwesto. I nod my head to the emcee and as if on cue the video started playing. And right there in the big screen, I can see my fiancè's handsome face and I can't help but to sadly smile when I noticed that he may made the video just recently. Unexpectedly before he could even open his mouth and say something, my tears rolled down from my eyes at naramdaman ko nalang ang paghawak ni Zelo sa mga kamay ko. Ganito na ba talaga kagrabe ang pagkamiss ko sa'yo? Hi! I am Gio Quinto! Uhmm siguro nagtataka kayo kung bakit ko ginawa ang video na to no? Simply because for the woman I loved the most! Dapat sana sa kasal namin to ipapalabas pero alam ko naman na walang mangyayaring kasal. I already expected my death, well kaya sabi ko kay Zian ipalabas niya to during my burial at wag niya munang papanoorin para mas dama niya ang umiyak but don't get me wrong I hate seeing her cry, it kills me seeing her cry kaya kung may mag paiyak man kay Zian mumultuhin ko! Ang ibig sabihin ko lang naman doon ay dapat ipunin niya muna ang luha niya para isahang bagsak lang diba? Bongga! He said at napatawa ako nang mahina. Siraulo ka talaga Gio nagawa mo pang magpatawa! I can't believe that I can hear that gay voice of his once again. I never thought that it's already been years since he changed into his original gender.  I think some of you are thinking how did I fell in love with someone like Zian Montoya? Fact check she is Zian Gomez first before she became a Montoya. So let us continue *ehem* First things first let me clarify something. Si Zian Gomez o Zian Montoya ay hindi naman talaga sexy or hot. Wait! I am the only one that can call her that! *ehem* Anyways, she is actually chubby and our schoolmates call her Miss Piggy since our elementary days pero guranteed na maganda talaga siya hindi lang maganda kundi matalino! Ang cute kaya ng pisngi niya noong bata pa! He said at halos malaglag ang panga ko ng biglang lumabas sa screen ang ilang pictures namin simula elementarya. And those pictures can clearly show how fat I was and how gay he is.  "Mommy you're so cute when you are little and oh I can't believe that we look alike! " - rinig kong sabi naman ni Zelo dahilan para mahinang mapatawa ako. Indeed, he and I quite have the similarities in our facial features. Sa mga hindi nakakakilala saakin,  I am Gio Quinto a simple guy watching Zian from afar since elementary. Actually, alam nang mga magulang ko na may gusto ako kay Zian, of course, I am quite the honest kid so I never hid anything from them. *ehem* Except for this one though, so going back. Gusto nga nilang i-arrange marriage ako kay Zian at a very young age pero umayaw ako kasi sabi ko sa sarili ko. I will make that woman fall for me because of my formal and cool ways.  Way back 6th grade ayaw ni Zian na may lumalapit sakanyang lalaki because she thinks guys are just the same, you know bullies. Lagi kasi siyang binubully at inaasar na baboy. At ako naman pinagtatanggol ko siya pero patago lang, shy type kasi ako eh. He said which made me frown. Shy type? Hindi ako naniniwala dahil napaka walang hiya niya kaya lalo na noong naging bakla siya! I can still remember how he can fight those girls during high school and college days to defend me.  Again, going back. *ehem* Syempre natakot din naman akong lumapit noon at medyo natotorpe nadin kasi nga baka iwasan niya ako dahil 'LALAKI' ako. Pero one thing is for sure hindi ako nahihiya dahil may gusto ang isang gwapong katulad ko sa isang chubby na maganda na matalino na babae. Handang-handa akong ipagsigawan na gusto ko siya at dahil sa kagustuhan ko na mapalapit sakanya at para nadin mabawasan ang mga nagkakagusto saakin ng mga pangit na babae at  para nadin siguradong pag naging kami ay wala siyang pag seselosan ay nagpanggap akong bilang isang BAKLA. Gulat kayo no? When he suddenly said that with his famous gay gesture, I automatically let out a chuckle. This man.. seriously.. he really keeps on making me laugh.