Mental Disorder Series 3: Sinful Touch

Chapter 10

Chapter 10 | ST

Umalon ng paulit-ulit 'yung adams apple niya sa lalamunan. Pakiramdam ko nanunuyot 'yung lalamunan ko habang pinagmamasdan siya. His defined jaw was clenching as he took a sniff on my sweet vanilla scent that made him crazy even more.

"Kyla..." he whispered.

Until a sudden call from Bj was caught our attention. His name popped up from the screen and my eyes widened when I forgot to reply to him or tell him to call me. Mabilis siya dumistansya sa akin at nagtungo na ako sa vanity table para kunin 'yung phone ko.

Nang masagot ko 'yun ay nakita ko ang magkasalubong na kilay ni Bj at nakasuot siya ng corporate attire. Nang masilayan niya ako ay nanlambot 'yung ekspresyon niya tila nakahinga siya ng maluwag. Now I remember how he ghosted me for a day without even trying to update me at all.

Nagtungo ako sa teresa para magkaroon ako ng privacy. Sinarado ko 'yung sliding door at umupo na ako sa upuan. Hindi ko alam kung ano pa ba ang maririnig kong dahilan ni Bj.

"Hi, babe. I miss you," he cooed. He smiled at me in full sunshine. "Sorry na, babe. I am f****d up so I am sorry."

I rolled my eyes at him. "Hindi mo na ba ako mahal?"

"Mahal! Mahal kita, Kyla!" he said, panicking. Umayos siya ka agad ng upo sa kaniyang swivel chair. "Kaya nga nags-sorry ako sa'yo kasi sobrang busy ko at nawala sa utak ko na naghihintay ka pala."

"You were not like that the last time you visited the Philippines," I replied without a hint of emotion. I felt the numbness fill my veins every time I remember that he is now forgetting me.

He pinched the bridge of his nose. "I'm sorry, babe. Can you forgive me?"

"Nakakalimutan mo na ako, Bj. Sa tingin mo ba natutuwa ako marinig sa'yo na nakakalimutan mo ako dahil busy ka?"

"I was very busy, babe."

"Sobrang busy ka naman noon pero nakukuha mo pa rin ako i-update afterwards! Damn you, Bj!"

Yumuko siya at kita ko ang guiltiness sa kaniyang mukha. Ibang iba na ngayon si Bj at ilang beses niya na ito ginawa ngayon. Kaya hindi ko alam kung ipagpapatuloy ko pa ba ang relasyon namin pero mahal ko pa rin siya e. Nahihirapan ako ngayon dahil sa nangyayari sa aming dalawa.

"I love you, babe. Mahal na mahal kita," usal nito sa malambing tono. "I'm very sorry, Kyla."

"Can we take a break?" I suggested. Siguro it is the best way for us to focus on our goal for now. Alam kong siya lang ang inaasahan ng kaniyang magulang when it comes to their business. "If you are busy for now, while I'm focusing on my work too. I want us to take a break for a while."

"Babe... don't leave me."

I huffed. "I'm sorry, Bj. Maybe we'll meet again after you come here with me in Florida."

"Kyla, I want to marry you. Please don't leave me. I love you so much, babe. Huwag muna."

"Bj..."

"Please? Huwag tayo maghiwalay, babe. Yes, we can focus on our work without breaking our relationship. Please? I will update you kahit busy ako. Babawi ako," he pleaded. Kung nandito lang siya ay yayakapin niya ako ng mahigpit.

"Fine. We'll talk once you go home."

He smiled in victory. "Thank you, babe. I love you!"

I ended our video call through Facetime. Sumandal ako sa backrest at pinagmasdan na lang 'yung magandang view. Kaya hindi bumigat ang dibdib ko kasi ang sarap pakiramdam ang pagmasdan 'yung dagat. Napanguso ako at iniisip ko kung ano ang pwede kong gawin ngayon.

Napatingin ako sa swimming pools na sa gilid meron mga babaeng naka two piece na nakahiga sa sun lounge. Napangisi ako na gusto ko rin maligo sa swimming pool o sa dagat! Pumasok ako sa loob at nakita ko na nakaupo lang si Cadence sa kama. His eyes are very intense and very dark.

"Hi, Cadence," I greeted. Lumapit ako sa kaniya at sinakop 'yung mukha niya. "Pwede ba ako magswimming ngayon? Samahan mo ako!"

