the monster i created,i couldnt stop him until ......
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chantelle is laying on the floor bleeding, i was cumming from the hospital the twins immunization, what is going on jody its my second boy name hes so guiet and very understanding, take the twins chantelle i say shes not responding,call the neighbors the man nextdoor took her to our bedroom since he was a nurse he did mouth to mouth and she was awake mother ,she sayed .no chantelle keep your strenght for the hospital,i sitted in the waiting room praying why is this happening, iam a mess of a mother.mrs swartz u can come see her but before that we need to talk she lost her baby where you aware she was pragnant, i say i notice but we didnt talk about it .i layed she doesnt want talk can you ask her what happened,
chantelle my girl,i love you so much what happened please dont lay to me,daddy was home with a younger girl almost my age
he told me to make tea for her,since shes my stepmother now,i look at the girl and say she has hands i dont think so the next moment i could feel hes shoes kicking me and he was pulling me on my hair from one room to anther i bump myself hard,what are you sure it was daddy please don't tell that to the doctors or anybody, carmly i continue you now daddy can go to jail and where are we gona go ,stop mother i wont say anything please ,chantelle you now its very serious you cannot say anything, the look on my poor daughter's face so hurt,but what should i have done
we needed him till samething good cume up,i was so disgusted by the person in me,i was supposed to protect her,but my head was playing trucks on me its ok one problem lesser,how could i think suck
its been a week no sign of daddy dearest,chantelle got discharged today,ill takd good care of you then you can go back to school and work hard for us she smiled i want to be a lawyer oneday man like daddy belong behind bars stop dont say that please is he home
no its been a week mayby hes mothers house,we fine the twins will get strong now and i look for a job ,you concentrate on getting back on your feet and back to school ok,mother will be ok dont worry you still a beautiful woman with a big hard,you neef a make over we smiled and i left the room
standing in our bedroom, i stared myself in the mirror, i lost myself to this baby making i went in our closet,my old size 24 where jeans and tops where hanging, i dress myself with in a skinny jeans and a yellow top i could remember, i comb my hair and i look good,i frlt good for a moment look at you thinking of sleeping around already,you are a mother and a wife you look so skinny,you will never look good ever,k pls Johnny its k.how could you hit our girl chantelle why.shut up fid you report me ,she has a big mouth my guess must be respected at all cost,shame on you,he cume next to me and say shut up with a slap over my face,,,
why doesn't the rain stop,and whys my sister calling me this early,hi sis mother was rush with the ambulance to the city since you nearby can
you go see her please, how serious is it,very serious she hank up,i stay in bed.the twins are getting clear face looking like daddy dearest ,very cute light of complexion, and curly hair.the smile on miracle face priceless, noah is a bit shy...i need alcohol and painkillers pls, i need them now chantelle no response, i looked in there rooms noone but daddy dearest sleeping on the couch he must have a been out,wheres the kids please.outside he pointed but its still raining.
calling my sister iam in the city, which hospital is it again,the government one in town,shes always been rude to me. where's your musk you cannot go in without it,ask the cleaner lady shes selling musk for 5d i did when i go to her room my cousins and brother them where with her,mother hi i brought you fruits, who told her to cume she ask them,shes only here for story, iam sorry mother get out of my room you witch,you brought badluck to my house ,the witch doctor told me,get out removd her nurse please, what iii,,i ,i dont now
i waited in the room,shes gone my cousin sayed what,gone where,,,she passed on jean what she'sfine when i left home ,she had cancer did nobody tell you,no i didnt now
my phone rang,you need to cume home the twins are crying, i sayed ok ,,are you ok you sound down, shes gone ,whos gone mother has passed on baby,what how,iam on my way ill be there in an hour ,i cannot breath pls open the window i cannot sit in the middle pls iam feeling suffocated pls,stop the car stop the car i want to get off,,,the driver stop i started to vomited, my head was turning ,are you ok young madam,an old lady sayed,yes mrs
mother died,i have to go home will take the twins along the you guys can come behind, i cryed the whole way home,finally we here but the twins was very uneasy crying and the temperature was sky high,iwas very confused and scared at the sametime,our own house looked like ghost house ,guiet and died.i could feel alot of vibes from mothers family members, i told my brother will take the room outside since the twins are not well and my kids and husband are on the way ,house is already full....it was not easy been back again but i promise to finish this and get back my life,since she was the one holding me back
vryday afternoon my family come,saderday we hetting ready to the funeral, i never s**t a tear i was so angry at everything and everyone around me,the world was not a fair place for me
we didnt take long,people need to come eat cake and coffie ,you are not welcome at this house anymore since mother is gone,you where never there for her we had to take care of mother alone,since you run away,my younget sibling sayed, its ok i dont want this place its a reminder of all the bad thinks happened to me,i walk away and my kids come behind me,we need to leave my husbands sayed
i had to learn everything the hard way it was a bumpy ride for me,the whole way back i was crying and he would say she was not a mother to you ,why are you even wasting your tears on her .your siblings and mother turn there backs on you years ago,ill man up and take care of you all.iam your family it felt so good hearing sameone calling me family. we reached home there was a notice letter waiting on the doorway,we where evicted with immediate effect, i can deal with this today,lets do this tommrw i need to rest my head on the pillow, just for a second need to escape to dream land...
