reality checks, its can get beter ,i can do this
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iam waiting mother them to come pick me up from the hospital iam discharged, they are beautiful awoman in the taxi sayed,are they twins ,yes madam its a blessing from God,twins means God loves you she smiled,i sayed i hope iam already having 3 and with the twins 5 ,mother was waiting at the gate before we go in the inlaws and the kids father is here .what she took the boy twin and went infront,i cume with miracle the baby girl behind i already named her in my mind,i went straight to the room course i couldnt walk properly,can you lay the twins down and come to the kitchen for a min pls mother shouted,afternoon i sayed everybody was happily spoken,but the kids father was disgusted i could see ,i now him i stay 9 years with him i should now him beter,actually best.the mother sayed we come to take you back to your home with the kids ,does he want us to cume back or you guys are doing this becourse its a good think to do,since hes saying nothing, finaly he sayed iam doing this for the kids sake pls grow up and stop making thinks about yourself your weak,what iam weak you saying i not weak all this iam doing is for my kids to have a good life since you can provide for them,so dont call me weak.....what about the twins the lasttime we spoke thay where not yours,he stood up go pack iam waiting in the car.
mother i sayed i cannot go pls dont let me ,ill look for a job and take care of the kids pls she shouted go pack you got merried i myself have alot to deal with and you are making thinks worse my boyfriend doesnt want to come visit since your kids are always making a noise,go back to your home,mother chantelle is having a problem, she sayed i now but thats your problem not myne go sort your problem with your husband, it was asif the walls where closing up on me i could see properly course of the tears in my eyes,
i sitted behind with the kids in the car,it was very uncomfortable for me but i didn't want to complain he was already angry,i felt asif the stitches where opening it was so painful i told chantelle, i need to lean back she must take both the twins iam not feeling well,where the pack chantelle where my medication is iam paining he look through the front mirror of the car whats going on ,nothing it was a long painful drive, but the painkiller atleast knock me out for few hours, the twins slept through the whole drive ,
we home baby boy say i mis my friend and my games he run in the flat,i was help by chantelle to get into the house since daddy dearest only took both the twins,mother are you ok will go through this i sayed you still young and dont need to take care of me you have your own dramas i need to deal with stil,not now my child oneday at a time,ill be fine she made me a nace hot bath,i could swear it felt so good i didnt want to get out,the twins crying ,i feed them how small they where they weight 2.5kg both, but there voices was clear as a toddler ,
ill give you space,iam moving in with mother i dont need all this circus now i was even promoted at work and has to have a good night sleep,pls i sayed i need you,we need to talk .he walk out i stood up and followed the blood is wasting through my dress,go change yourself you look old and untidy. ok pls dont go yet pls.he sayed i mend what i say iam doing this for the kids dont get any ideas,my mother forced me to go get you not me.
i looked at the kids and my tears was running, why iam putting myself through this,where the medication chantelle i need painkiller, i took 4 ,the way chantelle looked at me pls take 2 for the twins sake i sayed they are the reason my life is falling apart,i need alchohol get me vodca now.there nothing i cleaned everything out,why chantelle you selfish like you father,she walk away,get me water then
i slept very long,as i open my eyes granny is sitted with the twins,what are you doing chantelle call,i am ok what do you want pls dont judge me get out of my house, and brink my kids before you turn them on me like you did with your son.
chantelle i need you to check the twins iam going nextdoor guickly,there was a lady selling bier frim a home,i went and take 3 biers on acc,my husband will cone pay wait she say he told me last week you guys nolonger together, unty we going through a phase pls mind your business, ill come pay tommrw i went back straight to my room,i need a glass pls,baby boy mommy iam hungry theres no sugar where did you get money to buy bier,chantelle call you father theres no sugar
baby boy leave mommy alone daddy is bringing you ice cream and cornflakes yes.he run out hes easy to manipulate. i drank nacely and felt so calm,but the pain was not getting beter i think its the cold,i went and take a steaming shower to cool off,baby daddy was sitted on the bed,with miracle ill take the couch then,and stop blaming my mother for your mistake, i moved on so please you do the same.fine i shut the door in hes face.
its 3h00am early morings hours,twins are awake both of them i sitted on the bed,headache no way its the biers i took i went to the kichen to get water to drink baby daddy talking on the phone, i love you too ill see you at work wear that dress i like,dont worry iam divorcing her then you can come stay with me.i cleared my throat hmmm and walk pass him say nothing i took the hole bottle water and went back to the room.we where like that ,we could spoke for hours till morning even he was so inlove with me,wher did i went wrong.
it was really not easy for me,everyday seeing my husband turning into this monster i didnt recognized anymore,shut up you good for nothing slap on my face ,iam buying food but the smallest meat is what iam getting.iam sorry i gave my peace to you since it was not enough ,i didn't eat myself
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