reality stricks,,,,now or never are we fine or thinks are going for the worst
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i closed my eyes for a while,i was very tired,couldnt feel my body or the pain i went through, my mother woke me up you need to go take a bath i look at her with discarding eyes,like really you dont like me mother,the kids what to see you are you fine, yes mother call then in,chantelle eyes was swollen from crying i could tell,mommy are you ok,iam sorry about everything, not now please chantelle not now,i was on the rollercoaster ride with no stop,pls stop stop,the doctor come in and say its enough for today come tommrw shes still tired and need a rest,that afternoon,i couldn't eat i was going through thinks i didnt understand, i need water pls,the nurse say you need to keep up your strength eat pls for the twins sake, i sayed no no who are you to tell me what to do,you dont even now me and i will only take one kid if iam ready,the lady councilor say hi iam sara from the department of adoption of newborns, she had forms in her hand,whats your name does it metter i responded, where do i sighed, my mothers voices saying,ull answer to God,you cannot do that pls,think this through its a boy and a girl atleast look at them you didnt see them pls she was backing....i sit still with no words in my mouth holding a pen, the doctor say can we bring the babies for you madam,i sayed ok lets gets this over with pls,,,,the other kids where standing on the doorway,holding each others hands,i didnt need all this sympathy from noone,babies are here welcome welcome, they stared to sing....are they mine of hes ,he didnt want any kid again so,i didnt make them alone.whos gona feed two more mouth i cant even feed the others no ,God no why are you not fair to me dont i pray enough,iam in a dark place .......
i looked at the down and here they where look do guiet and beautiful,laying next to each other ,they where perfect how could i have them away they are mine,i need to put my energy of the one iam left with in them ,and the others
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