i slept like a baby,i couldnt hear anything i died that day,i woke up in the hospital, i could hear the docters talking time of death but i could hear myself breathing it cannot not be ,iam alife pls wake me up remove the pyps in my mouth so i can talk,pls doctor iam fine i fated aways with time,my head is running wild ,i cannot stop,i went into panic attack.......
iam awake, the room is so blue what is going on nurse ,hi can i have water please hi mrs martin welcome back we losed you for a minute there, we didnt call your relatives course there's noone next to kin can i have a no pls,what whos mrs martin iam jean brankmann,,i have 5 kids and iam merried the nurse looked at me asif iam going crazy,come down mrs martin ill call the doctor for you,i stood up next to the washbin there was a mirror, whos this with my voice ohh my God,i fainted,,,
mrs martin,mrs martin you need to wake up,i opened my eyes doctor can i have a mirror pls ,your face was not hurt madam,are you aware you where in an car accident, i sayed mirror pls ok ok,nurse get her a mirror she come back i was shivering like crazy,i touch my face i look very beautiful with curl hair,i sited guiet saying nothing,we now your still dramatic so will sent you to a psychiatrist if thats ok with you the hospital is paying for the cost,youll be discard tommrw get same rest ,take your meds, i couldnt believe what was going on and the twins, my kids ,my husband did i die and come back in samebodys body,,,,,,,,
Good moring did you rest well,you look super good,my name is eve ism the psychiatrist at the hospital,can i have 5 minutes of your time,what is going on iam abit confused as iam talking my clear voice is coming out,its only the different face and body right i told here she looked at me and say what your going through is normal, you are confused abit,it will take time to recover from tommrw on the whole month youll be at my office from 12hoo she handed the card in my hand youll be fine mrs take one day at a time,your friend is here to pick you up,,,,hay lucy she sayed,,,,i looked at her excuse me who are you and whos lucy,iam jean my name is jean,the doctor sayed dint worry shes a bit confused but everything will come bsck with time since there's a little swelling at the brain,but its going down you can take her hom dont put pressure on her let her rest alot,ok she took me outside in her car
all the way shes talking non stop,how can sameone talk like her,is it even normal, ill take you to your apartment theres more safe,she sayed i ask is my kids there and my husband...lucy you are scaring me you dont have any kids or husband and your a orphan, we friend since kindergarten, your are a lawyer amd your making partners remember,,,what we here this is a fancy place and it must cost a lot of money right,dhe sayed yes you worked hard for all this,i need water or better yet samething strong.ok but let me get you water stop treating me like a kid,wheres the wine she opened the fridge, damm this gorl had it all,,,did she die what is going on,ok relax i told myself
ok lucy ,i have to go get my kid from school will you be fine,,,wht,,,,,ye yeeeee go i sayed i aalk through this flat its for rich fancy foks i yold myself i need to call my husband, i pick up the phnone and dail hes no,,its ringing halo he sayed hes voice ohh my God its him,halo whos this can i help you,i vouldnt get a word out,why i hang up,i was between the break i needed and myself time excitement followed is this all mine,iam rich yes plus dhe sayed iam a lawyer,
i opened a wine bottle went into her closet she had style all the fancy expensive cloth i could only see in the tv,i made myself a bath and had a glass of wine,i convinced myself i deserved this and the universe grand me this ehy not enjoy,i went into silky pajamas and went downstairs to sit infront of the tv,,,netflix
i was wakeup by the clock in the lounch ,it was guiet no noise,just my breathing the landline is ringing i pick it up,moring mrs martin its docter eve pls reminder not to forget our appointment at 12hoo ,ill be there and i hank up,
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