Remember to Forget

Chapter 19

Jia Xia

2 years later

After that night we finally became one.

Every day was perfect.

Accept when Bella made her appearance.

Bella hasn't been making things much easier for me but I have been very patient.

My 2 nd wedding anniversary was coming up and we were planning to go away as we never had a proper honeymoon and on our our first miss Bella suddenly had a accident and Xavier was there to play the hero.

I was busy packing whe my phone went off.

I checked to see a notification from Bella.

This woman was really not going anywhere.

"So I wanted to apologize to you in advance...

This weekend me and Xavier are going to my parents house for a few days, as my family doesn't know we have broken up... I'm sorry if I caused you any inconvenience... Xoxo Bella."

What!

Why the hell hasn't Xavier told me about this.

Why didn't he tell her family.

I was so angry at him.

This was what I was dealing with for the past 2 years.

Why when ever I needed him she would take him from me.

I was very excited to finally go away from her but once again I was the one who was left behind.

Me and Xavier had many fights over the past 2 years, and things weren't going to get any better.

My birthday she he was with her as she was graduating.

My graduation she was ill, he was with her.

My first pregnancy which ended soon after because of stress he was with her, i couldn't even tell him.

He doesn't know how much he was putting me through.

I couldn't control myself anymore.

I called my father in law.

"Hi honey... Are you excited about your trip..."

I broke down.

"Please dad, can you come to my house and bring my parents please... I need to tell you all the truth."

He was shocked but finally agreed.

That evening I told our parents about Bella.

They weren't surprised.

I felt so stupid, they knew and didn't even try to help me.

I was so angry I ran out of the house.

Xavier just arrived.

" Jia Xia... "

I pushed him out of the way and walked out the gate and down the street.

I couldn't believe I was such a fool.

He told me to never tell them yet they knew everything.

This was the last straw.

I suddenly felt weak.

I sat down and cried.

After sitting for over an hour on the sidewalk i finally got up and went home.

The house was empty, everone was gone.

I walked into the room.

Xavier was already in bed.

This was exactly what I was afraid of.

He stopped caring.

She was more important than me.

And she would always be.

I took a shower and got into bed.

Xavier turned around and wrapped his arms around me.

"I'm sorry baby, I don't know what's happening... Please give me some time and everything will be sorted out soon... Please.."

I got up and walked out of our room.

It was the first time since that night I wanted to be alone.

No matter what happened in the past I always trusted him and accepted his behavior towards Bella.

This was something I didn't like but my love for Xavier made me stay and endure...

I walked into my room, and locked the door.

I knew Xavier wasn't going to let me sleep alone.

He hated it.

Whenever we had a fight I would threaten to sleep separately but he always had the upper hand and won.

But not today.

I had no intention of getting back it our bed again.

He needs to make a choice now.

Soon he was at the door.

"Baby please, I can't sleep without you, come back to bed please.."

I ignored him.

Again he kept knocking.

Finally he was angry.

"Jia Xia, can you please act like a grown-up, for god sake, your being naive and stupid about everything, don't throw everything away just because of jealously... Jia Xia... Jia. Xia..."

He hit the door and left.

I finally heard his car start and heard him driving off.

I looked out the window to see him driving away.

He must be going to Bella.

I wasn't sure we were going to be able to go on like this much longer.

The next morning I got up and went to take a shower.

My bags half packed was still in the closet.

I looked at them and suddenly felt angry.

I kicked the bag.

I lost my footing a fell to the floor.

I hit the floor and felt numb.

I had become numb to the pain.

I got up but again felt weird.

My heart was racing and my head was spinning.

I sat back down.

I need to see a doctor, this has been happening for the last 3 weeks and I didn't know why.

I silently prayed it was a incurable disease.

If I could die, maybe Xavier would finally be free and happy.

I got showered and went down stairs.

Xavier's car was home.

So he must have stayed by Bella last night.

I never saw this until now.

All the nights I spent alone he was probably with her.

I always only remember the good times.

Like my mother said... Remember to Forget...

But suddenly I couldn't find it in my heart to forget any longer.

I ate breakfast and called the doctors office to make an appointment.

Mrs Noona was busy doing the laundry when she suddenly stopped and looked at me.

I watched her as she tried to hide something.

I got up and walked up behind her.

She was holding a woman panty in her hands.

I grabbed it.

"Well well... This definitely isn't mine..."

I smiled and handed it to her.

"Jia Xai... Please... Don't take this the wrong way... Please...

"

I just smiled.

"Okay Noona since you know so much please enlighten me..."

I sat down and watched her try to explain.

She said she had found under wear in Xavier bag a few time and she knew they belonged to Bella but she knew it was all just Bella's tricks, so she always hid them and threw them away.

I just sat there.

