Chapter 29
1042 Words
Jia Xia
I have been thinking the whole night about what Ha-bin said yesterday.
I knew getting involved with Xavier would be a huge mistake.
If I wasn't careful he was bound to fimd out about Zain and Hayaan.
I think that would be the biggest mistake.
But deep in my heart I had some many regrets over how I left things.
I always wondered what would have happened if Xavier knew about my pregnancy.
Would he have chosen me or Bella.
Would he have chosen to go on with the game he was playing or would me being pregnant have changed anything.
I kept remembering the day I found out Bella was pregnant with his baby.
Thats was what broke my trust in him.
I was sure he was sleeping with her all those years but I was wondering if it wasn't all planned by Bella, I knew just how calculating she was.
"Mommy, Hayaan isn't giving back my cake... Mommy..."
Zain came into the kitchen crying.
"Okay baby, Hayaan... Get over here right now..."
He came in his mouth covered in cake.
"Hayaan tell me you didn't eat Zain's cake also...?"
He looked up at me guilt writing all over his face.
He had become so much more naughty since we arrived.
"Mommy, he said he didn't want it so I ate it... Its his fault for tricking me..."
I looked down at Zain.
"Zain...did you say that...?"
He started crying.
"Yes mommy, but I said that because I wanted to give it to you... You love chocolate cake... But now..."
I was so touched.
This child of mine knew so much about me.
He knew all my likes and dislikes.
He always thought about ways to make me happy.
I loved his thoughtfulness very much.
I picked him uo and called Hayaan to come closer as well.
Hayaan ran to me.
And sat on my lap as well
"Zain, Hayaan... I like alot of things, but you both are the things I love the most..."
I hugfed them and soon they were both all smiles.
I kissed them and sent them to go play.
Hayaan ran down, but Zain turned around and came back for one more kiss.
He kissed my cheek.
" Mommy.. Your my favorite thing to..! "
Awwww...
Little man, he is so sweet.
Saturday morning I went to the mall in A city.
They always had the most beautiful clothes for kids and at a much lower price.
I was walking around the mall when I saw Bella, she had a small girl in her arms.
I looked at her.
That must be Xavier's daughter.
She looked smaller compared to my boys.
He hair was blonde.
Not like my boys who had dark brown hair.
And she her skin was very light.
My boys had the same skin tone as Xavier.
Lightly tanned.
Maybe she was like Bella, i mean Bella was a redhead.
Yes she has natural red hair.
Its said her mother was a white lady.
That explained her light skin and red hair.
I thought about myself for a while.
I also had fair skin but my eyes and hair was a dark brown.
My eyes has a splash of gold but not to obvious to the passersby.
I wasn't as beautiful compared to her.
I took a deep breath and turned around.
"Jia Xia... Is that you...?"
The one voice I hated hearing called my name.
I turned around.
Bella was standing almost in font of me.
"Jia Xia... How are you... I haven't seen or heard from you in like what 6 years... I.. Um.."
I saw something different.
This wasn't Bellas Ann Jay...
She looked at me regret in her eyes.
Her voice was soft, not proud or provocative.
She was actually giving me a genuine smile.
She must be so happy being with Xavier.
Maybe thats why she changed so much.
I looked at the girl in her arms.
She took note.
" May Ling, say hi to aunt Jia Xia..."
The little girl smiled and waved.
"Hi aunty, nice to meet you..."
I smile and replied the same.
"Bella, I um... need to go, but... you look good... And your daughter is beautiful... Congratulations... I..."
She suddenly stopped me.
"Jia Xia... Im sorry..."
I was surprised.
"what did you say?"
She looked at me than suddenly hugged me.
"Im am so so sorry. Truly sorry..."
I wasn't sure how to react.
She pulled away and looked at me.
Than she picked up her daughter again and walked away.
What just happened.
I walked around the mall some more.
I was busy looking through the boys clothes, the encounter with Bella still fresh in my mind, when I saw my ex father in law.
God damit.
I shouldn't have come here.
I forgot this place would be crawling with people I didn't want to see.
I left everything and ran out.
That was close.
At home I took the boys upstairs, bathed them and put them down for a nap.
The camping trip was moved to next weekend so I had my boys for a few more day before they was leaving for a whole 3 days.
Later that night I sat and thought about Bella again.
Maybe she wasn't as bad as I remember.
She must have loved Xavier so much thats why she did so many horrible things.
But today I saw a soft side.
Her having a family with Xavier has changed her alot.
He must be such a great father,he must be making her so happy.
I was the one who ruined her life by getting married with Xavier and than falling in love with him.
They were finally happy together.
I suddenly decided to stay as far away from anyone who has anything to do with Xavier.
I couldn't ruin his or Bella or their daughters happiness.
I knew I was being selfish because I also wanted happiness.
My boys also deserve to have a father's love.
My boys...
I started crying.
Did I make a mistake coming back here...
I should have move even further away...
Now...
I laid in bed and held my pillow.
Maybe I wasn't supposed to be happy.
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