Loving you I lost myself

Chapter 8

Noah's POV

After Elaine had left I sat on the beach, not understanding what I just did.

I mean I didn't plan on kissing her, but the way she looked at me and the way my name sounded coming from her mouth, god damit I couldnt help it.

Damit, was that her first kiss?

Is that why she is upset?

What di did I just do...

I sat on the beach for a about 20 minutes

Than it hit me.

What if she told mom, what the f**k am I going to say.

As soon as the realization hits me I get up and start running back home.

When I reach I can hear comation from the lounge.

I can't make out if it's and argument or just some random talking so I brace my self.

As I entered I don't see Elaine, but I see mom and uncle Dan not arguing but talking very loud cheering for their football game.

I feel kind of relieved I thought Elaine would definitely come tell mom since she was quite upset about that kiss.

I mean she even said she wasn't one of those sluts I f****d.

O dam another realization hit me.

She knows about my wild day in high school.

Well... so much for making a good first impression.

I head upstairs straight to my bedroom.

I decided to go shower.

I opened the door...

Elaine was definitely in this bathroom before me, I can still smell the Jasmine scent hanging in the air, how sexy her scent is.

I come to a sweet realization, I would see and smell her every day from now on...

Thats definitely a bright side to this weird day.

I finish up and head back down for dinner.

When I enter the kitchen everyone is sitting down already.

I notice that Elaine isn't paying any attention to her surroundings at all so I managed to slip into the kitchen and sit right in front of her.

I really just want to look at her just for a few seconds.

But when Elaine noticed me sitting in front of her I can sense she isn't comfortable, but now she even wants to run away from me...

Just my luck.

I look down at my plate.

When she actually doesn't get up but decided to finish her food, I feel relieved.

I look at her and she seems to see my sincere feelings.

Maybe there is still some hope for me?

Who knows...

She finished much sooner than expected and I watch her disappear up the stairs.

I finish my food, and as I'm about to get up I notice mom smiling at me like she had just found one of my secrets.

I mean mom doesn't really know what I was up to back in my school days only that I was a hot trob, so it's safe to say it's definitely something els.

I'm about to leave.

"Soooo... Noah, is there anything you would like to tell me...?"

Before I can think of an answer my mouth moved on it's own.

"what?, no.!"

I can feel the sweat on my forhead and feel my ears also heating up.

Fuck I'm so dead.

"are you sure,?

I don't hesitate

" I'm sure. "

She clears her throat

" maybe like what's going on with you and Elaine.?"

As soon as I hear her name I feel like I can't breath.

I look up at mom in utter shock.

Did Elaine really say something about earlier?

If she did than why did mom wait till we were alone to ask this question.

" what do u mean me and Elaine? "

" nothing is going on"

I don't know if she could hear the stress in my voice but I hope to god she didnt.

Mom does seem to convinced.

"So than as soon as you came to eat she was just not feeling well, hey?"

"does that make any sense to you?"

I can hear the mock in moms voice but I really dont know what to say.

"I guess she just doesn't like the sight of me?"

I say shrugging my shoulders, hands facing palm's up.

Before I can even try to escape,mom continues...

"Well what ever is going on Noah, I hope you can be a bit patient when it comes to Elaine, she isn't the type of girl that you are used to my boy. And if you haven't realized you guys just met... Sooo.."

I look at mom in utter shock again now realizing she must know exactly what I was upto in high school, and she must have told Elaine as well.

Was she some kind of spy, or did she have someone keep tabs on me.

" Mom, look what ever you think is going on sure as hell isn't. "

"I just went to talk to her and thats it, noting els."

" and yes, just like you said, I do realize we just met..."

Mom gives me a smile than gets up and putts all the dishes in the kitchen.

I turn on my heals and head straight up to my room.

In my room I lay on my bed thinking about what my mom had just said.

Mom was right.

Elaine isn't like the girls I'm used to.

She is pure.

She hasn't even been kissed.

My kiss doesn't count.

That kiss was like... A dream...

She is very shy, kind, untrusting and a loner.

So it will be hard getting her to trust me.

I lay on my bed thinking about how to go about it.

How do I get the girl I love to love me back.

I think I must start with an apology, that will be best.

Yes, tomorrow morning first things I'll do is apologize to her.

With that in mind I turn to my side and try to sleep.

Beep, beep, beep

My alarm sounds 5:45

This is my routine

Every morning I go jogging and since I came back to live my normal life once more I will start with that.

I get up and find my d**k as hard as hell.

Dam, what the fuck...

I can't live like this, 2days... Thats my no s*x tolerance.

I really need a docter...

Ignoring my boner I head to the batroom.

As I open my room door Elaine is standing infront of me, she just came back from jogging it seems.

She is wearing a training bra and black waist high tights.

The sweat is still dripping down her chest and into her bra.

I feel my hard boner, hardening even more.

She looks at me and with out a second glance heads straight to the shower.

Locking the door behind her.

I stand there stunned for a few seconds before returning back to my room.

I sit on my bed, super frustrated.

I look at the buldge in my boxers.

Now I need to do something about it .

Dropping my boxers I open the drawer of my side table grabbing some s*x lubricant and squirter a bit in my hand.

I place my hands at the end of my shaft making sure to rub the gel al over my hard d**k.

I slowly start pumping up and down increasing in my rhythm and speed, the image of Elaine's body dripping with sweat earlier pops into my mind and I feel my d**k pulsing hard, I start thinking about that kiss and her scent, the way she said my name, imaging her under me trusting into her....

Fuck it feel so good...

Aaaa

I feel like Im about to c*m, but I don't want to...

Before I could control the impulse

I feel myself explode.

Slowing my hands I still jurk a bit before completely stoping.

Cum dripping all over my thigh.

I open my eyes and look down at the mess I made.

I can't believe she already has this effect on my body.

Yet now I hope to god Elaine is finish in the shower.

I grab a tissue and trying cleaning the mess.

I heard a door slam shut and at that I run to the shower. When im done I head down.

Once I reach the kitchen,

I see Elaine sitting at the kitchen table scrolling trough her phone, seeing she is alone I head straight to her.

When I reached her I was mute, AGAIN.

She looks up at me.

"what.?"

"do you have something to say?"

I sigh deeply just thinking about what just happened in my room.

If I want that to actually happen...

"I'm sorry about yesterday."

I say, trying to sound sincere.

We lock eyes.

Than...

She smiled at me.

Thank god....

I sigh, I'm feeling quite relieved ,thinking...

Maybe this isn't going to be so hard.

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