He lifted up his eyebrow. "Did you bring your rashguard?"

"Rashguard?! Of course not! I will wear a red two piece!"

He scowled. "No, Kyla Adrianna."

"Please Cadence? You can go with me if men will look at my body."

Mas lalo dumilim 'yung mukha niya na sabihin ko 'yun tila hindi siya natutuwa sa kaniyang narinig. Ganito talaga kami ni Cadence lalo na kapag pupunta kami ng beach with our family. Bumuntong hininga na lang siya mukhang walang magagawa dahil gustong-gusto ko talaga.

"Make it fast, Kyla," he hissed.

Dahil sa tuwa ko ay hinalikan ko siya sa pisnge at mabilis ko hinalungkat 'yung duffel bag ko. I rummaged through my things to find my red bikini could make any man drool at me. And I felt Cadence's stare penetrate within me. Well, wala naman siya magagawa kasi mahal niya naman ako e.

Nang pumunta ako sa bathroom para magpalit, naglagay na ako ng sunblock sa katawan ko. Parang gusto ko na ibalik 'yung totoong kulay ko talaga. My real skin is like snow. I have the same skin pigment because of my mother with her white crystal skin and her cheeks blush naturally. We are really a mestiza.

Nang makalabas na ako ng bathroom ay nakita ko dumapo 'yung mata ni Cadence sa katawan ko. His adam's apple bobbled up and down. He looks like an angry beast who wants to feast on his prey playing in front of him.

"Let's go, Cadence," anyaya ko.

Tinanguan niya lang ako habang nakasimangot. Napahagikhik ako sa kaniyang reaksyon dahil ang cute niya maging protective Tito sa akin. Hindi naman nagtagal ay napadpad na kami sa pool. Mga lalaki ay bigla napatingin sa akin at ramdam ko 'yung init sa mata nila.

Hmp! Men really love red which makes them turn on.

"They are f*****g staring at you," he stated. He was really irritated because I am wearing a two piece of cloth that hides my private area. "I will f*****g carry you on my shoulder and lock you in our suite."

I giggled. "Calm down, Cadence. We went here to relax, okay?"

He rolled his eyes at me. Naglakad kami sa infinity pool at nakita ko 'yung mga babae na may pagnanasa ang tingin kay Cadence. I glared at them. Bakit ba nila pinagp-piyestahan si Cadence sa harapan ko!

"They are looking at you, too!" I hissed.

The side of his lips lifted up. "Edi pagdamot mo ako ngayon."

"Gustong-gusto mo naman? Hmp! Kaya patay na patay sa'yo si Zora e."

The frown on his face faded away as I glared at him. He really likes the attention of women who drools at him and beg Cadence. His messy hair and perfect structure of his face makes him hot and attractive. Women's weaknesses.

"I thought we went here to relax?" he said, mockingly.

"Shut up, will you?" I replied.

"Fine. We can head back to our suite if you don't want women gawking at me."

"Huh! You're a conceited jerk!"

Nagtungo ako sa beach para doon na lang ako maligo sa tubig alat. I was walking on the seashore as I felt the cold sea water hit my feet. I felt the softness of the sand as I landed my feet on it. Until I saw some starfish laying on the seafloor. The nature was very beautiful.

Hanggang sa pumantay ng lakad sa akin si Cadence habang nakasimangot 'yung mukha niya sa pag-iwan ko sa infinity pool. Naiinis talaga ako kapag may mga babae na nakatingin sa kaniya! Basta para siya kay Zora.

"Are you my bodyguard or what?" I snapped. Hindi niya ako sinagot kundi nirolyo niya 'yung mata niya sa akin habang nakahalukipkip. Hindi ko na lang siya pinansin kundi nagpatuloy lang ako maglaro sa tubig hanggang sa may isang blonde na babaeng lumapit sa kaniya.

"Hi! Can I get your name?"

Huminto si Cadence at hinarap niya 'yung isang babae na sexy at kulay blonde ang buhok. I checked on her and it looked like her lips were just made out of fillers. And her boobs are not that wiggling because it is made out of doctors. Eww.

"I'm Cadence..." nakipagkamayan siya sa babaeng plastic.

"Nice to meet you, Cadence. I am Goergina."

"Likewise, Goergina."

"Are you busy tonight? I would like to hang out with you in the bar."

