The Alpha of My Life

Chapter 11 - Depths of mind

"She was walking. The pain in her feet was so bad that was making a big effort just to walk. She looked a little bit at her feet and her stomach tightened. They were swallowed and red because of the blood. Walking through the big snow was not a help. She was having shivers from all over her body and she wasn't sure if she would continue to go like this or would fall right there on the spot and end with such a cruel life. Rose was confused by the fact that she knew it was her who was walking, but on the other hand, she was feeling so strange. It was like the body was hers, but it wasn't. She closed her eyes while walking in the small steps just to make the strange thoughts go away. She looked in the windy storm that was just getting started to see if she could see a house or something that she could use as a shelter for the night. At some point, she arrived near a road. Full of hope she looked for someone to pass and help her but nothing was seen on the horizon. This last deception left her unable to continue with the walk. She collapsed in the middle of the road ready to die. She closed her eyes, feeling how the coldness was entering deep inside her body, making her harder and harder to breathe. She wasn't even shaking anymore, and she knew for a fact that she was almost in the arms of death. She was ready to die when she started to hear some noises near her head. Her first thought was that the other side was having some strange noises like she was already dead, but taking her last strength and rising a little bit her head, she saw some shapes like humans, running toward her.

" Oh child," she heard, " what happened to you?" and after this, she blacked out.

She was not moving. She was afraid that if she will start to move, all the pain in her bones will come back. She waited and inhaled. She felt the sweetest smell that she had done in a long time, coffee! She was sure that she was hungry, but the coffee would beat anything. She tried with her eyes closed, to guess where she was. The first thing she noticed was that there was a warmth covering her, like some gentle arms squeezing her softly. No pain, no cold. Only blessing. She was truly afraid to open her eyes and realize this was only a dream. She forced herself to check if there was a noise. Nothing. Slowly she opened her eyes and she could bearly see because of the tears that were gathering in her eyes. She could not remember what happened to her, but she knew for a fact that there was a long time since she was in a room with a bed, with her being in the bed. She tried to hold her tears but was incapable of doing that. While fighting with her emotions, she heard an amused humming coming towards her room. She closed her eyes fast and held her breath before she could hear the door open, but her heart jumped from her chest when it opened. An explicable fear started to cover her chest like there was something awful ready to happen. She was feeling the urge to cover herself but it was childish and she knew that, so she tried to stay still.

The person entered the room and stopped the signing. Rose was holding her breath and then she heard a woman's laughter. The laughter seemed vague, known. Now she was intrigued.

" You can open your eyes, child. I can see your lashes battery like butterfly wings." the woman said laughing.

Rose decided to open her eyes and waited to see the woman in her face because she was turned around. The woman turned and Rose was speechless. ' Mom!' her heart screamed, but it couldn't be. It looked so similar, but somehow she was different. Her entire figure was full of vitality and health, so different than how her mother was in the last days before her cancer took her away. A second time in just a few minutes she started again to cry.

The woman approached her and started to caress her forehead, with mercy in her eyes,

" Don't cry, child. Everything will be ok. You and your baby will be fine."

Gry was going up and down, not feeling well. It was almost sunrise and he was incapable of sleep. It was maybe the first time since he could remember, that he wasn't able to sleep. If he would close his eyes he kept seeing that dreadful look on Rose's pale face, and what was worst, like he was feeling deeply, that this was not the first time that he would see her like that. He was concerned, and scared. The rest of his dreams were black shades that he wasn't able to give a contour. It was driving him crazy.

" I have never said that I will get the day when I won't see you snoring like a bear, at this time of the morning."

Gray turned to his friend with a dreadful look in his eyes, but he wasn't impressed.

" Shouldn't you make breakfast or coffee, or something?"

Scott started to laugh as he was going to the kitchen to prepare himself a coffee.

" Are you willing to risk your life to eat something made out of my hands?"

In other circumstances, they would play with words over and over again, but now he was too confused and exhausted.

" Did her friend say something about the girl?"

Scott raised an eyebrow and asked him,

" If you are so worried for her, why the hell didn't you go personally to her door to ask about her health?"

Gray swallowed his words. How could he explain that he was feeling guilty, like somehow was his fault that she was like that? And how can he explain that he knew that because he was feeling to its core that it wasn't the first time he was seeing her, although it was?

He shook his head trying to arrange back his thoughts because he was feeling like soon he will lose his mind.

Scott changed his voice, now in a genuinely concerned one,

"Are you feeling ok?"

Gray turned his back to him, trying to go into his room, waving his hand,

" I am ok, I didn't sleep well. Let me recover and in two hours I will be like new. " So it was hoping.