My Plus-size Love

Chapter 14

It all felt like a dream as I unlocked my door when getting back from the date. My head was still spinning thinking about the events that just happened. It all keeps playing in a loop in my head and I am surprised that I was even able to drive home safely. On one hand, I want to leave and never turn back because of the lying, but on the other, it is undeniable that we have a connection and I find myself wanting to go back to the restaurant so I can spend more time getting to know him. I sighed and threw down my keys on the counter and threw myself on my bed. This is a conversation I need to have with Angela. First, I need to make sure it is okay with Derek that I tell her about us.

C- I hate to bother you but I wanted to make sure it was okay that I talked about us to Angela. I won’t tell her anything that you don’t want me to. I just need someone to vent to and to help me sort my feelings out.

D- I understand Clarissa, that’s what I use my friends for as well. Do you trust her to keep this a secret?

C- Absolutely, I know I could trust her with anything.

D- Okay, I trust your judgment. I hope she can help you figure out how you feel about us. I am so happy to be able to have met you tonight and I desperately want it to be the first of many nights together. You are a beautiful soul, and I can’t wait to grow together as a couple and get to know one another.

C- I just need some time to think. I can give you a call tomorrow. Are you free for the weekend?

D- Unfortunately, I do have to work because, like I said earlier, we are behind schedule. The only thing I lied about is who I am, everything else is the truth. I can give you a call as soon as I am free, if that is, okay?

C- Of course, I have nothing that I need to get done this weekend. I mostly need to catch up on more sleep, so that is all I have planned so far. I hope that you do good work tomorrow. Try not to think about this too much. All the feelings that I have developed for you so far are still there. I told you already there would be nothing that would make me not want to be with you. I just don’t like that this relationship has started with a lie. I am happy that I got to meet you today. It is just a lot to take in all at once.

D- I would be more shocked if you didn’t react this way, so it is perfectly understandable. I hope you get a good night’s rest; I will message you tomorrow as soon as I am free. Sleep well and have good dreams. Try to dream about me!

I chuckled at his last message and texted him my goodnights. Now I just have to call Angela. I don’t know how this is going to go down.

“Oh Leo, I wish I could just go to sleep and worry about all this tomorrow. This is such a headache.” Leo lazily looked over at me but, as usual, had no reaction. I reached down and gave him a scratch behind the ear and soon as I was done, he ran away to watch traffic through the window. Sometimes I am jealous, I wish I could be a cat and only worry about if I am going to take a nap in the sun or scratch a post. I shouldn’t delay this any longer, I need to message Angela.

C- Hey are you busy?

A- No, is everything okay? How is the dinner date going?

C- I have already left.

A-What!?

Before I could even respond, my phone lit up with an incoming call from Angela.

“Hello?” I felt so nervous having to tell her about what happened.

“What the heck happened? You only just left thirty minutes ago. Was it a catfish? Did he do something to you? Are you okay?” Her voice got more desperate with every question. I couldn’t help but chuckle at how worried she was over me.

“Angela, I am fine; this is a lot more complicated than I had ever imagined that it would be.” I then began to tell her everything that happened with Derek from start to finish. I even told her about the brief but amazing kiss that we shared just before we went our separate ways.

“What!? Your boytoy is the Derek Hyland? Are you kidding me? You’re not pulling my leg, are you?”

“No, I am serious, trust me, I am more shocked than you are. I can’t figure out what his game plan is. He had to have known that he was going to have to tell me sooner or later. I feel like he was expecting me to just accept it because of his status, but I am far from that kind of person. A lie is a lie, no matter which way you look at it. It is a horrible way to start off.”

“I am not trying to take his side or anything, but I am sure that he didn’t think that way of you. If he did think that, then he wouldn’t have rushed to meet you so soon. You were even surprised at how quickly he wanted to see you. I am sure he could tell what a wonderful person you are and knew that he could trust you with his secret. Just imagine what you would have said when you first started talking to him if he had tried to tell you who he is. If anything, you would think he was a lying weirdo and would have wanted nothing to do with him, so in that regard, I can understand why he would lie.”

“Yeah, you are right, I would think he was one of those crazy guys and I would have stopped talking to him immediately. I would have had to see it to believe it. Heck, I even met him, and I am still finding it hard to believe.”

“See! I understand why you are upset, but you should look at it from his point of view. He seemed so nervous about having to expose himself to you like that. Poor guy, he can’t even be open about the way he feels when it comes to the people he wants to be with. In some ways, you guys are a lot alike. Afraid to be yourselves and exposing the intimate details of yourself. It is only made worse because he is a public figure who has his entire life picked apart by complete strangers who know nothing about him.”

“This is even more of a reason to not be with him then. How can I be with someone who is that famous? Then I will have so many jealous people that will judge everything about me and hate me since I am fat and ugly.”

“You are so lucky that I am not in the room with you right now or I would smack your head until you get it through your thick skull that you are not fat or ugly. Even Derek Hyland, the most handsome and sought out guy in Hollywood today, thinks you are beautiful. If you don’t believe him, then who will you believe? I swear I wish you could see yourself like the people in your life see you.”

“I’m sorry Angela, it has just been a crazy night. I don’t know if I want to get involved with him.”

“Is it the only thing that is holding you back because of who he is? Do you still feel the same about him as you did this morning?”

“Well yeah, I do, it took everything I had to leave him at the restaurant. I wanted to sit back down and talk to him more, but I was afraid that my emotions would take over without me thinking this through logically.”

“So why are we still having this conversation? If you like him, give him a shot. What is the worst that can happen? You guys just need to be careful and not let the public know about you yet. If they do, it can put a strain on your relationship, and you should only be out when you guys are ready for it.”

“Your right, thank you Angela.”

“Now that we worked this out, when do I get to meet Derek!?” I laughed and shook my head. This is one of the reasons why she is my best friend. She can take any situation and make me feel better about it and by the end of it I always end up laughing.