"Uh..." he trailed off. I raised my eyebrow at them. Pinagkrus ko 'yung kamay ko sa dibdib at mukhang natutuwa pa si Cadence makipag-usap sa isang plastic na babae! "Can I ask for permission from my wife? She is standing behind me if you don't mind."

The woman was too stunned to speak when he mentioned his wife. The f**k! Nilingon ako ni Cadence habang may ngisi sa kaniyang labi. Hinila niya ako palapit kay Georgina na napasimangot sa akin. I'm going to slap her plastic face!

"She's Kyla, my wife," Cadence introduced.

"O-Okay..." napalunok si Georgina at binaling niya ulit 'yung tingin kay Cadence. "I'm sorry about that. Nice to meet you again."

Nang mawala na sa paningin namin si Georgina ay hinampas ko 'yung braso niya. Napanguso ako na matigas 'yun. Humalakhak si Cadence at inakbayan niya na ako papunta ulit sa beach. Grabe pinakilala niya akong asawa sa babae na 'yun!

"Yuck! I'm not your freaking wife!" I whined.

"It is better that way. Hindi ako tatantanan no'n like your best friend."

"She is better than Zora!"

He sighed. "It doesn't matter. They don't even match the woman in my heart."

We watched the sunset as we sat in the sun lounge. The sky is very spectacular as the sunset rolled down from the horizon. The sky is painted with gloomy blue while the clouds are pink which makes it more beautiful. Nakangiti lang ako habang tinatanaw ang magagandang tanawin.

"The view is beautiful, isn't it?" I asked. Napansin ko na mapungay na nakatitig sa akin si Cadence. Natatamaan ng sinag ng sunset 'yung mukha niya habang hindi niya tinatanggal 'yung titig niya sa akin.

"Sobra," he replied shortly.

Hanggang sa napansin namin si Mrs. Hamilton na nakatingin sa gawi namin. Tumayo ako at mabilis ko hinatak si Cadence para ipakilala ko sa board members ng kumpanya ni Miss La Farell. Mas lalo humigpit 'yung hawak sa akin ni Cadence nung papalapit na kami sa kaniya.

"Hi, Mrs. Hamilton!" I greeted. Ngunit nakatingin lang si Madame Melanie kay Cadence at nakatitig lamang sila sa isa't-isa. "I would like to introduce you to my uncle. His name is Cadence Ryder Hamilton."

Melanie gulped. "I know him."

"Wow! It's great, then!"

"Yeah... great. Ingat kayong dalawa. Same to you, Cadence."

"Okay," si Cadence.

Parang wala sa sarili si Cadence na makabalik kaming dalawa sa suite. Tulala lang siya habang nakahiga sa kama. He was just staring at the ceiling blankly after he met Mrs. Hamilton. He is behaving different right now, kung kanina ay nagagawa niya pa makipag biruan sa akin ngayon wala na siya sa sarili.

I want to get inside of his mind. To read the secrecy within his book. To understand how dark his life is so I could make it better. I am freaking concerned and I don't really know what to do.

"Cadence," I called.

"Hmm?" hindi niya ako tinitingnan at nanatili lamang siya nakatitig sa kisame. Huminga ako ng malalim at humiga na ako kasama siya. Niyakap ko siya ng mahigpit para alam niya na nandito rin ako para sa kaniya. "Kailan tayo uuwi sa condo natin?"

"Bukas ng umaga, bakit?" I probed.

He shook his head. "Nothing. I want to go home already."

"Pwede ko ba malaman? Diba love mo ako? Will you please tell me?"

"I want to go home. Kapag nandito pa rin ako, mababaliw lang ako."

Marahan ako tumango. "I understand. Ano ba nangyari?"

"My past is slowly hunting me..." usal nito sa mababang tono. Pinikit niya 'yung mata niya at nararamdaman ko 'yung mahigpit na pagkuyom ng kamay niya. "Let me get out of here, Kyla."

Niyakap ko siya ng mahigpit at ang sarap sa pakiramdam na malapit ako sa kaniya. Hanggang sa naramdaman ko yung mainit na likido na tumulo sa akin. I gazed at him and saw his brooded eyes were bloodshot. He was just staring at the ceiling while silently crying with me. 

Parang pinipiga 'yung puso ko habang pinapanood siya. He looks fragile and lost right now. His world become too dark. His lips were quivering as he let his tears fell from his eyes.