I was really the only person who knew nothing.

How stupid can a woman become, blinded by love.

I took the panties and walked up to our room.

I placed them on Xavier's pillow, grabbed my bag and left.

I had learned to drive a while back.

I started my car and went to the office.

After my graduation I started working for my father in law.

He needed a Personal assistant and he trusted me.

So yeah.

I got to the office and collected the first files and walked to his office.

Xavier's office was also in the same building.

I knocked and walked in.

"O good your here..."

He actually acted normal.

He must think I was still stupid and in the dark over everything.

"Sir, you have a meeting at 10 with our legal team over the terms of the blue cube conference, a meeting at 1 with Mr Paul from Zimbabwe about the oil project and finally than a board meeting at 4 with the directors over the appointment of Mr Lee as the new company CEO. "

I said and placed the files on his desk.

" Sir if thats all I will be heading back to my desk. "

My father in law suddenly spoke.

" Jia Xia, don't be angry... Please we.. Me and you parents didn't know anything till a few months ago... Please, we all spoke with Xavier and he said he was working on it... Please... "

I was so f*****g angry.

What the hell did these people want me to do.

Smile and nod.

Hell no.

I turned around.

" Sir, i don't think it's appropriate to speak about our personal relationship here at work, so if you'll excuse me. "

He just sighed.

I walked out and again my heart was racing and head was spinning.

I luckily was close to the bathroom.

I walked in and sat down in the emty stall.

I locked the door and than suddenly had to vomit.

My head was now spinning non stop.

I was shaking my whole body was literally shivering.

I sat down.

What was happening.

After a few minutes my body calmed down and the spinning stopped.

I took a deep breath and walked out.

The rest of the morning I kept getting headaches.

Luckily I had an appointment at lunch time with the doctor.

I called a taxi as I was afraid of what might happen if i was driving and the dizziness hit me.

I sat in the waiting room.

"Mrs Lee.. Jia Xia Lee.."

Called the nurse.

I got up and walked into the doctors office.

I explained my symptoms.

She examined me than asked me to take a pregnancy test.

I was shocked because I had my period a few days ago.

But I didn't argue.

"So... You're definitely pregnant..."

What... ?

What did she just say?

She took me around the back to the ultrasound room.

She laid me down.

I remember her from my previous pregnancy.

She was the one who helped me get over my miscarriage last time.

She smiled as I was thinking about the last pregnancy.

"O wow... This explains alot..."

I looked up to see two small figures on the screen.

They were still so small.

She smiled and said.

"You carrying twins Mrs Lee, thats why you feel all the symptoms in excess... Two baby means twice the hormones..."

She said and laughed lightly.

I couldn't believe it.

She continued and explained to me I was around 10 weeks pregnant and the baby's were growing well.

She said that at my next appointment I would be able to see the s*x of the babies.

I asked her why I didn't feel them in me.

She showed me the monitor again.

She explained that they were laying in the back of my womb.

I remember a few weeks back my back was hurting so much.

She laughed and told me to get dressed and followed her.

We got back to her office.

She wrote me a prescription and told me to be very careful because my body was weak.

She said I should avoid getting angry or overwhelmed or overworked.

It could lead to another miscarriage.

I accepted her advice and walked out.

As I walked out I was so excited.

This was great news.

I couldn't wait to tel Xavier.

Was he going to be happy.

I walked over to the receptionist to pay the bill when I heard a familiar voice.

I looked around and saw Bella, and with her, Xavier.

I walked closer slowly.

I wanted to hear what they were talking about.

"Bella... What are you saying... Are you sure..."

Came Xavier's voice.

"Yes... Now we can finally get married... Please I don't want our baby to be fathers less..."

I couldn't listen anymore.

How was this possible...

He was sleeping with her all this time.

I suddenly realized it was all lies.

Everything was just a smoke screen for their relationship.

I suddenly remembered the doctors words.

I took a deep breath and than payed the fee and walked out as fast as possible.

I walked back to the office.

I didn't feel sad or angry or anything.

I was just numb.

I have been used to the extent of actually being completely useless.

I knew I had nothing left.

My life was over.

I was turning 18 in two weeks and I was pregnant and just lost my husband.

Deep down I think I was prepared for this.

Maybe my mind was always ready for this.

I didn't go back to work instead I went back to Shanghai.

I went looking for kim Ha bin.

We spoke often after I decided to start my life with Xavier and her respected my decision and said he would always be there no matter what.

I had no idea what was going to happen now but he was the only person I could trust.

He took over his father's shop after his mother passed away last year.

I knew he would be there.

I went to his shop.

He was busy talking to a customer.

When i saw him I finally broke.

My knees gave way and I felt my mind became blank.

"Jia Xia..."

Thats the last thing I remember.